The teenage girl with short hair sitting alone in terrace looking at the sky with deep thoughts and tearies in her eyes but suddenly some one call her from back " YATI WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE" as she turned around she saw her younger sister coming towards her. she ask her younger cousin sister what happened why are you calling me lily with sad face as she cry before . Lily reply why you always make sad expression when ever you are alone you don't have any work except this. you know your mom and dad never understand you still you cry for this matter. Yati say I'm not crying because they scold me I'm crying because I am thinking about something. lily say then what are thinking which makes you cry. Yati say nothing just thinking about the past . lily say think whatever you wants to think Because I am not going to hear your sad thoughts it's will make me irritate and bore after hearing them so bye I am going. yati again remember that they never be there with her whenever she needs them she again started to remember her childhood when her grandpa still present she again looks in the sky with teary eyes and say I miss you grandpa and I am sorry for not becoming a girl which you imagine in my childhood. grand pa I am totally changed from the past .I am no longer your good girl .I am becoming bad girl whom everyone hate . she is crying and start to remember those days and talks about her which her grandpa told her. She say grandpa you said when I was born you are not here you was attending my younger uncle marriage but when you come to know their is another girl born in your house you was so happy. and I also know you love me so much,care about me and believe me when you was alive. I still remember those times when I slept with you always told me stories so that I can went to sleep. you always wake me up with your sweet voice. whenever I need something you always bought those things in few minutes., you always take care of me you never get angry with me you always scold others who make me cry or sad. , you always scold my mother whenever she beats me or scold me. I still remember how you get angry when my elder sister fighting with me and by mistake hurts me my bleeding was not stopping which makes you angry and you yell at her, that not the only thing I remember i also remember when I am sick and admin to the hospital for two days you come fast leaving your work to me and stay my side till I am not recovering. i still remember the day when you first time angry with me because I play outside the house all day and come back home late night while everyone is searching for me. but last you sweetly told me never do this again you know how worried I am for you.

but the thing I love the most when I went to my uncle's house for vaccination with out telling you with my mother but next day you come while searching there for me even when you don't know where is my mother brother house you still come for me. I was playing in terrace that time but when I saw you caming towards my uncle's house I became so happy and run towards my mother to tell her that you're coming here but know one beleive me so I wait for you in foot and as soon you come you hug me tight and tell me you miss me so much. but when you leaving you and I we both was crying I was telling you to take me with you but you can't take me as my mother came with me if I went with you and you don't want to do this you didn't want to spoil her vocation in her mother house after so many days . when you no one allowed me to see you in last time where everyone was present there. you also why you never meet me in your last days. you know grandpa I am changed so much did you still love me as past if you still present. but I miss you so much the past memories end she began to cry but suddenly her phone start to ring as she picked her phone her mother angrily asking her to come back in her room she cleaned her face and go to her room

As I entered in my room my mother angrily shot on me. if I don't know when to return in my room you don't have any work except go to terrace. why are you not studying you know you are average student in study. why you never studied hard like your sister and other cousins who always get first position in their school in each classes and other side you how only know how to sleep,eat , and play or causing trouble. when you understand me. I can't control any more and brust on them if they ever understand me or even cared how I feel when ever they compared me with other I also have my own life, every one is different from each other then why they always compared me with other and also I am only gi to the rooftop, I didn't went out from the house then why are you angry when I am in my own house.

and at that time my mother slap me really hard which makes my cheeks Red. and shot at me again by saying that did I know how difecult for her to pay school fees for you and still you shamelessly just thinking about your self now eat your food then go to your room and study. I replied I don't want to eat anything she said angrily if you don't eat your food then ready for locked in your room. I silently eat my food because I don't want to get more beating or locked in room

after eating my food I go to room for study after few minutes my father come to my room sit beside me and tell me why I always make my mother angry when I know how much she worried about me related to my studies. I don't say any words because I knew my father also have the same thought as my mother. they both thinks that studies is only important things in life except this their is nothing which is more important.

they want me study whole day and night. but I am not that much intelligent or I love to study. I am just average student in my school who has no true friends in school.

I really never have any one who understands me or listen all my nonsense talk about my school but this never happened because you never have free time for me I always live alone in my room. you never spend time with me like other children's parents spend their time with them. but still I know that you care about me . and I also know my sister also love me but you guys never talk to me sweetly or ask me about how was my day, you never prase me . you always compared me with other, and only point out my mistakes you never even celebrate my birthday you always forget my birthday. you always scold me if do something which makes happy, you guys always tell me to stop doing those things which makes me happy because it can be in my studies way and it's can be distracted me from my studies. But how much I changed more my self I already left so many things if I left this thing which makes me feel happy then what will I do. but this all things which I saying I can only say it's in my mind because I am not that much brave to say you this thing father. I am continuously crying where my father only saying the things related about my studies.and also what I expected from him. but the last line of him which makes me Wants to change my self is when he says do you think your grandpa will be happy after seeing you from the Haven

that you're not studying you only becoming bad girl which things he hate the most. do you wants that he will hate you. No I never wants this that's why I started to study while crying and last I go to sleep and pray to the family that my grandpa never hate me because I only love him more and may tomorrow my school day will be good and please stay andi away from me because he always make

my heart beat fast I didn't know why and also because of him every one tease me and make fun of me by saying that we are couples so please God stay away that frog away from me. good night god.

I am sleeping soundly in my room but suddenly someone hit me on my back while ordering me to wake up. from beginning the when I got slap in my back I know that the person who hit me on my back is no other then my father who always wake me like this with saying his favourite line that is 'WHEN I WILL BECOME HUMAN CHILD'. Without wasting any time I do my morning routine and go to the school. when I entered school I look around see that their is few children in school .ofcourse it happened because I come school early so that I can avoid that frog.i happily go to my class because today two good things happened first today our seats are going to change and I don't want to see his irritating face. please good shift me to third line because he sit in first row. and second thing that's I am not going to see that frog face in morning. but as soon I entered in class I see the most annoying creature setting in my desk with his froggy smile which makes my smile disappear why god why him why he comes early in the morning doesn't he said he will come late today. suddenly I hear voice YO MY DUMB GIRL and every one start to laugh while saying adie stop making fun of her in the early morning. i simply ignore them and put my bag their and as I going to left the class that jerk stop me . Now what that froggy jerk want from me. I am saying this in my mind when he suddenly slide is arm in my shoulder which gives me goes bomb in body. when I turn my face to him and asking what he wants from me. then just simply come close to me and say while smiling that he doesn't need any work for talking me because I am his dumb girl. ooooh God seriously why he always act like this he always misunderstanding between the students they think I am his gf when I am not. I am just his friend and also the person who he only when he wants to tease me nothing more. and it also give false hope he already break my heart once and I didn't want to break it one more time. I remember in 6 class he always talk to me like that but suddenly he started to change he start to gets angry on me and insults me few times well at start I didn't get it why he started to get angry on me without any reason but one one of friend told me that he likes someone else who is no other than my friend not a true friend but a class mate because I think all class mates are my friends but the truth is I never had best friend. and from that time I start to ignore him and when I finally start to close my feelings for him in my new class god fix my set near him and surprisingly he start to interfere in my life , making me do his work while making froggy face and all you know he also tease while saying different different names. but I soon snap out from my thinking because he was pinching my chick and I slap his hand away because it's really hurt. but as soon I turned other side I see the girl whom he like and other girls are glaring me I just simply smile them because they are not some one who will lessen me. and I simply sit on my desk. but jerk hit my head and go out from the class. but as soon he goes out from the class all girls start to gather around me they start to make fun of me while insulting me. they always do that they always treat me like shit. but I just simply let them do what they want because if say something to them then it will become big fight and can't let mother know about this.