it was all numb for a minute or two.

I tried to open my eyes. it was quite dark and noisy. My head, it was hurting so badly that i couldn't even feel my other bodyparts."Accident! There is an accident on swallow st"-- someone.I looked at myself..it was blood..all over my body...from the head to foot....

I never thought i would die like this and also never thought that one day i would love my life so much,that i would want to live..even just for once ...

I want to live, for myself...for him...

"I never thought that i would feel this way until i met u"..

"*Y*ou are the only one who ever touched my heart "...

"i just want to say............even for once

8 MONTH BEFORE THE ACCIDENT

Mom and dad drove me to the airport. i could tell that they are trying their best to act normal....this was the first time i was going somewhere to live for a long ....

"Jane" my mom said to me " You will be alright babe..."

"yeah!i know" i said

" jane,charlie will receive you at the airport "-dad said.It was dad's idea to complete my graduation at Olympic college .I didn't have any plan for my graduation so it was quite fine.

"Yeah,okey"-- i said.

I almost look like my mother but my eyes are more like my dad.

" We will see you soon sweetie, take cake"- mom insisted and hugged me tightly. "Call us after you reach home"-dad told with another hug.i was always my dad's favorite.I could fell the emotions through their eyes. i replied in a low voice -"Hmm,ok"with a smile.Than i got on the plane. It was a 6 hour flight from California to port angeles.

Charlie was waiting for me at the airport as expected. " hey! jane,here"- he yelled,standing next to the exit gate.

" hey uncle char" - i said and move toward him .He gave me one handed hug and said-" Woh! jane you look taller "." Good to see you uncle" i said with a unprepared smile. Charlie is my dad's younger brother. i am going to live in Charlie's house from now. He helped me with my luggages.There was a awkward silence in the car until he asked-" How are your mom,dad?"

" They are good"- i replied. It was almost 1 hour drive back to home,and charlie didn't stop asking questions during this period.

It was twilight when we reached home.Aunt Mary and shera( Charlie's daughter)welcome me with a warm hug.Shera took me upstairs ,i got my bedroom right beside her's.

"Do you like it"-she asked ."it's really nice thanks shera" .Then i called mom.After dinner Charlie gave me some documents related to college . " You can start college from tomorrow "Charlie said sitting on the couch." it's good, really excited for tomorrow " - i lied. i went to my room,to sleep.I was quite tired so i fall in sleep within 10 mins.

Next Day

 When i woke up in the morning ,the first thing that i noticed out of my window was thick fog.It was beautiful, of course ,i admit....something i was familiar with.....before the 8th grade i use visit here more often with my family.

i got up from my bed and went to the bathroom to clean myself. I looked at my face in the mirror as i brushed through my tangled hair. Facing my pallid reflection in the mirror, i was forced to admit that everything was fine.But inside there was a panic, a nervousness...

Then i went downstairs where Charlie and Mary were having their breakfast ."Good morning, Jane"-- they wished me.Then shera came.After i wished them i took my seat."So,Jane did you have a good sleep last night?"- shera asked." yeah" - i replied. Then we exchanged some comments on the weather.when shera and i finished our breakfast we went to our rooms, to get ready .

i was wearing a olive green t-shirt with a black overcoat. I was ivory skinned with blue eyes and brown hair.I was always been slender, but somehow soft. Obviously not a good athlete.And Olympic campus was famous for it's sports.

"Good luck, girls"- aunty wished.Yeah! luck ,that was something i really needed. Good luck tended to avoid me.

Charlie dropped us at the campus gate. Olympic college of port angeles, it's looked like a collection of matching buildings in maroon coloured.It was covered with trees and shurbs ,really too green. It was a college of five hundred seventy six students only.Shera was in the Accountancy 2nd year and i was in Biological Anthropology (1st year).

Charlie told me to submit the papers to the dean so i went to the dean's office first.Shera helped me to find it and then she left for her classes.

I took a deep breath before opening the door.I took a glance inside, there was already someone who was talking to the dean. I didn't heard clearly but i couldn't tell that he was in a bad mood.I was standing behind the door,almost 7 steps back from him,so i was not able to see his face. The thing that i noticed that he was tall with a sharp but melting voice.

"Excuse me ,may i come in?"- i asked.

"We will talk about it later, you may leave now"- i heard that the dean told him.

"come in"- dean ordered ."okay,i leave now" - that person said and turned towards me.I looked at him.Such an alluring face!.It was just like a trap from where no one can escape. I made a eye contact with him and he smiled. I looked down and he left the room. That was so fast that i thought that smile was just my illusion.

"Miss Jane summer"-asked the dean.with a "yes" i submitted those papers ,it was a short process.After checking my papers he gave me a slip, a student card and a routine of my classes.