The Morning After I Died
Prologue - It Isn't What It Is
Implied suicide, implied self-harm, self-loathing.
The man that had no life in his eyes,
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𓆩 Prologue - It Isn't What It Is 𓆪
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◻ The Morning Before I Died ◻
Xavier
Not even a single pain...
It was the usual routine.
At first, the emotions I had inside me—
I can confess to my wrist over and over again,
so that my mind can let go and forget for a moment.
All I can feel now is just numb.
Xavier
That's all you can do now, Xavier?
Xavier
Lying around constantly, staring at the ceiling for God knows how long?
(You're really useless, aren't you?)
Xavier
I should at least clean myself up.
(But why was that so hard to do?)
The melodies on my wrist, obvious.
I peeked at the mirror, brushing down my teeth with my untouched toothbrush.
A man with dark circles around his eyes stared back.
Xavier
...It's today, Xavier.
Xavier
You have to at least look decent.
Xavier
How...long have I actually made an effort to smile?
(Too long ago, back when your smile was genuine.)
I bit down my lips, holding back the tears that wanted to die.
I once heard of a saying.
Just like how most of the pained people had, too.
“Everything will be okay in the end.”
Xavier
Why is my life still like this?
“Life may be full of roads, as life is unfair.”
Of all the lives you had chosen, why me?
What reason do I have to be here,
with my meaningless existence?
was the same as being dead.
I climbed up on the chair.
The man observed, his hand supporting his chin.
A slight breeze rustled through his long, dazzling hair; but the man paid no mind.
Because all his eyes had for—was the wandering,
that lived a life without hope.
Grim Reaper
If everything is not okay in the end...
Grim Reaper
Then that is not the end.
(For what it means to live.)
Even after the morning you died.
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