I woke up to the bright sun rays shining through my bedroom window, "Anna! come down stairs for breakfast" my mom shouted. I then changed into a over sized t-shirt and shorts and headed down stairs.

The kitchen was dark, but light enough to see where I was walking,"Happy Birthday!" my mom yelled holding a cake towards my face. Today was my seventeenth birthday and the first birthday I had without my dad since he left my mom and I when I was sixteen, I wasn't really feeling my birthday this year, but I still made an acception for my mom because I knew she wasn't used to this birthday thing since my dad used to celebrate all my birthday parties and always used to make them the best, so she knew she wouldn't of been able to make them as good as his."Blow out the candles" she said with a large smile stretch across her face.

"Did you make a wish sweety" she asked with the same big smile.

"Yeah i made a wish" I replied with a smile even though I didn't really believe in making a wish from candles.

"Anna so what do you wanna do for your birthday" she grinned with a mischievous smile.

"I was planning on staying home and watching tv" I replied.

"What? no, not on your birthday, we have to go out and have fun, I bought tickets to the movies"

"I know but why go out if i can watch movies home" i said.

"The real question is why watch movies home when you can go out and watch movies on the big screen, besides "The Awakening" is showing and i know how much you wanted to watch it"

"Ok, your right lets watch it" I replied defeatedly.

I went up to room, changed into a large fluffy sweater followed by my joggers and and a pair of gloves since it was extremly cold outside.

"Honey are you ready to go" yelled mom, like why is she always yelling when she's right down stairs.

"Coming mom" I answered, then we walked outside to the car which was raining heavily.

About an hour or two, we had just finished watching "The Awakening" and was heading home."The Awakeing" is based on a paranormal/supernatural movie featuring Rebecca Haul who acted as Florence Cathcart (a writer and sometimes ghost hunter) investigates a reported haunting of a boys boarding school having begun a foray into her profession upon the death of her lover in World War 1.

"So did you enjoyed the movie Anna?"asked mom

"Yeah it was really interesting"

"Well i'm very pleased that you agreed to come and watch it with me, happy birthday sweety" mom said smiling taking every second she had off the road to look back at me.

"I know things had been really hard on you since your father left but I wanted to let you know that i'm trying my best ok" she said with a sad look in her eyes.

"Oh and I bought you something" she said taking a box out her bag and handing it to me.

It was a beautiful gold necklace with my name written on it and a card saying never give up on hope.I know my mom had to take money out of her little savings to buy this for me which made this gift very valueable to me not because it's gold but because what my mom did to get it for me just to make to happy.

"So do you like it" she asked

"Of course i love it, you did'nt have to mom i knew how expensive this neclace, you already had given me enough already, I have you and that is just enough right now" I said while i put on the necklace.

"Thanks alot Anna, thanks for never giving up on me"

she said smiling with her eyes on the edge of watering.

"So mom you wanna make our special pancakes when we reach home" I ask licking my lips due to just thinking about it.

"You know I can't resist those" my mom replied taking a second of the road to look at me when suddenly "Mom! look out" I shouted as a car came smashing into us.

"Mom!" Look out I shouted as a car came crashing into us. The car was broken, and so was my body, I could feel it, I could feel the pain eating piece by piece into my body.Everything went so fast I couldn't help you in time.

There were metal against metal

Metal against skin

Blood was everywhere but I couldn't see you.

I shouted to the top of my lungs from i couldn't hear you.

Where are you?

I need you, I needed you.

I remember that smile, that beautiful smile, the smile that says everything without any words.

I didn't want it to be the last.

I was in pain, so much my pain.

My entire body hurts, it hurts so bad I needed you.You didn't need to say anything because your smile said it all.

I heard sirens and i saw people running towards me.

But i couldn't see you, I couldn't hear you.

They tried to safe me.

I tried telling them that you were the one that needed them, you needed them more than I did so

I screamed your name, I screamed it so loud I coughed, I coughed and I felt like I was going to cough out my internal organs but that didn't stop me from screaming.

They tried to stop me from hurting myself.

They said you was okay.

But I knew you wasn't because i finally saw you.

I saw you far away from me.

The impact from the car had flew you away from me.

I needed to hold you.

I needed you to hold me.

I continued screaming your name but you still couldn't hear me.

You were broken, so broken.

I wanted to fix you but I couldn't.

I wanted to reach you but I couldn't.

I tried telling myself you were ok but I knew you wasn't.

Oh God you wasn't.

There were blood all over you.

You were drowning in your own blood.

Body broken in so may directions

I needed you, I needed to know you were ok so I reached for you but they pulled me away--away from you.

Away from hope.

I was in pain.

My heart was beating holes in my chest.

My eyes starting to die on me.

My body started to die on me.

"Mom!" I shouted.

But you still didn't hear me.

I needed you to hear me.

"I need you" was the last words that slipt out my mouth.

I heard loud sirens driving me to the hospital.

They were driving me away from you.

"We're losing her" I heard as one of the doctor was pushing the defibrillator against my fractured body.

They were right, I felt it.

I felt my self fading away with bad memories. Bad memories about this accident.

I didn't want to stay here to relife this terrible accident over and over again.

But I had to stay, I needed to stay, to have hope for my mom.

I needed to stay for her because i know she wouldn't

want me to leave so soon.

"Hello, miss what's your name?,are you okay?,can you hear me?"

There's so much questions--questions I know the answer to but I just don't feel like answering.I want things to go back to normal, I want to say everything is going to be okay but its not, nothing is okay, I'm not okay."Where's my mom, please tell me she's okay, I need to know if she's okay" I said louder than I wanted to."You need to calm down or you're gonna hurt yourself, you shouldn't be behaving like this, especially after your accident"

"Please I need my mom, I need to see her" i replied.

"I'm doctor Stella and you are?"

"Anna, now please can you tell me if my mom is okay" I pleaded.

"Okay if you insist, Anna you're mom is......

"Hi I'm Mr. Curtis, Stella can you excuse Anna and I" ask Doctor Curtis interupting an important answer that I needed to know.

"Okay Doctor, I'll be outside" said Stella.

Stella left a while ago but Curtis haven't said anything thing to me since she left--everthing is just quiet, to quiet. Doctor Curtis won't even look directly at me but I know something is wrong, I could see the sadness in his eyes. I need him to say something but the question is am I ready the hear to hear it.

"What is it, is something wrong, please tell me" I asked.

"I want to tell you but I don't know how to say it, I don't want to put you through more pain......Anna it's your......your mom is......

"My mom is okay..... she's okay right?" I asked way to quickly hoping for an answer that will reassure me.

"Your mom is......your mom is dead Anna, I'm so sorry" he said.

In that moment everything froze, those three words changed everything, it changed me. I can't hear anything, I see Doctor Curtis yelling but all I can hear is those three words 'Your mom is dead' is just replaying over and over in my head and suddenly my whole vision is blurry from my river of tears.Crying then turned into the screaming, love then turned into lost, happiness then turned into pain and I turned into a moment in thing, nothing but juat a broken girl in a broken world full of sadness.

"She's not dead, I have to find her I have to see her, I want to hold her again" I cried.

"I'm sorry but she's gone there was nothing we could've done"

"That's not true I'm going to see her, I know she's fine"

But I don't.

"She won't leave me"

But she did.

"Anna you can't go, you have to stay still, you can't move because.."

"Sorry but I 'm going to see my mom" I said slowly getting off the bed but I can't move my feet, I can't feel my feet, but everything still hurts so bad.

"What's happening to me, I can't move" I said.

"I tried telling you but you didn't listen, the reason you can't move is because you're cripple"

"Cripple?" I asked trying to hold back another round of tears.

"Yes it means you won't be able to walk" he replied.

Why?, why is all of this happening, what is wrong with me. Everything is gone..... my mom is gone. I can't do this anymore, what am I supposed to do now? how am I supposed to live if everything is dead, if my mother is dead. The person I love is gone and so am I.

There is no hope, I know she said to always have hope but the one hope I had is now gone and so is everthing else.

This is the only thing I throughly believe in, this is my message to the world. 'Everything and everyone you love eventually goes so why not love at all'