"Stop it Marc" I said with a small laughter

"Don't you like it?" he whispered

I stared at him for a while as if I'm in wonderland admiring the beautiful moon. Then he kissed me softly on my lips.

"I love you Belle" he said with looking at my lips then to my eyes.

"Why do you always called me Belle?

"Because it means 'beautiful' he replied

He kissed me again and dropped me to my house.

"24 hours a day with you is not enough" he text at night

Why do he always have to make me blushed? Even his eyes is already enough for me to fall for him.

"You're too flirty" I replied

"Tonight I'm not going to washed my leg or brush my teeth before bed "

"Such a jerk. I won't sleep besides you "

"I already washed my queen. I was kidding. Oh gosh! How bad I wish you are here sleeping next to me"

"Are you on bed now?"

"Yes I'm on my bed, soon to be our bedroom"

He talked to me till I fall asleep like he always did. He never wanted to sleep before me. Sometimes he sang me to sleep. When I had a nightmare, even if it's in the middle of the night, he's always there for me. He calmed me down. I ran to him when I'm sad, mad, angry, happy. He feels like home.

I wake up a lot earlier than him. He used to set alarm just to wish me 'Good morning baby' then he fall asleep again. That's how he usually do.

I can't even imagine life without him. I'm bad at expressing my feelings. He probably won't even how much I loved him, I also didn't know that 'cause it's too much.

He's kind. That's the one thing I really liked about him. We have been dating for 1 year. He said that he loved me since we are in high school. We attended the same high school but I barely noticed him. Only when we are in higher secondary we actually started talking. Now we are in college. In a few weeks we are going abroad to continue our studies.

"Baby I saw you in again in my dream. This time we had kids" he text

"Haha. A boy of a girl?"

"What do you want?"

"Before we had a girl so this time let it be a boy"

The next day he got me a male teddy bear.

I remembered when we were in our senior year we were in a bus with my friend. That day we planned to meet at 3:00 pm. at the bus stop. But we had extra class till 4:00 pm which our teacher did not told us before. I was so scared that he'll just went home. When we were in the bus I saw him going home. I almost cried but the bus suddenly stop due to traffic jam. Then we went off and hurriedly ran to catch him up. I ran as fast as I could. I managed to catch up with him and my friend was very tired although she didn't run as fast as I was. It's funny thinking about those time. I ran because of love. And it was worth it. He even bought me cakes for that.

We both moved to Melbourne to continue our studies.

He held my hand tight but softly like he never want to hurt me and never want to lose me. Then he put my right hand on his chest . "I'll always be here and there for you. I'll never abandoned" he said looking at my eyes and kissed me softly again . This is what he always said but this time I believed it with all my heart. It's not that I don't believe him before, this time it's different. My heart is pounding fast, I can feel it.

"You feel like home, Marc" I hugged him

"I am your home baby and you are my home" he said pressing me into his chest.

I closed my eyes for a while and he asked what is wrong

"There's nothing"

"I can feel it Belle. Are you afraid of sleeping alone?"

It's my first time staying far from my family and I was a little nervous to sleep alone in my apartment. He knows me so well.

"You want me to stay?" he asked

"No it's fine"

"I'll stay. I know you want it"

"Thank you Hubby"

"You should always call me like that."

"Hubby I'm sleepy". We both laughed.

We cuddled the whole night. It was so warm to be in his arms. Yes, it feels like home .

I want to marry him now. I really want to. I want to be with him forever. Nobody ever made me feel like the way he did. Staring at him while he's sleeping feels so magical. He's the most handsome man in my eyes. I see a beautiful garden filled with varieties of flowers which blooms beautifully in his face. I wake up and made breakfast for him.

He treat me like a queen,why won't I treat him like a king.

I woke him up at 7:00 am .

"Goodmorning my beautiful wifey. I love you"

"Goodmorning my handsome hubby. i love you too"

"I loved being yours my queen. I can do anything for you" he said with a serious look on his face

I hugged him and kissed him. "Thank you my love" I whispered.

I can see the loved in his eyes , I can feel his loved for me form his lips. He always closed his eyes while we are kissing while I looked at his eyes. Seeing him so passionate and sincere just make my heart melts. He did not know that I used to open my eyes and stared at him while we were kissing. I often closed my eyes too.

I remember our first kiss. It was 12th September after dating for 9 months. I was reading books and he suddenly lean towards me and kissed me . I can't explain the feelings. It was too good to be true. His lip on my lip. I was not ready and was schocked. But I replied him soon. It was soft and gentle.

He said gently looking into my eyes, "You are mine forever and I'm yours forever"

It was a cold January, new year began. Our 2nd anniversary arrived, It was 3rd January.

3 days after our 2nd anniversary I got a called from my father. I know from his voice he's trying very hard to say.

"Dad do you have a great news? I have many things to tell you"

"You need to come home" At first I thought he missed me so much that he just said it

"Of course I'll be home at the end of the year. Now it's only January so don't miss me too much" I said while laughing

"You have to come home......now"

"Why? Something wrong?"

There's a moment of silence. I thought he was trying to prank me.

"Dad do you miss..." Before I can finished,

"Your mom is dead"

I paused for a moment. My aunt take the call and she said that my mom just passed away. It was around 9:00 pm. I know this isn't a joke because she was sick for months.

There was a silence from my side while my aunt was trying to connect to me .

"You mom is dead, take a ticked right now" she said

Then I break down and scream because my world collapsed. It was hard to breathe. My aunt was consoling me through the phone. But it's like I don't hear a single word. Just the sound of my heart broken into pieces, the sound of my world collapsing.

After a while Marco ran to me. My aunt had informed him about it. I was lying on the floor not knowing what to do. He knows my apartment password so I don't have to bother opening the door for him.

He lift me up in his arm and hugged me. I couldn't cry anymore. Everything just go blank. I have a breathing problem. I passed out and the moment I opened my eyes I was lying on the hospital bed.

I went home as soon as a I can. My home was 5 hours flight from Melbourne. Marc couldn't accompanied me as he was having exam the next day.

When I saw my mom lying on the coffin. I go numb. I couldn't cry, I couldn't talk, I just stand still untill someone makes me sit.

It hurts so much but I don't know how much. I don't know how I feel. It's a feeling I could never explained.

How do you feel when you lost someone you loved so much ? If you haven't then loved them like there's no more tomorrow. Spend time with them. The feeling of regret will be stronger than you thought.

We don't cherish the time we have. When it is past, we can no longer have it back.

To all the people you loved, give them hug, tell them you loved them , tell them they're are beautiful, tell them their good sides, make them smile. Give them time, that's one of the most important.