*Weeeeeeeeezzzzzzzeeeeee*

* A mall full of mixed emotions, colours, strangers and loud sounds*

*Strolling..*

Mama!! I want this bag badly can you please buy this for me? Said by a girl.

But, Yira mama doesn't have money for now. Maybe next time mama will buy that for you. *She felt bad for not having money*

I— am Fesha a woman with alexithymia. My 18 years of existence differ in what hardship you take and this hardship will gain triumphant in life.

In my childhood days, I barely see parents with their children burst into peals of laughter, playing hide-and-seek in a delightful day while I was in a daze wondering what family is. What does family symbolizes to?. Why does not everyone having fun as others do?. Does family be afforded when you had a feeling of what is to have?. Why life cannot be the same as what others have?. Can life be constant?. Why does everyone has to suffer but others tend to be happy?. Is having emotions would change what life you want or will it be more suffering to have?. These questions came up in my mind that jumbled everything that I merely not want to be remembered. Why does life tend to have mixed emotions?.

2 years has passed***

I am in secondary school where everyone doesn't bother what life other people suffering. This school named the Callous Hyperintelligent University of Korea. People studying in this school are all cold-blooded but intelligent in all fields of subjects. I was one of them a cold-blooded and luring woman in this school. This school reported a lot of issues regarding not showing sympathy in students, it breaks the record for being the top 2 fiercest schools in hundred of years so people tend to transfer another school for having severe depression.

In the year 1980's a lot of people get suicide for having failure grades which give them pressure especially in their specialized subjects that involve mathematics and sciences. These 2 major subjects in this school shall be acquired of every schooler to make them survive the merciless school of the Republic of Korea. But before you enter this school, you should take their entrance exam which composed of topics in Math and Sciences. Mainly this school is provided to those who have exemplary in their studies and the general average should meet 95% of their grades.

* Back when I was getting an entrance exam*

When the time I get an entrance exam proctors roaming in the room like a prey looking for their consumer. Especially this school full of hi-technology cameras that detects every movement of your body and cheating is the repugnance of this school. Yet, I am one of 20,000 students who take their exams but only 1,000 students can be acquired of schooling in this highest degree of school.

The examination day was scheduled on the 5th of September at 7 AM. This school policy proposed that should be 2 hours before the exam, takers should be gathered in the examination room. So, I was at school at 5 AM. I didn't expect that my fellow exam takers would be all-nighters and they gather at 3 AM. A few hours later, all of our bags and personal belongings including the pens because it was well provided, so there is useless to bring so it should be left in the storeroom and as we gather into a wide room with light blue paint on it, it has a lot of chairs but in 2 meters gap with other taker and was surrounded by surveillance cameras with your ID code in taking the exam, if you cheat the surveillance camera behind you will tear your paper. But before the exam starts, there was a huge television that the instructions are stated with the guidance of a proctor.

* A proctor began to check every taker's seat, he was tall like a bamboo tree, as big as Goliath and has a sharp-eyed as cheetah*

*He immediately walks at the centre*

Okay! Everyone should sit as the chair created, no cheat is allowed and when you cheat your test papers will be torn by the camera behind your seat. You should pay attention or you will be eject in this examination room. He said furiously.

*Tik tak, tik takkkkkkk*

*The clock raaaangsss*

Our examination began, I was seated at the 4th row in the 8th column. At my left side is a nerd girl conscious of her looking, at the right side a boy who looks like an intelligent but a pervert, at the front a mysterious girl thinking how to cheat and at my back is a lesbian sitting like a crow. I was surrounded full of intelligent people with a perverted type.

My desk is completely clear crystal with a hole at the edge of it. Suddenly, a proctor began to turn on the television to provide the ethics of works.

****

*A drizzling sound of tv makes my mind concentrated.*

 " Everyone listen or you will be out in this room"

In every aspect of your exams, we will measure your IQ on how high it is. Our criteria in grading and measuring your capacity will differ on your knowledge of answering it.

 * The atmosphere becomes quite *

In the first part, Science Ability is an ability to measure your scientific learnings of every topic you may not have encountered in your life. It has 100 items with an allocated time of 3 hours.

And the last part will be your Mathematics it will be tough to those takers who are not fond of Mathematics but if you think out of the blue you may realize how brilliant it was created and solved hypothetically. It has 100 items with an allocated time of 3 hours.

Please be guided that your knowledge will differ your school to be.

"An average people can be passed but not all. An intelligent people will more likely to be passed but not all. A low IQ people will be less surely be passed. Not all the time your IQ will differ your test but you will be shown what IQ you have as you answer the test."

               Be one of us! Good luck!

(Television turned off by a sound of a beep coming from the remote)

*I am who I am as I said to myself.*

The proctor clicks a remote that our paper will be appearing together with the pen through the use of hi-technology. He set the clock for our first part of the exam. As I read the paper, I calmly answered them all without any hesitation.

*One hour passed*

The proctor checking each paper in the monitor where the cameras recording. 10 of the takers were rejected due to their lousy style of cheating. They were crying like an ill-mannered baby. Others regret that they take the exam while others sweating like having a hard time answering.

*Ringgggggg, 3 hours already passed*

A lot of people get out of the room for almost 2 thousand before the exam has done.

*Examination done *

Almost half of us got crazy about what questions they got, others solving like a piece of the pie. While others act audacity in taking exams. I was calmly walking like an innocent person that goes like nothings wrong. People got the luring appeal that makes them worship me for being cold but not a rascal behaviour.

A man lusciously passed by me, with an ID, named Tan. My emotions unstably quiver as I saw him. Does he resembled my past life?.

 *** 

*After the exam, I wait for a bus going home*

* * 

* Creeeeeeeeaaaakkkkkkkk 

* Booogggggggssssshhhhhh 

 ( A cold day of mine got bloody by this accident)

* I look up the sky with blurry sight, Am I going to die?*

( No one ran unto her when she got bump by ceres)

* Except for a man **

 *I smell the fragrant smell of Starry Night but I couldn't see his face).

* 1 month later *

(The strike of sunlight coming from the window woke me up)

I woke up from the accident that happened a month ago. I never thought I would be given a second of life for suffering in this world. 

The place is what I never expected. It was wide, luxurious room wherein for the VIP only.

I never thought this ward of mine will be this wide and refreshing to save time healing my injury.

Who was the man I last saw?. But what was his intention to help me? I said worriedly.

 * I immediately lean at the side of my bed while half-awake*

* Tak, tak, tak, tak* 

 ( A loud footsteps of a man towards her door)

*Bangggg!!*

(The door open that makes me fully wake up)

(The doctor get inside together with the nurse talking something).

Why did that man help this woman?. Doctor said.

 I feel pity for that man. But who is this woman? It's not his related. Nurse added.

Indeed! the doctor agreed.

If I were that woman, when I woke up I will find the samaritan who help me. But this woman is cold-blooded as I know about her information. The nurse said unjustly.

I will check this woman's health. Doctor said.

(He walk immediately as he reaches me).

*I immediately close my eyes acting like I am sleeping*

( The doctor checks Fesha's health)

This woman is a bit strange. She's indeed fine but she's having alexithymia. She indeed a cold-blooded but does she curious how to become friendly with someone she wants to befriend with?. Doctor pitiful murmuring these words.

You must regain your health and find that good man who helps you. Doctor wishfully said.

* I began to think why would they tell me this like something mysterious happening?*

(The doctor immediately get out).

(The door close).

*   I sit in my bed immediately*

Why would I care if he saved me? Fesha's added.

But you deserve to die. Right?. A voice immediately interrupts my words.

        (A scalpel appears in front of me).

To be continued... 

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