Background

Starla was the middle child in her family so she never really got the attention in her family this affected her in school to which led to her not being as talkative like the others.

Bye mom im off to school i still dont get why i let her know its not like she cares anyway she always ignores me whats the point of me going to school anyway its not like i enjoy being there i dont even have friends i try to but i just get laughed at so whats the point anymore i get all As so whats the point of my so called mom sending me to this school everyday while my other siblings get to go to choose when they want to go to school and get what ever they want. Anyways i sit in the back off the class thats how the popular kids separated it popular and jocks in the middle nerds in front and weirdos in back. The “weirdos” are me josh, pammy, lakayla, and josé. Why am i a weirdo i dont know once you hit middle school you get in to catogorys if if you’re lucky youll be with the populars or unlucky like me or like Steven the nerd. I used to get picked on I guess im getting a break i was always different from the others my siblings always say i was a mistake and mom shouldnt have wasted her time with me. It hurts but youll get used to it because it becomes common when your the middle child. sometimes in elementary my mom would forget to pick me up because she got distracted worrying about Tory the oldest by one year Camilea the second youngest and milly the youngest. Dad left a few years ago i wouldnt say left it wasn’t a choice once you get caught with drugs and a firearm that was evolved in a crime scene you have no say. I wouldnt say dad was the worst but he did some things dads shouldnt do liked showed tony how to put on a condom at 6 years old and taught me how to roll a blunt at 8 so he wasnt the greatest but he did try to give his attention to me sometimes.

Him and mom argued alot but he never put his hands on her he would either drink or punch a wall i would say they were toxic since i look like my dad i see why my mom treats me how she does so i mostly spend my time at home in my room either listening to music doing homework or sleeping my mom calls me lazy when i do all of the chores around the house while she watches her favorite tv show with her favorite children sometimes i think about running away but i dont think they would even notice i was gone i bet the house would be messy though. I thought about doing some activities but i tried and tony either broke them or did something.

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Starlas pov

Monday the 4th of may we got a new student and he has dreadlocks hes darkskinned his smile is perfect. But the only thing wrong is that im in the werdio category and he just got invited to the popular kids table i want to talk to him but i just cant. I cant imagine getting embarrassed in front of him his scent is so calm he is perfect but will he like me his name is Jakari hes from cali what brings him to a small town like this and what is this feeling i never felt like this before.

Jakari pov

Why is this chick looking at me do i have something on my face. I didn’t come to this school to be stared at.

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Yo Jakari come sit with us screamed my brother Tony. I caught my self staring to long so i decided to pretend to be writing my teacher continued to teach after. Then i just heard Starla can you repeat what i just said my teacher put me on the spotlight i wasn’t paying attention my heart was pounding so i just looked at him then my eyes shifted towards stevens paper i yelled you said something about why the use of solar panels are important everyone at the popular table just laughed at me including Jakari and my brother i felt tears come to my eyes so i ran to the bathroom i stayed until i heard the bell i waited until everyone left the class room to grab my stuff well i thought Jakari was still in there i walked past him then i heard you have a staring problem i replied with what. He said when i first came in you was staring mad hard i said sorry it wont happen again and continued to grabbing my things he just left didnt say anything. On my walk home Tony said stay away from Jakari he wouldn’t even want to be your friend look at you mom was right you was a mistake. I try to reply but my voice just cracked so i stayed quiet my thoughts were racing was he telling the truth did mom actually say i was a mistake. I stayed quiet the rest of the day they didnt even notice i didnt come out my room for dinner. I woke up to rustling outside i opened my window it was Tony climbing out his window he said if i told mom he would make me regret it. I ignored him and shut the window i tried to sleep but i was up now so i watched a little youtube until i dozed off then i just heard my alarm going off i wake up earlier than my other siblings because they like to eat all of the breakfast my mom doesnt even care if i go to school on an empty stomach. After breakfast i got in the shower and did my face routine i still have an hour till school starts so i just spend that time drawing.

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As I was drawing I heard the doors open I guess its time for me to head out. I looked at my drawing and realized I was drawing Jakari, he’s really on my mind. I cant even talk to him because we got off on the wrong foot now I know he actually looks at me as a weirdo. On my walk to school a red car drove past me and parked Jakari got out he was yelling at someone and ran in the house as he was running up the steps his phone dropped out his pocket.

Jakari POV

I’ll be quick five minutes tops BRO I SAID FIVE MINUTES wheres my phone I need my phone great now someone knocking on my door who is it

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Um hi it’s Starla from your class she hears a response but can’t quite hear so she stays quiet, then he opens the door are you deaf or something freak she looks him in his eyes and replies sorry I couldn’t hear you I have your phone though you dropped it he makes eye contact back her eyes are beautiful he thought oh thank you he replied. Then both of them hear tires screetch his ride left he yells dont come back then moron. Starla offers for him to walk with her he thinks i cant be caught with her he declines. After getting his things for school he heads out he begans to walk he sees Starla in the distance he looks around and decides to walk with, her he catches up and say hey. Oh hi if you don’t mind me asking who was that in the car oh uh nobody he was embarrassed to say that it was his dad because his dad acts likes an asshole. Oh ok um what brings you to this school I got transferred i got in too many fights at my old school you dont look like a fighter I dont fight just to fight i have to have a reason most of my fights were over girls and sports. They are almost at school so Jakari distances his self from Starla because he doesnt want to get caught with her. Starla realizes this and feels hurt she actually thought she was bonding with him. Ok time to enter this school she looks back and sees Jakari on his phone wow he really doesnt want to be seen with me i wish we would’ve atleast exchanged numbers or socials. As she entered the classroom everyone’s looking at her she goes to her locker and opens it, its filled with garbage inside her heart starts racing she wants to cry but holds her tears back. She sees that there is a letter she reads it.

Dear Loser,

Dont think we stopped bullying you we just heard a new kid coming to this school so we thought we had another kid to bully but he’s actually cool unlike you.

By you know who