Story of a

intorvert

Hi im a

introvert a dude that don’t talk and speak much sometimes this gets me bully or

pick on my personality is base off nobody as its is my life a reality that

loneleyness has been with me a kid that has no social skill yet has people to

have fun with though his cousin relationship and his big brother as in hafiz

never has any friend of his own failing his life with many people hafiz learn

though it even right now he is still begin harass by group of stupid people

hafiz has no friends to help him with anything begin alone he  has nothing to do with his life he just a kid

that has pain and suffering wondering around the place with no meaning to life

which one day he will learn the meaning of life though many moment and story that

he will create though his life as many thing he has been though with idol he

has fail his relationship with as people keep saying to him you better be the

one that can socialize he look weakly as he knows people blame him  for his entire life he feel as he is a

failure a dicuting person only recieve digusting thing he a bad person people

says but what of the others that hurt him tempted him with things he cant

afford that fine he guess a life of  pain

and suffering he has to endure he has no psp when he was young as they told him

they cant afford it for him only his big brother  as he see only his big brother has many fancy

thing which he don’t have and rule put on him if he wants to play and begin

call a moron many thing its just a joke don’t take it seriously.Ps2 First to

have it is his cousin as his cousin has a wealthy father as his father is just  a poor person a ex military  a person know as ex komando a person has military  life in his past a person that beat his

family, hot temper, dead beat father a wastedful father now people know how his

mother his a kind hearted women a, person that make hafiz speak a lot even he

says no she still force him to do it a wonderful women,his  big brother a person that follow the world

rules and allow people to step on his mental health a world a reality of his own

that consume by others having fun by him self a reality that sadeens him self

to the point of life consuming people life as his sadnesss is the strom that will

kill others sadness and life reality of his own was consume by others a life of

his own was consume by others I will never forgive people that hurt me not for many

years I hate people that will always be in his soul and mind rageful and

hatred.

Hatred for

life will lead you down a path that lead you in darkness and hell as mit will

make you isolate your self to the point you feel nothing for human as you hate

human the burning fire will set many thing in your life ablaze a fire that burn

in hell a fire that will hurt others around him and he will not care for it he

will not care about other people life as he hate people to the bottom of his heart

he hated people as his reality and his life is not beautiful as others it fill

with rage and hatered a fire that want to burn others as it too hot for him to

supresss a fire that need to burn the world to the ground a reality that he needs

is a world that don’t talk to much for him to hear as it all talk shit  and love to trash talk about a person and his

life, he had a very harsh life that make him disconnect from the world and life

makes him a empty vassel a harsh reality make him a harsh person a person that

wanna live his life a person that wanna write his own life story a reality of

his own to tell the world or reality **** you many times as you try to fight

back as sometimes you give up as its to hard to fight back and people will

always blame you and make your life hard as a living hell a bad person that

push you around a person that gets his way a brat that stupid police officer

son a child that has to be dicispln but never did a kid that love to bully

people and make hafiz hate people the most and stop caring about human life “just

keep on bullying im don’t care “ bully and his friends don't care about Hafiz mental health hafiz is all alone

fighitn back the world as he begin to burn the world to the ground reality sit

in as he indead burn the world to the ground at the age of 23 thanks to that bully

the bully is a asshole jackass person that he ever meet a kid that

was free to bully people and do as he wishes making hard to hafiz to live his

life as  a person that need to have one

. TO this day hafiz still hate him to his heart content a asshole that love to

bully people but he manage to walk freely cause of what his status his farther

is a cop yea then change hafiz reality says that hafiz father is a cop when

that not true at all both father and sons are bully “ he can be our friend “

yet they know hafiz don’t want to be his friend many times over he says he don’t

want to be his friend a sad reality that hafiz has to went in his life what

does sadness does.

Trauma

oh come on hafiz it just a joke why dont you just grow up hafiz i know you just a kid a achild you dont understand how to sosilize with people he stood there hearing voices in his head everyday he keep on walking his path as he know he gonna burn the world to the ground that not even a joke as that is his desire a person desire to kill others and murder other to show the world how much they have **** with the wrong person yeah he was just a kid he never did anything wrong he never did anything bad  he was a seilent kid and a quite kid that love to live his life a reality that burn all his innocent life he attitude for loving people and now he dont care anymore he just all alone walking the path of darkness and espair the darkness that will lead him into hell and more pain and suffering plus he a failure he fail at many thing and everything in his life he fail at many thing he can get a job he cant get a girl he cant get anything he a loser and a failure he a failure yet he keep on living even if he was afailure he still keep on  living his life for many years and month to came he keep on failing and people hated him for it he fine with that as they were honest not was bullshiting people everday like someone he knows he  hate the most that take away his life ana d reality many times he can count and now he just trying to hold it all together as a adult that was badly damage by many thin in his past life hafiz struggel to holdit together making him a naughty kid during his teenager age, Living his life as a tennager he keep hearing voices inside of his mhead controlling his action people think he just a sick digusting pervert but the reality is he just sick in the head and needed help more then anything.Anything stupid hafiz did it is cause of the voice inside of his head and mind that always consume his health by the secound a person that is not healthy by the head and the soul that needed help nobody notice it as sometimes he think a demonic creature that is trying to kill him like a jin that come afther your life but that how it is his mind make him feel like he was in danger when he was not and could cause problem if he is not too careful that will cause a him to danger others and he did it many times as he kill almost many kill many times accidentaly as he did not meant it he never meant ot hurt anyone it just his lack of mental health and social skill he has a problme that will cause problem for his life many times making people hating him stop begin his online mom dad sis and many more plus more break up that he has to go though during it cousin g him to go more in depression state the lies people told the manipulation they did will never been forgiven as he hated them all all of them shall die and perish in his flame of hatred.

The religion hafiz is in is islam the religion hafiz grow up in but the community around him is toxic causing him to hate his people by a lot as he was bully and redicule by many npeople at many times and nobody give a care during that time he just a kid that need friends the though nah he just needed games and the strength to go though  the reality that he is in a reality that sit on his depression a perosn that has to face depresioon and his toxic community that teach him many bad thing in his life yet he never wanted it as he dont want anything to do with people in his life as his depression was at high he was a kid thta alwasy call people big sis and big bro he call hololive idol mom and aunt and many thing yet if bad thing happen people blame him and not the one that pick on him make fun of him and that was the end of their relation ship as he was tempted psp game the one that he never has video game is the number one nesscacity that hafiz need and interested in as the school didnt care about him only pusnihing him and hurt him the school only care about not justice no. what the bully did to him just a bad horrible stupid cop sonj that keep on temping him with a psp we can see how the kid was bully and pick on by many people and nobody care what again the bully say he gonna be like me i will never be like him and will not be like him in a million years as i hate him and that bloody principle i hate him the most i hate both of them that people that abuse me and hurt me this ns when i was a small kid now im older im a sick person i have ptsd now but im getting better and better for my mental helath condition is getting a lot better now thanks to the doctor and people around me that is my family that help me a lot more then people can count hafiz is growing in the mental health department hafiz has problem his head and mental health yet he was care for finally like he was suppose to he was just a kid that needed his family love and care that will help him cure even more as for mata she his a girl hafiz meet online in amino she from korea that fun  for him finding a place for him to belong in his life

Is the

driving emotion that hafiz has when he was young the only thing hafiz know when

he was young Is sadness a depress kid that the world alyws pick on yet he try

to fight back but fail many times over he hated the bully and his friend

stupid princicple playing hentai games is better to avoid begin bully

or tempted by many fun games that people can play while he lack the knowledge

to has the gadget neceary to play those games he replace it with something he

can play a new reality that he made for him self to avoid begin bully or harass

by people playing these nasty game change him a bit into a nasty person but he don’t

really care as he hate people  no  matter how kind they are to him there are a

deep hatred for people in his soul and heart his heart is black as a coal as he

don’t really care for others but him self but when he reach the age of 23 people

say he the bad one as he don’t understand that what people doing to him is

funny but when he does it to them they all start hating him a rage that built

caus of him always bully by people that was around him  many times over he can count a stupid police officer

son that need a reality check as his try to turn hafiz into him but fail many

times over as hafiz said “ as bad and horrible he is I will not be like him a

abuser “ hafiz hate him with all his heart but people all around im and that he

love do they care about him and share the same feeling never always pick the

talented one the nt talented one sucks cant fix back their life and reality.

The problem never was a hafiz but the reality that he live in  a bad world a bad reality people hate him

when he was young really hate him for no good reason no matter how good he was

people still blame him no matter what police officer son that can socialize and

know people hate hafiz nas he cant cause by his isolation life style, hafiz people

hate the most no matter what when they meet him again its be like oh look theperson

that always cause us problem but here the nproblme he did nothing wrong at all

he was a silent and good kid  miding his

own life and reality a hope where people don’t understand a reality where

people don’t fadom him and his idealogy is reality always mess up as he hear

the worlds inside of his head now he is 23 he was diagnose with ptsd a illned

he knows he gonna get from child hood and now its his new reality well its

gonna take him three month to recover that what he wish forthree mont not years

yet that will all that take for him to recover a strong kid strong Man a strong human begin that never goes down even if he goes down that will be cause by someone that always play dirtys a kid that talk by him self will never belong to any where and any place a different reality then others can give yet all of those bad memory is still in my head my soul has been broken many times and a liar wanna fight for my life he will win cause he play dirty that fine i will get him back many thing he did to me many thing will hurt him back i don't Care what right or wrong as i get older but i do care about My grandma she a lovely Old women now she cant see it's up to me to take of her as she Already did for me my grandma is a strong women that cant see yet can still work driving a car at her Old Age when i was a kid now as a adult it's my turn to drive her around good for me right repaying her kindness that grandma has for her own grandson lovcing him and taking care of him since he was a kid a childhood memeory a lot of fun thing and exciting thing happen to him cause of her and now its his turn to repay his kindness towardsd her as he not going anywhere but staying with her even reach out for his dream he would reconsider it as he was worry about his grandma as she cant see now and cant do anything with out any help, hafiz living a normal life  only to have a bit of fun by asking nicely and politely can he work or look for extra money sometimes she allow it sometimes she will not AS he was too Young and not able to think properly a person that has mental health issue that need Love and affection need kisses for his head need hugs and love need people to be there for him a reality that little people know AS he was a kind hearted kid that needed help but only receive when he a lot older then others he fine with that life a another sad reality for him to live in a kid that always got pick on and bully by others "oh Hafiz it's fine to say something stupid and bad things horrible things and words sad life and Reality as he was dump Twenty two Times in his life by a girl that he like all he did as a kid was avoid begin bully by someone a kid that need kindess a kid that needed love as he heart felt like he was not love a sad reality and life for him using many thing to make him happy but not all last for long as Hafiz mental health gotten worse in the end.