Oh, God!. This is the reason I don't like people being so close to me so stressful. Am just here sad waiting for his texts while he is just having a good time.

I am Cassie am 17yrs old and just graduated from college. After our final exams our principal decided that we should go for a Thanksgiving for the success of the exam. Such a nerd. But That was how it all began.

On the D-Day I and my friends came very early. We came one hour to the time. So we were just there chatting and passing the time. Before most of my classmate showed up and the event started. I decided to sit in the front row for the first time in my life. When the worship session began. We were singing to God and all, when I noticed the drummer OMG!!

He was so cute. Most people would disagree But he was exactly my type of guy. My whole spec. I was admiring him until our eyes met Jesus!! I looked away immediately jeez. But I was still tempted to look at him again. Which I did be because I couldn't help it. Luckily he wasn't looking at me. I took my time to admire his good looks. He was so my guy. I feel like we have a connection. Well his face looks familiar thou, but I can't really recall where. It's fine I will think about that later. Let me feed my eyes first, and we would worry about that later I thought.

After the church serviceI, couldn't even recall what the pastor said, because I was just carried away by a guy I don't even know, that I just met in church. Oh, God! forgive me I begged. After the church thanksgiving. We greeted everyone, because that would be the last time we would be together completely. Because we are done with college,, so it's the end of being in the same class. Some would travel some will find a job and so on. But we all would never be together ever again.

I felt like tearing up. When I reasoned all that, but I had to play it cool. My best friend is going for her interview tomorrow, and hopefully will start working from tomorrow. When I recalled all those things, I started processing each of everything going on around me. It just dawned on me, and tears uncontrollably started falling down my cheeks. I had to run to the bathroom, to avoid sympathy from anyone. because I don't need it,and everyone has always known me as the tough girl who never cries. So I wouldn't want to let them down too. its funny thou, but I had to protect my image. Don't want to taint it.

When I was done crying, I cleaned my eyes, and went to where everyone else were. After the endless goodbyes, we finally boarded an Uber and went home.

When I reached home my mom was home already. Good evening mom I greeted,. Evening she replied. How was the thanksgiving,she asked. Cool I replied, because I was I no mood to talk. I didn't know what was happening to me, but I was in no mood to talk

Just cool? She asked again. Yea I replied. Mom I am so hungry please I need something to eat. I said to stop the questions about the thanksgiving.

So my mom made food,we ate and bid each other goodnight. On getting to my room,I took a cold bath, to cool my head ,and immediately went to bed. I was just looking at the ceiling, thinking about my life because I had nothing planned out yet, when all my friends have their lives planned out even their marriages. I felt so left out, because I don't even have a boyfriend to begin with. Am broke and confused. But I will be fine I said, encouraging my self. I couldn't sleep even at that.

Suddenly my mind drifted to the drummer I saw at thanksgiving. I started thinking about him, and am definitely going back to that church next Sunday. Because you never know, I might get lucky.💖💖💖💖. I feel asleep shortly after that peacefully💤💤