The time was about 2020. When everyone is confined at home due to corona disease, a sudden incident started in my life.......

- Is there anything in your life except mobile and sleep all day? The month of fasting is going on and you can recite a little Quran 😒😑 (This is my dearest and most angry mother)

- Aha! I will do it Ammu. Don’t scold me 😐

- If I don't scold you, will I say hello?? Maghrib Azan will be given... 😠

Me - Well, I'm coming. Why are you not saying anything to Rahi? (Rahi is my one and only elder sister)

Ammu - Without further ado, you and Rahi come here and help me with Iftar.

Iftar and Maghrib prayers are finished by knocking like this. I sat down to read for a while. Then I enter our private chat group on WhatsApp with my phone and talk for a while. I went to watch the drama, I was already a fan but after this corona I became addicted. It was night and i ate some rice with curry because of Ammu's hundred scolding. Then i took the mobile phone.

Suddenly a message came on WhatsApp. I checked and saw that it is a new member of our group whose name is Dina. I heard about her as the cousin of our class captain and she lives in Chittagong now but she used to live in Feni and left for her better study. She doesn't have any friends there so her cousin added him to our group. We sometimes talk in groups. But it's the first time in the inbox. So at the beginning of the message she asked me how I was and I replied then she told me she had something serious to talk about I was curious to know what she wanted to say and she said -

Dina - I have been thinking of telling you for a long time and now it is the month of fasting, so I thought it would not be appropriate to hide it anymore.

Actually I am a boy. I pretended to be a girl and entered your group to make friends. I have no friends since childhood. All that was at home. There is no one to talk to.

Hearing this, I couldn't believe it. I thought maybe he and his sister were joking, so I didn't take it seriously. Then I jokingly said ok.

Dina - So can we be friends please 🥺🥺

Me - Do you think I will believe these things 😒🙄 Well if you are a boy then what is your name, give me your voice recording I asked him various questions like these.

Dina - My name is Rihan.

I am surprised to hear a voice recording of him!! After I asked his sister many questions, she said, "Sis, I will tell you later, now my mom is nagging me to sleep."

Meanwhile, I have blocked and don't understand what to do, after a while I unblocked and said....

Me - I don't believe in anything.

Rihan - Inna-lillah! Now!! Shall I give you a foot pic 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️?

Radika - No 🙂

Rihan - Sorry

I was tierd of hearing sorry..

Radika - If you say sorry again, I will go there and kill you.

Rihan- Well, sorry, so you forgive me?

Radika - 🙂🙂🙂

Rihan- please believe me 🥺🥺

Radika - Well, I will tell you tomorrow

Rihan - Sorry

Radika- 😤😤 I told you to not say sorry again

Rihan- well, friend or block??

I don't say anything else, after a while i saw he send me another message

Rihan- say something

(I didn't care to seen that then he massaged me again)

Rihan - Please Apu....

Meanwhile, my dear Ammajan is nagging me to go to sleep. So I sent a message to finish the conversation quickly.

Radika - I said no, I will tell you tomorrow

Rihan - Okay 😔

Then I messaged his cousin early in the morning and she said,

Nadia - Sorry, I went to sleep yesterday, now tell me what happened After I told her the whole story, she explained everything to me and then said, "You can talk to him if you want he is a good boy. But Please don't tell anyone about this. "

I act like I was never going to message him again... But I don't know why I wanted to message him and I did.

Radika - I don't know why i wanted to massage you Rihan - then! friend?

Radika - Hmm. But if you do anything wrong, I will block you.

Rihan - okay i promise you

Day after day passed like this, we became friends but I could never fully trust him, so I used to avoid him a little bit, I just used to asked hin how is he doing? Is he ok or not? Maybe he thought i am a good student, so if he didn't understand something, he would give it to me to solve. The year 2020-2022 ended like this, I lost my best friend and started watching more K-pop and dramas, then I couldn't run Facebook on my mother's phone, so I opened the fake ID, then when I added Rihan and he started commenting and reacting on every post of mine and that caught the eye of my sister Rahi.(My family is very strict) She asked me to explain and i just tried my best to convince her that he is just my friend and blocked Rihan and then told him that I will only talk to him in messages and will not be add on Facebook. And he agreed to it. As the conversation went on, our SSC ended. Then we used to talk a lot with him because both of us were free and slowly became very close in a few months I also started trusting him....Then we shared a lot of information about our families. It was fun chatting with him.We enjoyed talking to each other i don’t know why. Then Our result came out and we both get A+ in the exam. Then we choosed our College and got admission. It was going smoothly but suddenly....

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Suddenly he starts flirting but I'm so stupid that I didn't even realize it for the first few months. Because he wasn't the type of guy who flirted with girls. But my sister always said that girls have a 6th sense when it comes to these kind of things. Even though i was late so much to understand but finally after 4 months i started thinking that he might like me but

I could never think much because before i think about anything my brain would said me that, "shut up, he is just being nice with you." but he continuously confused me whether he likes me or not. i remember i even thought that maybe he was playing with my heart. Then one-day he told me that he think of me as his best friend from the first. I never thought he would think of me as his best friend because we rarely talk before. I was happy but my overthinker brain said maybe that's why he was saying that kind of things so i was disappointed at the same time.

i was so frustrated by this. so i thought a plan. i started saying he should find a boyfriend for me after all he is my bestfriend now. I said such things to make him jealous because if he really likes me he will be jealous. but i don’t know why that's didn't work first. He used to tell me why you need a boyfriend. You are not old enough to date someone yet right now. so i thought maybe my brain was right and my heart was wrong. but i started having some attraction towards him. maybe i was falling for him slowly day by day.but that's means nothing now because he don’t like me so i stop thinking about him and started getting busy so that i could forget him. But we used to talk everyday. then after some days i get vacation for eid-ul-fitr. so i gone to my home from hostel. In this vacations he started more flirty.then one-day i told him that i will tell your future girlfriend about this 😒. Okay, tell my girlfriend. I told him jokingly Have a girlfriend first. And he said i have a girlfriend. I was shocked and sad a little bit. And i asked who it is. And he told me it’s you. I was shocked what is he saying!! I said huh! what does this mean?? And he was be like i mean girlfriend, you are a girl also my best friend so girlfriend don’t take it in another way. I was like ohhh!! now it make sense. But i feel butterflies in my stomach for a moment. than i started talking to him about another male friend of mine. I had no intention to make him jealous but he was started being jealous. And one-day i sent a video where you have to ask me a question by saying number. and he gave me a number 289. i checked that in the video and that's a confession question and the question was,"will you be mine??"