Dear Jiang Jiang

You were my best friend before you were my boyfriend. You knew me better then anyone. I was a open book to you. We went through the best of moments together and the worst of moments.

But who knew the one that knew me the best can hurt me in the worst way possible. You broke my heart to little pieces like it was nothing.

I remember it like it was yesterday. I remember it was a rainy day. It wasn't any kind of rainy day it was the rainy day you Han Jiang broke me in the worst way possible. I remember you told me to meet you under the cherry blossom tree we first met under. I was there a hour earlier then the time we agreed because I was to excited to see you. But two hours passed but you still didn't arrive, I was about to leave. Then I saw you in the distance.

I was running to you but stopped because I felt something was wrong. Then I waited but you didn't came me Tian Tian[1], which is what you call me every time you see me. So then I knew something was wrong. I don't remember how long I waited their maybe for seconds, minutes, or even hours. But I was happy because I got to watch you for that moment because I knew and had a feeling everything going to change after today. So I started to speak before you.

"Jian Jian[2] what's wrong."

"I can't do this anymore, I just can't. I just can't be with you anymore."

I don't know when it started but my eyes started to blur. But why does Jian wan't to leave me why now. I don't understand what did I do wrong.

"Jian why, why do you want to leave me. If I did something wrong I won't do it again. I will change just please stay with me."

"You want to know why then fine. It is because I am tired of you. Also because I never loved you or never will. That's is why I want to break up."

I just couldn't stop it I had to let every tear out. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. And when I saw you walking away like nothing happened over these’s 10 years. I just couldn't take it. But I didn't notice when but you stopped walking away and just stood their and said those words. Those few words really broke me. I still remember those words till this exact day.

"Oh by the way if I see you again, I won't hesitant to kill you in the worst possible way you can think of."

Then after you said that you just like disappeared after that. I don't know what I did wrong but at that moment nothing mattered not even me. I just wanted my Jian Jian back, because I couldn't believe that was you. I hated that man that walked away like nothing happened. I hated that man that took you from me. I just didn’t wanna believe that was you because I love you too much.

With love From,

Feng Tian

Dear Han Jiang,

Did you notice how i didn’t call you Jiang Jiang. That’s to show how much you hurt me to show im not familiar with you anymore. Hmph. So back to what I was gonna say. Ever since that day, I haven’t went to school. I think for 1 week or two I stopped counting after a while. But I guess today’s the day because my mom is forcing me. So I really hope you don’t come so I don’t have to see your nasty, ugly, and really handsome face. Forgot about that last word I just said. So, today Im gonna look really pretty for myself not for you at all. It’s definitely not to show what your missing out on.

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So I finally reached and sadly we’re in the same class.

*takes a deep beath*

Im just nervous because I haven’t seen everyone for a while. I’m not nervous because of you.

“Oh my gosh your back Tian. I’m so glad you decided to come back. I missed you. How have you been”.

This is my girl best friend since first grade. Jian,Nian and I all been best friends since first grade. We all meant at the same time and been together since then. But now i guess me and Jian aren’t that much of best friends no more.

“I’m so happy to see you Nian Nian. And I’ve been better since then. And I missed you also. Did he come to school”.

“No. Not since what happened.

“Oh. Ok. The teachers here lets go sot down”.

“But Tian I need to tell you something else”.

“It’s ok tell me after during lunch”.

Then a kid comes in and had the audacity to sit right next to me which was your sit.

“Hey! What are you doing! That’s Jian’s sit. Move!”

“Does it look like I listen to you”.

Before I could reply back Nian Nian came over and said something that really stab me right in the heart.

“ I was gonna tell you that Jian hadn’t come back because he moved. I overheard the teacher say it to another teacher. This is our new student Zhao Shen”.

I didn’t care about his name all I cared about was that your never coming back. And that this She or Shen guy is trying to replace you. And for a second time the tears that I could never hold back started to pour again. And I don’t remember when but I ran out the classroom and I was already outside. I didn’t know where I was going. But i sensed I was going home, to the one person that made me feel at home. Then I reached your house and I felt a sense if pain when I saw that sold sign. I started at that sign for a long time and then decided to go to my house. Because your home was now just another house on tbe block a very empty place.

I was home before I new it. Mostly because I lived next door. Then ran street to my bed. And after a while feel asleep trying to pretend the last couple of months was the worst nightmare i ever had.

I guess a goldbye from,

Feng Tian