Today is my return to school, I am in 7th grade. I had a wonderful last year and I plan to spend my first day the same way.

I don't have any friends. I've never dated anyone. I've only had two guy friends in my entire life. The first is called Sam, we've known each other since I was 6, he's a year older than me. Imagine that over time I had a crush on him.

The second is called Mael, I know him thanks to my godmother, he is her nephew. I knew him when I was nine. I also thought I had a crush on him but no. For what? No idea.

When I was 10 I started not seeing Sam anymore when his father came to our house I always asked for him but he never asked for me in return...

So I started not asking about him anymore and I erased him from my memory.

Mael and I became best friends and I began to realize that he was a lot like me and that's not all when guests came to the house they always asked us if we were brothers and sisters.

But our friendship was only short-lived because at the age of 11 he traveled. Okay let's get back to the present today is my first day.

Last year I started noticing a girl but it never occurred to me that I was gay.

This year I'm going to find a boyfriend. How? No idea. Because I go to an all-girls school. It's really difficult to find a boyfriend, especially since you go to an all-girls school.

If it continues like this people will think I'm gay. Not true?

I almost found myself in the same class as the girls of the year, who are good and not good at the same time.

I found myself in the same class as Théa. This girl has been harassing me since 2nd grade. I was very lucky I ended up with girls I knew last year.

You just have to remain unnoticed by Théa and I was right because throughout the day Théa didn't speak to me once.

You know when I told you that I don't have a best friend, well I have one but I think it's a toxic relationship because it's my fault I started it.

In first year I met a girl named Billie, she only had me as a friend at the time and every time I threatened her to do something it turned against me in 2nd year.

This year I really want to end this relationship as quickly as possible even if it was my first friend I'm going to do it.

She's really hypocritical, a bit like me when I was in 1st year. But I didn't think it would last until now. Luckily for me we didn't fall into the same class this year.