She sat with her friend on school bench.She was anxious, her friend lean closer and said " believe me Shaza..i'm not gonna let you down..this one is going to work..don't you feel that".Shaza looked at her with her shining light brown eyes..her long eyelashes kiss each other repeatedly..she looked at the sand while making round with her feet and started to talk calmly, "Oshi..I know he likes me..and I also know you don't harm me, I really got the feeling but I am scared."

Her curly hair was touching her red cheeks...he skin was white as snow..she was the most beautiful girl in the school. She got many love propose..it can't be counted. Only one boy who is two years older than her caught her heart. He was smart,talented,genuine and sweet but not handsome.

In the evening she got on her school bus and sat down near her one of best friends Lily. "Lily, you know about Tayn right?"asked Shaza."Yeah the one you told me about, who asked you?"said Lily."yes..what do you think about him..should i say yes?" she looked at her while holding a big hope in her eyes. "No! He don't suit you.." said Lily. What!!why...are you talking about appearance?"she said like a poor rabbit who got a hit by an arrow."It is not only about appearance you silly..I've seen him trying to apporch other girls when we were young..he also came after one of my friend..so I don't like him" Lily said with straight face. "That was long time ago.Him and I were best friend back then, he told me about every thing. We didn't know our feelings will turn like this..you are my best friend..are you gonna help me if I got together with him?" again that beautiful cat eyes were straighten at Lily's face..Shaza's white hand were on her shoulder like little cat paws. "Ok Ok !stop with the cute face..I will help you..but give it a second thought at home.."Lily said it with calm voice..she was worried but couldn't resist Shaza's hopeful eyes.

At home Shaza was stuck with her young thought..she was only fifteen but she have been fell in love with him so long.She thought about every possible thing that colud happen, in deep down she know there will be also bad thing as there is good thing. But she refuse to think about it because she got blinded by love." But he is a good person so what colud go wrong.We have each other so we can over come anything" she thought. She desided to accepet his request. So she bought a wooden key tag and started to write "Thank you..I am willing to be your girlfriend." She took it to the school next day, and waited for interval. She went to meet him with Oshi and he also with his friends near the trees right on time. She saw him but suddenly Shaza paused in her position. It was only few meters for him. But she couldn't move.

That was it. Her relationship with him began exactly on that day. I can still remember how she explain every situation to me with her twinkling eyes straight at mines.She has bravely went to him and handed over the keytag and ranaway.After that everything went well. They were happy. They spent most of times together and I spent most of times thirdwheeling and listening to every story of hers.

"Lily, It was a wonderful evening. He hugged and kissed my forehead when we were at the staircase. Oh! I really love him. You know what when we get married I will name our daughter Shenu." said Sasha .

I was nodding without even thinking. What am I feeling? Am I jealous of him? Am I Bi? Do I love Sasha? I was questioning my self. We were close friends and I have always been jealous of Oshi since she has been closed to Sasha than me. After he came along I couldn't think of anything. Should I be jealous or happy for her?

At school bus she leaned her head to my shoulder and slept. At that moment I felt I should protect her. But I was not sure about my feelings. But I was sure about one thing that's no matter what I do like boys.

Ricky was the boy at my class. He was my best friend at time. Just after he broke up, he asked me out. I never had a boyfriend before I couldn't resist him,. He was handsome as hell and had the bluest eyes which can look through in my heart.

Of course, I said yes, but it was the worst decision of my life. Before I said yes to him, I told him about my first crush Blake. He was handsome, tall prefect at our school. I met him at my private classes, but I only took glance at him.

"Should I say yes to Ricky? Or should I ask out Blake?" I asked Sasha.

"Lily, when do you feel more jealous ? Is it when Blake speaks to other girls or Ricky speaks to other girls?"

"When Ricky…

" So he is the one you like". Said Sasha before I finished.

But actually It was her. When she speak to other girls and guys I felt little jealous.

So I had a boyfriend. We were good, and it was fun to have someone to talk than listening all the time. I felt that I was slowly changing. Gradually both of us got busy with our boys and only talk about them when we met.

Fortunately my relationship ended in three monthss.I should say that we were toxic till the end. But I felt so lonely and immediately got a new one. Yes I became one of kind brat that doesn't think about love seriously until I found my today partner. My second relationship was with someone out of town. Major thing was I didn't like it when he touches me.

So that means...