Hi my name is Skyler, I'm an 18 year old girl who lives in Los angeles, California. I'm here to tell you my story and you will find out what people say to people like me. I'm not a normal 18 year old I have cancer, and I'm stage two for now. My doctors told my mother that it could go either way I could get better or I could get worse. I have a heart problem which causes me to have a sickness called Pulmonary edema and that means my heart causes my lungs to have a ton of fluid in them. For over 8 years I have been in the hospital because I have to have treatment done to me and I can't leave until I get better. So about five years ago I wanted to got to school so I would go to school but I would have a nurse with me at all times and kids would be like " awww what's wrong with you? Are you okay? Are you dying? Aww I feel sorry for you. Aww that sucks, hope you get better Skyler." You might be wondering how is that bad its not honestly but it gets very annoying, so annoying that I quit school. After that I have been in the hospital since then. I want stuff to stop sometimes but that's not how life works so I say to myself, "Suck it up and don't care about what happens in the future just go with it." I know even if I get better this will always be a part of my life no matter what. So I want to enjoy my life even if I die at least I die happy inside. I'm an only child in my family, but I have a best friend who likes to take care of me when I feel down or want to give up. He tells me that if I die who is he gonna take care of or who is he going to talk smack with. He is my best friend and he makes me laugh no matter what time it is, he is a sweet guy and I sometimes wonder why he doesn't have a girlfriend. Although I don't go to school with him, he never talks about people at his school, he just tells me funny things that happen at his school. I'm very grateful for my best friend and I hope he stays with me till the end.People in the hospital ask me why don't you get out of your room to talk to some of the kids your age here? Maybe it's because I don't want my best friend to feel lonely or it may be that I don't want people to feel more pain after my life ends. I'm happy when I'm alone in my room. I play my piano and create novels or stories, so then I can print them out for people in the hospital to read when they're lonely or sad. I believe that one day we all will meet. time and no matter what you do is invenadible. I can't say that it's ​not sad or quiet or cold but you will overcome most of the obstacles that are in your way. No one has an exact story about their lives but we all know what can come true and what can't.

My life can be happy but I choose to keep people further away so I don't hurt them. I know that I shouldn't choose whether or not they should get hurt but I feel like if they do I'm responsible for them getting hurt. So I did what needed to be done.

I talked with my best friend and told him that I didn't want him to go through pain with me that I wanted him to be happy and that he should find someone that can take care of him and make him happy. After that I have never seen or talked to my best friend. I felt sad and

lonely but I knew it was the best that I could do for him.

So, now I perform for the hospital guests and patients. I didn't feel as lonely but I did attempt suicied a couple of times just to see if my best friend would

come back but he didn't. I just gave up and turned into the girl who went mentaly ill.

After two years past a person came to visit me and told me that my best friend was sent to a hospital in Chicago because he had gotten diagnosed with lung cancer. The person told me that he decided to smoke at the age of 19 and had been smoking for two years. I told her to send him a vid that I made for him a year ago and to tell me after the video finished so that I could video call him after words.

The person had left and before she left she had told me that she was

his sister and that she wanted to keep on living and not to give up on life. 24 hours later I get a text from his sister and she tells me that he doesn't believe I'm still alive. So I decided to give my best friend a video

chat call and he answered. I was surprised that what she had said was true and I was sad at the same time, so sad that I started to cry once he answered the phone.

We talked and I asked him what had caused him to start to smoke and he said it was because I had told him I didn't want to be his friend anymore and he thought it was because he was being a bad friend. Then I told him that he was really dum cause that wasn't why I had stopped being friends with him, and this was the last

thing that I wanted for him.

From then on we were best friends but then one day he asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend and I told him yes but only if he got better for me and he did. He moved back to Los Angeles hospital and we would walk around together. Sadly when it was my 23 birthday I had a bad day. My best friend/boyfriend died because of a heart attack that

was caused by his lungs, they were not letting him breathe. From then on I just was not happy but then I found this place called Im Fine.

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