"There's Zen!""There's the gay bastard!""Yuck ! There's Zen! That shameless flirt!" They said a lot of insults and taunts to me when I started walking down the hallway, but I didn't worry because I'm used to it. Hello, I'm Xiens Zen Austein. I 'm a 1st year college student and to be honest life isn't fair with me. But no matter what i kept on holding on into god. I'm currently walking down the hallway of STEM building. I am holding a box of chocolate that i made by myself in my hands because i wanna give this to Klevion Train Q'trev, We call him Levi. the person that i admire the most. But i only saw alot of students piling up inside the Gymnasium, i was confused so i decided to go there too. Who knows? It may be something important. When i got there my eyes immediately caught- Levi? Why is he there? Why is he standing in the stage? And who's the b-beautiful woman beside him ?"Please listen everyone!"Levi said in front of the mic, making the crowd silent as if they were waiting for whatever Levi will say next. But what i noticed is the woman beside her that kept clinging into Levi's arm, and the way Levi pulled her closer left me doubtful. What the h3ll is happening?" I just want to announce that...-" Levi cút his words, leaving the crowd including me thrilled." This beautiful woman beside me..." Levi looked at the woman beside her with full of love and admiration "Dawn Faye Westwood... Is now officially my girlfriend" When Levi's eyes was exploring the Gymnasium, looking at the crowd's mixed reaction. His eyes caught mine. He let out a mocking grin that made my tears fall out... How could he? My heart was glass, and he dropped it broke.

I didn't realize that I left the Gymnasium and went to the sea side to rest. It was just the last class so I just skipped. I gave the chocolate to others instead of just throwing it away. I'm just staring at the sunset.. I don't plan to go home either because I don't have anyone to live with... I've been leaving by my own for the past 3 years. It is said that Mom lost her life while giving birth to me, while Dad ran away from responsibility when he found out that Mama was pregnant, so Aunt Pau took care of me, but unfortunately she also lost her life immediately. Actually I'm a working student.. I only go to work every other week as a cashier at 7/11. I looked at the time on my cellphone and realized that it was 7:10 pm.. the sun had already set so he decided to go home before it got dark. I just walked home after all my house is near here. While walking, I remembered Levi and his girlfriend, Dawn... I started to cry. I was about to cross suddenly- *BEEP BEEP!* Loud car horn, I thought I was going to díe! I immediately bowed in front of the car, saying I apologize. I immediately went home and took a half bath

I removed the covering from the body before burying the body in the water... I looked at the small mirror. It lasted for about ten minutes before I decided to rinse. After getting out of the bath tub, I put on an oversized black t-shirt and white pajamas. I went to my mirror to dry my hair but the moment I saw my self... I just smiled bitterly. I noticed once again how fat I am.. a-and the pimples in my face.. I wanna change myself for the better but I don't know how I will start. I decided to wipe the small tears in my eyes before wearing my eye glasses and proceeding to lay down on my bed. After staring into the ceiling for 5 minutes I got up again, went to my study table and opened my laptop. I'm gonna do some research on how to remove pimples and how to reduce fat. I want to change myself. I have endured their ridicule for a long time because of my body and this time.. it's time for them to payback.

I woke up early the next day. Today is Saturday so there is no school. I did my usual routine, I put some skin care products that I bought before that I didn't use because I was always busy. I wore my gym clothes and decided to do some exercises. I wanna go to the gym but I'm still not confident enough so I'll just train myself at home. My goal is to have a slim body and not a masculine one... But why not, right? After hours of push ups, 10 rounds of running around the neighborhood and other stuff I decided to take a shower, I feel so sweaty. I don't want to smell bad, so I'll just take a shower again. I showered again and dressed in comfortable clothes. I went straight to my study table and turned on my laptop. I was just casually scrolling through my Facebook feed when Levi's new profile picture showed up. He looked so damn hot in his picture. I decided to share his profile picture in my account even though it was only me. "If only we can be together, Klevion." I said in the caption and shared it. But after 30 minutes I noticed how my notifications blew up. I decided to check it a-and my world stopped when I realized that my shineard post was not only me... It was public! I quickly panicked because it had 2.5K reactions and it was almost all haha ​​and angry, it also had 3K comments and I saw that Levi also saw my shared post which made me even more nervous. Shit!

You thought Levi would like you?!" "Yuck! You should be ashamed of yourself!" "Hey, is it possible?! Levi already has a gf! You're a real troublemaker! You're going to ruin their relationship!" I started to get teary while reading their comments but i stopped when i read Levi's comment K.levi.onSQ: hey what the h3ll is this?! K.levi.onSQ: delete this wth! Your making my gf jealous you motherfúckíng gày piec3 of sh1t! His comments immediately got 1.3k haha ​​reacts! So I quickly deleted my shared post and turned off my laptop. I buried my face in the bed and cried there. "****!.... What have I done?!" I started to cry uncontrollably "I-i... I ****3d up! Now Levi is more mad at me!" I tried to wipe my tears but it just kept on falling like a waterfall "A-and almost everyone in school s-saw it... I-i... I'm such an embarrassment..." I said while sobbing real hard. I continued crying and eventually fell asleep.

When I woke up, I felt that my eyes were swollen from crying so much. I felt my eyes tearing up again when I remembered what happened earlier... I... Need to open this up to someone... And that someone is .. Ren, my longtime friend who is currently in Spain. I immediately reached for my phone and dialed his number to my contacts to compose a message. AghamZén: Hey, are you busy right now? I chatted him, it took a little while before he responded 09********9: excuse me? Who's this? He said, really? He doesn't remember me now? How dare he! So sulky! AghamZén: you don't remember me anymore? (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) 09********9: how did you get my number? AghamZén: Of course you gave it to me when we were still in Manila before you left! AghamZén: anyway, can I call? Please I just need to get this off my chest. Please? I didn't wait for his reply and called him already. It was like 3 times before he picked it up. "Hello? What do you need? Make it fast I'm a busy person" a cold hot sexy voice answered the phone, what the heck? This is not Ren! Ren's voice is really cheerful and energetic. What happened? "Ren?" I said, asking. "My instincts are right, whoever you are. I think you called the wrong number." He said "H-hey! Please don't hang up!" I begged him "Why?" He said with a bit of annoyance. "P-please i.. I don't have anyone to tell this... I-i just need to get this off my chest.. please? I don't have anyone by my side right now..." I begged him once again. I never thought that I would beg for someone to stay by my side but what can I do? I'm desperate and broken. I can't handle this by myself anymore

A short silence occupied the call but it was immediately broken when the other guy sighed. "Fine." He said briefly. I let out a small smile before telling the story, from the very first start. While I talked he was just silent- I think he's listening? I hope so. "A-and that's how I made the biggest mistake of my life..." I said while sobbing lightly when the memories flashed once again. "You're dúmb" he mocked me "I-i know! I know it's a wrong move.. b-but.. i.." i cannot continue my words when i realized.. yeah... I'm really is dúmb . "I'm not good at comforting people but all I can say is don't do that again. That's really sad, how come you didn't realize that earlier?" He said i just chuckled "It's okay.. I'm happy that you're here to listen to my stupid problems." "Anyways, I'm Xiens! It's nice talking to you" I said "Xiens? Like the subject Xiens?" He chuckled "what a unique name" "Why are you even telling me your name, anyway? You don't even know me. That's so stupid. What if I'm in an illegal organization and your just gonna tell me your name casually ?" He said, i just rolled my eyes "Because i know i can trust you..." I said that made him silent. "Hey, Mr. Wrong number. Can I trust you?

Hey, are you still there?" I asked, he hasn't spoken since what I said earlier. Did I say something wrong? "H-hey.. did I say something w-wrong..?" I said nervously. "No, you said nothing wrong." He said i was relieved because of that "Hey, can i ask? What's your name?" I said "Cain" he said... Coldly "Cain..? What a pretty name!" I complimented him "Of course, a pretty name for a pretty boy" the h3ll? I chuckled because of what he said "I need to hang up, I have an important meeting." Cain said coldly. Why change before mood neto? "O-okay... Thank you for talking to me!" I said cheerfully "mhmm.. you should be." Cain said before he hung up. I was immediately put to death. I just smiled, at least now the heavy feeling I feel is reduced. Right? I set his name into my contacts as "Grumpy Cain" that made me giggle.

After he hung up the call I stood up from my bed and wore my black hat and my gym clothes. I also put a black face mask just in case, maybe someone will recognize me from Royale Academy. I don't want to get humiliated in the gym. I grabbed my eye glasses and my keys before locking the door of my house and running into the gym. This is what I'm gonna do now, whenever I have free time I'll always go to the gym or train myself at home to lose some weight. I'm gonna change myself from now on. I arrived at the gym and when I opened the door, everyone's gaze turned to me. Is there something wrong? _ _ _ "Huff...huff... My body is so sick!!!" I complained loudly. I just came home from the gym a while ago, I was there for 3 hours and many people there helped me use the gym equipments, before going home I also ate at a vegetarian restaurant and went straight home. And now? I'm here in bed, writhing in body pain. Only now I really felt the pain of the body. "Ughh..." I whimpered when I felt my back aching. I reached for my phone to uhm... Call for help? Wait should I call an ambulance? But it's literally embarrassing if I told them that I'm in pain because of exercising! I sighed before scrolling through my contacts and a name caught my attention that made me smile. "Grumpy Caun' I immediately tapped his name and wrote my message for him. ScienceZén: Cain, help. AghamZén: I'm dy1ng. I chatted and waited for his reply. I giggled but both my arms immediately started to hurt. My body is so swollen, it's really annoying. My drama stopped when my phone suddenly rang. *Thing! 3 messages from Grumpy Cain!* I immediately read his chat. Grumpy Cain: (?) Grumpy Cain: hey are you okay? Grumpy Cain: what the hell happened to you? I giggled while reading his messages, it was terrible. Is he concerned?