Do you think every bad time has an end? For me I'm confused. I feel like most things in life are permanent as they are all stored in our memories. Same goes for both good and bad times. Life always teaches us to be strong but for how long? What if the bad days don't come to an end? These are all the thoughts that I go through everyday.

My name? I'm Rose. I'm an orphan. My parents even didn't want to keep me i guess. I live in an orphanage . Life's been pretty tough for me . Seeing other kids happy faces with their parents always made me wonder "What did I do to deserve this? Am I the problem?". I never got to experience the love of my family. I actually never truly understood what love is.

I have a roommate Bella here in the orphanage. We're the oldest ones here and really never got a chance to get adopted. Well couples only come for younger kids or babies. No one really want kids above 12 anymore. And I'm completely fine with it. I don't care whether anyone wants to adopt me or not. I have a huge future ahead and I plan to successfully live up to my dreams.

My thoughts where soon interrupted by Bella.

Bella- "Heyy!? What are you thinking about?? Do you not want lunch? Or should I eat up yours too??haha"

Me- " NOOO. You stay right where you aree! "

Bella- "Well catch me if you can! Hahhahahh"

Me-" Waitt ! YOUUU"

We are always like that running after each other and trying to forget about our situations in order to live a normal and healthy life.

Life in school is hard as well. Kids like to pick on us from the orphanage from time to time. They pull up weird pranks and always keep saying rude things as if they own the world just by having a family. But maybe they do...

Our school is not pretty far from our orphanage. We all go together in the morning and come back after our classes are finished. I'm in my senior years of high school in the same classroom as Bella. We're pretty close in the orphanage but here in school it's completely different. Here she lied to everyone about having a family and living a normal life. So here she mostly ignores me or else the other kids will start picking on her too. I completely respect her decision and always try to maintain my distance from her. If someone can live happily by lying then we should let them be. Why bother someone else's happiness just because of jealousy. I have no friends. Most classmates come to talk when they need my help or if there's a group project they need to discuss. Happiness is valueable . If someone is happy we should let them be.

* But maybe somewhere deep down we are still looking for the missing love to fill up our emptiness inside. *