04 March, 23

Doesn't feel good, feels like someone is standing over my heart, and it hurts I don't want this kind of pain or discomfort it feels as if I'm getting stabbed again and again in my chest, but sometimes it just feels numb, palms become cold, hands shiver it becomes unbearable.

05 March, 23

Suffocation, you know how it feels when you're breathing but feels like you can't breathe and everything goes blank in a moment

10 March, 23

To that person,

Who cares, who puts effort into the things he wants, who doesn't take me as his vulnerability but as his strength, who's sure of what he wants, who gives priority, who's soft and gentle, who knows how to respect, who makes sure to keep his loved one's safe, who trusts, who is valiant, who doesn't conceal, who is a man of his word, who's aware of circumstances, who understands, who will seek me in the infinity of the universe, who will choose silence underneath the stars to understand the unsaid words to understand the rhythm of my heart, who will reminisce the love…

Hey, I wonder,

If you still are the same person I knew if you still remember when your hands were wrapped around my arms, and it felt like home, if your eyes search for me whenever you go out just like mine does, if you feel the same way I do, if I'm in your prayers like you're in mine, if you wanna see me as badly as I wanna see you if you miss my existence as I do if this distance makes you feel like a walking corpse the way it makes me feel like

Most importantly I wonder if your feelings are fading away if you still want me as much as I want you.

11 March, 23

A Letter,

Which was written with alluring words

But was excruciatingly read

Those words which were never told

Someone was asked for to stay

Those words which had deep interpretation

Were understood by the one reading

Those words which sounded like infatuation

Were bearing significant definition

Those words which made someone sob

Were meant more than he could ever think of

12 March, 23

Distance,

...The space between two points ...

In this space all I wanted to do,

- was to open my eyes and see you beside

- was to feel the warmth of your skin against my palm

- was to hear you call my name

- was to know that you're safe

- was to lay down and close my eyes knowing that you're mine

17 March, 23

But sometimes I can't stop wondering if you're another lesson, another person to teach me something, someone I don't get to keep, it isn't doubt not second guessing what we have just scared to lose it, the pain I've been feeling is already unbearable if something goes wrong by any chance I don't think I can survive