Well... Being the least favorite child is creepy🙄 and I am one of them 🤗

WELCOME TO MY WORLD🎆🎆

Having siblings is not that great as it is showed in the movies, but in fact is the opposite. It's like living with the devil 😈☠️. I'm the middle child and as the legends says we're the one that are out of luck🤷. Some of my relatives says that our parents loves us the same. Okay, they may love us the same, but why don't they treat us the same? I've been working my *** of just to get their attention. AND when do I get their attention?? Only when I do something wrong unconsciously 😊. And after that comes a big criticism and comperession with their friends "perfect" childrens and my siblings 😊.

I have been working till 5 am and stayed without food and sleep just to get the best grades and make my parents proud of me or at least to make them show some seconds of attention for me. I have been trying to be the best and completed person so my parents will not be ashamed of me or at least tell some good words. I have been pretending to be strong and not show them that how much I miss them and how much I love them.

Could they at least give me some attention and not only judge me for something wrong that I may have done, but to support me and what I am doing?

My big brother stays out till late, spends a lot of money, never do something for the home or at least make money for himself, fail into exams and not attending the school as it has to be, use me as a servant and only put bad words for me AND still he is being favorised?

I have been working my *** off just to make them happy, I have never broken their rules, I have lived under the shadow of my brother for 18 years and never got their words back and respected them as much as I could.

And in the end who was I? I am just somebody that you used to know.

Well you see I've been trying to be strong, but I have been learned living this way. What hurts me the most is my little brother. I really love him and I will give my life for him to be happy.

But when you are hurt inside and you are in a state full of depression and feeling sorry for yourself who can you make somebody else happy? I am very tired and sometimes I shout at my little brother. I don't want him to be treated like me, but when the only thing that your parents have learnt you was how to make others unhappy how can you know how to make others happy? I love him and he's full of anger and furious inside and I don't want him to suffer as I am.

Well, thank u my parents for making me the monster I am today😊.