First time seeing him at the classroom and felt he is so handsome but annoying at the same time because he smart students it's just felt like 💢. But funny enough I'm not an extrovert. It takes me anne week to get to know my new classmates and for him it takes me several months. It's kinda hurt because I have had a crush on him for a year already. For me it felt kinda annoying because the math teacher favored him because smarter one at math but felt good because the teacher doesn't care about me. I kinda like that situation. Our introduction started with my friend and talked with him just for math questions. I felt really bored because our topic was only math, and it stopped after a few minutes. Can't I talk to him about other topics? There one day I said to my friend and all my classmates heard what I said, it was smooth it turned out that Hairi had dimpled, and I was embarrassed myself. How I wished I could turn back the time and stop myself from talking about that. We didn't talk for several months after that incident. How I regret that. In that period I'm always taking a glance at him. I want to have a word with him but imagine that scene makes me think how awkward that will be. The exam period is coming, and I focus on my studies while wondering about him. At that time I just hoped not in the same class with him but our mate is still there. Next year I'm still his classmate. I hope that I will stop having a crush on him it's just that I can't . Me there being like a naughty girl and good friend to him. My friend always asks me to talk to him for math questions and which I kinda hate but felt happy, maybe I am still confused with my feelings like a clueless person. Being an early person who came to the class always waiting at 6.20 am for him to come. After he takes a seat I always secretly take a look at him and smile by myself while fanning because it's too hot early in the morning. I always gossip about him with my friend just to make sure that I know a lot of details about him, but thank you to them I get a lot of details about him. every math class he always offers himself answering the questions at the white board and I always give full attention to him and correcting his mistake. I always noticed him frequently having a stomach ache and I just wanted to tell him to have proper rest so I wouldn't worry a lot about him. That's how I start my day and end with a proper goodbye at the end of class by just looking at him. Just smile and go.