Name: Silvia

Age: 16

Gender: Female

Birthday: December 25

I didn't get people's expressions; it made me feel uncomfortable. I thought they were my friends because they laughed with me, but the truth was a bit different; they weren't laughing with me. They were laughing at me. Why? What did I do?

Whenever my friends touch me, I feel like I'm their friend, but it's different. I don't get why they do this. They say I am their friend, and if that is true, then I don't care if I get hurt; they say I am their friend! The thought just makes me shiver with happiness, and my mind feels eased. Everyone says about me how much they need and care about me. Their words was the only thing I care.

"Put your hands up if you know the answer..."

As soon as the teacher says that the chime rings, which takes me by surprise. The teacher's voice goes in my left ear and out of my right ear, as usual. I swiftly close my tattered pencil case and chuck it in my bag. Raining makes my dizziness worse, and pain suddenly urges like my head is being cut in half. I dig my hand into my broken bag for my medicines. Every minute, my headache seemed to worsen, and despite carefully searching my bag and laying everything on my desk, the medication was nowhere to be found. Feeling like a dead fish, I solemnly put the things back in the place where they belonged. The temperature made me shiver vigorously. I longed for my coat to come back, but it never seemed to like me very much.

"Hi there, Snowy! My friend!"

The sudden volume makes my headache worse, but I was too delighted to care about that mere pain. One of my best friends, Ella, came to talk to me! The thought of that made me grin automatically. She had always been nice to me, and she was the one who allowed me to call them by their names.

"Hello Ella, how was your day today?"

I make a reply, trying to be polite so that she won't do the usual things too early. The face of Ella never changes; she always puts on a smile, even when she is angry, which is what I like about her.

"Very awful; the teacher gave us homework to do. So, can you?"

She makes the same movement as usual, her smile spreading widely, which makes her look even more friendly! She waits for me to give her the response she wants. I feel eager about how she needs my help; it makes my grin wider. The pain in my head doesn't bother me anymore because of Ella's presence.

"Okay, as usual, I will."

As she hears my response, she passes me the worksheet that was set by the teacher. I take it with care and put it in the folder, so it won't make a crease, which will displease her. Her smile stretches again as she is satisfied with me and walks somewhere else, making me a little sad. I wish she did the usual thing so I could be with her longer. I just simply sat there, letting the feeling of happiness flood my mind and replace my pain. Now that she came to me, I don't care about what she did to my medicines. She called me a friend! The realisation makes my face soften, and I smile foolishly to myself. I will get to see her tomorrow, and other friends said they will meet me tomorrow afternoon as well! I let my face make a foolish expression again. Better finish the worksheet before she gets angry again.

"Oh, umbrella" most object dislike me very much, my umbrella ran away again. The thought made me daze at the sight of dripping eagerly outside. I do love rain but not when i am unwell. Although the existence of Ella made my pain ease it returned the moment she left. Sound of the rain which is usually a lovely sound is like a hammer hitting my head today.

"What are you doing here?" suddenly a unfamiliar voice came to strike my ear. A cold, sharp voice but it didn't seem to be angry or annoyed like my friends. I looked at the source of the sound. A boy about my age was standing. He had a crimson eyes and pitch black hair, surprisingly he was handsome. A boy that Ella would find interesting or fall in love with. As i stare at him he narrows his eyes, the movement of his make me realize that i haven't replied to his question yet.

"Hello, i was just about to go home. Sorry if i disturbed you"

i wonder what he needs? I use the attitude that i use to my friend. Ella would surely be happy if she meets him. He only seem to stare at my eyes even though i responded to him. I just shrug the fact that he is staring at me, putting my bag on my shoulder. Making no fuss i make it to the door which he was leaning on to. How should i pass through him if he is blocking the door? I make a sigh in my mind and put the normal smile back on the place.

"Sorry, would you mind moving a bit? I would like to go through the door"

As he heard my voice he slowly moved away from the door, i was relieved that he didn't find me annoying or rude. When i walked past him he suddenly grabs my wrist.

"Wait"

Once he said that i automatically turned to face him waiting for a few second for him to continue his sentence. No response for a minute, i have a sudden urge to just ignore him and go ahead but that felt very much rude to him so i tossed that thought away. While waiting for him i admired his bloody red eyes, it was beautiful like a jewel but it looked a bit lifeless. After a few more seconds he realizes that i have been waiting for him to say something.

"Do you want to.... "

He starts his sentence with a slight blush on his face, not making any eye contact with me. He suddenly breathes in deeply and change his face stern making me surprise.

"I heard that you don't have an umbrella, how dumb are you to not bring one?"

Am i allowed to kick him? Pushing down the enormous desire to hurt him somehow i make a response to his insult.

"It's nothing you need to worry about, thank you for the care though"

Putting my best smile to hide my anger i try to walk away from him, predicting that he would let my wrist go but he pulls me back to my original place or even more closer to him. He makes a desperate face, opening his mouth to say something but stopping midway. After few more seconds of him reacting odd he finally speaks.

"I will lend you... "

Slight panic was in his eyes, his voice in a whisper but desperate to say something. I wait there in a confusion. Lend me? What?

"You can use my umbrella if you really want it, well I'm not dumb as you so i brought my umbrella today"

Can i kick him? I know the answer is a definite no but my anger blows up. I try my best to hide it, i want to kick him so hard. Then that's where i noticed his facial expression, he looked like he was on verge of crying. Huh? Why?? I didn't do anything yet? I try my best to comfort him, forgetting about the anger which was in my heart a second ago. I hold his hand with both hands near my face and smile brightly, a smile that i never show to anyone and say the word gently

"Thank you"

After a few minutes of being still of this position, both of hands wrapping his hand gently for a comfort. Slowly the boy with red eyes made his expression soften and his mouth turning to a faint smile. As second past he seems to realize our distance and makes his cheek rose pink. I release his hand not breaking the eye contact.

"What was that for?"

Cold as a ice gaze appeared on his face gradually. It looked so similar to my friend's gaze but somehow it seemed different, somewhere in the gaze contained kindness towards me. I gave his question an answer before his face becomes more stern.

"Sorry for that, i wonder what I'm doing. I sometimes act weird. Sorry"

Same set of face got painted on my face and i wait for him to respond. Will he become angry? Disgusted? The simple thought made my headache increase vigorously, i squish all my hopes towards him and predict the most worst possibilities that can happen so i get less shocked, less pain.

"Let's go"

He hold my wrist, half dragging me to outside. What? What does he mean let's go? The freezing cold wind cuts my body making me shiver. Raining sound which is usually soothing now makes my head splatter. I look into the boy's beautiful eyes for distraction, he doesn't seem to notice my stare. Light blue umbrella gets opened soundlessly and then he finally notice my state even though i tried my best to hide it.

"Where is your coat?"

His eyes seem a little kind? Worried about me? My mind wishes not to lie but i know what words to say automatically. I fiddle with my silky white hair, smiling a little.

"I thought it wouldn't rain too much so i left at in my house, i should of looked at the weather forecast today but don't mind me. It's not that cold so i can live with it"

Even in the icy cold weather i say those word confidently so that my lie won't get revealed by a nameless person. Name? I didn't ask what his name is... I open my mouth to ask his name but a comforting warmth covers my body so suddenly i make a little squeak noises. My body was warmed up by a coat which was unfamiliar, i look up to him and as i predicted he doesn't have the coat which was on him a second ago. A little confusion occurs, why is he so suddenly nice to me? I just simply hold his coat closer to me feeling every bit of warmth that makes my headache soothe. My face feels hot than usual, i wonder if it's the coat fault or is it...? Nevermind, hard questions can wait long. He pulls me to him so that i get under the umbrella and he joins in. The distance of a male makes my heart rate rise so suddenly, i make a little space between us. The distance which will never decrease.