My life is pretty boring.

I don’t have friends, i don’t socialize, i don’t make an effort to put myself out into the world. My routine consists of waking up, getting myself ready, eat, go to school, come back from school, eat something real quick, get ready for work, go home, eat, sleep and… repeat. I have been doing this my whole life, i don’t mind though. I somehow feel okay being like this, i think.

My parents you ask? Well… they are divorced, they of course live separate. So the holidays tend to be a little… complicated to say the least. I live with my mother due to the judge saying. But i would prefer to live with my father, he would at least take care of me more than what my mother has. My mother got a new boyfriend and i don’t really like him that much, i get weird vibes from him. But i know my mother would put her lovers before me so i don’t say really anything.

Today is pretty quiet, no a lot of costumers are coming in. I only see a customer trying to calm down their toddler while holding their baby, i see another customer reading a book while drinking their coffee, i see a couple feeding each other’s mini cake, yuck.

i hear the bell ring. Indicating someone came in. I look to see who had came in, a tall blonde gorgeous girl, had entered the room. She’s wearing red crop-top with black jeans.

She makes her way to me, i don’t know why but i got nervous. she’s just a customer but different from any customer.

“Hi, what would you recommend?” She says, looking at me. I get lost in her greenish eyes, i must’ve zoned out for a minute because she started to call out to me, I quickly pulled myself back together. “Um i’m sorry, what was your order again?” I embarrassingly replied back, pulling my eyes away from hers.

“I said what would you recommend” She smiles softly, not taking her eyes away from me.

“Oh ! well todays specials are…” I start to look for todays menu, i can feel her eyes are still on me, which makes me even more nervous than i already am, damn it why am i so damn nervous. ”ah found it! sorry about that,” She lets out a chuckle and i can feel my cheeks warm up

“today’s special is a molten strawberry lava cake.” I take the courage to look back at her and for the first time in 10 years, i smile.

“Awesome, i would like to take one along with a strawberry milkshake thank you.” I nod and get her cake packed and ready. “Would that be for here or to go?” I ask

“uhh-” She checks her watch real quick “To go please” I nod once again, she takes out her card ready to pay.

“Your total will be 13.95” She nods and puts her card on the machine. “alright please wait 10 minutes i’ll be right back with your strawberry milkshake” I smile at her once again and she smiles back at me, i feel my cheeks getting hotter, i quickly made my way to the back room to start making her milkshake.

Once i was done with her milkshake, i go back to the front and i see her sitting down reading a book from the café’s bookshelf. I didn’t expect her to be a book person, i get her things ready and i was about to call her but then i remembered that i didn’t ask for her name, how stupid i am. I’ve done this millions of times, why am i so out of it today? I want to face palm myself but i don’t want to embarrass myself even more. I let out a sigh and make my way towards her, i lightly tapped her shoulder.

She turns around, “Sorry, i forgot to ask your name so i came here instead,” I smile embarrassed putting my hand on my neck and not making eye contact with her but she laughs, i couldn’t help but to look at her, god even her laugh is beautiful.

“My name is May” She gets up and grabs her bag and milkshake “That’s a beautiful name.” We make eye contact, she lets out a smile, She glances at my name tag. “likewise, Lucy” my face turns red “And thank you, have a beautiful day lucy.” She said my name not once but TWICE. It’s not something to be so happy about but i can’t help but melt. I’ve never felt this way, ever. And it might be the first time my heart skips a beat too.

she makes her way out, she turns to look at me once more, smiling, and i can’t help but smile at her too. i wave goodbye at her and with that she left.

Now i feel… i don’t know what i’m feeling… but whatever i felt when she was here, i no longer have that feeling. I wonder if she’s going to come back again. Today, my life wasn’t that boring. I really hope i get to meet her again. I really hope she comes back to the cafe.

I heard the bell ring, i sigh, another customer came in. And with my that my day continues, but this time, i was thinking about her, just the thought of her makes me smile. She’s really beautiful.

“What would you like to order?” I start to attend the customer.

^^^To be continued.^^^

It’s been a week since i saw may.

For the past seven days, i haven’t stopped thinking about her. The moment i go to sleep or the moment i wake up, my mind is all about her.

her, her, her, her.

*I wonder if she thinks about me the way i think about her. Is this even normal?* For me to think about her all the time? How can i miss someone so much when i only met them once? In fact, i think she hasn’t thought about me once.

*School is so boring, I look at the window next to me and see nothing,* just the wind blowing through the trees and flowers. It looks kinda cloudy though, i think is about to rain which i didn’t brought my umbrella with me today, great. Can my day get any worse? I just can’t wait to go home and be on my bed already. I check my watch and i still have half an hour left for school to finish, i lay down in my desk letting time pass. I slowly start to close my eyes until is completely closed, replaying the day i met her.

Suddenly, i heard the school bell ring. Finally, i can go home and sleep. I start walking to the bus stop putting my headphones on and listening to my playlist, just when i arrive, the bus comes i go to my sit, i looked at window and just on time it began to rain, maybe i’m not so unlucky after all huh.

I wait until i arrive to my house. In twenty minutes i’m at home, i go inside and noticed that my mother’s car was at the garage. That’s weird, she told me that she was coming next week. And if she’s here, that means…

as soon as i opened the door i saw my mother in the living room watching tv with her boyfriend, i don’t even bother calling him ‘step-father’ because sooner or later they will break up.

“Oh! you’re home sweetie!!” my mother said as she walked towards me, she hugs me but i don’t hug her back. “Uh, yes..”

I awkwardly say as i make my way to the kitchen to grab something to eat. “I thought you said you were going to come back next week.” I take a sip of water.

“Well yes, but i finish my work early,” she smiles at me. “And your dad wanted to come back.” I raised an eyebrow at her. “That’s weird,”

I knew when she said ‘my father’ she didn’t mean my biological father, but her boyfriend. “My father is still at work, and he told me that he will be coming back in three weeks.” I look at her straight into her eyes, she furrowed her eyebrows, not happy with my answer.

“Luz-” before she could even get to have a say her boyfriend walks into the kitchen. “Whats going on here?” I didn’t even bother to stay, i grab my plate and water. I start to walk away but her boyfriend grabs my arm. “Is not very nice to talk to your mom that way,” He grabs my arm harder which makes me hiss in pain, my mother notices me. “John-” She calls out his name. “You’re hurting her! let her go!!” She says in an irked tone, but he’s not letting go.

*“Let. Go.”*** i say to him, starting to get irritated, i look at him straight in the eyes with anger and he does the same, he grabs my arm even more harder, i tried not to show any pain. The tension in the room is starting to get intense and my mother noticed. “John!”** she yelled, that’s when he finally let go of my arm throwing it. I glare at him, i look at my mother but she turns her head to the side, i scoff at her. Not bothering to say anything, i make my way to my room. As i was in the middle of the stairs way, i heard them arguing but i didn’t care.

*As i get to my room, i locked the door. I go to my bathroom and i also locked the door, just for safety*. I sat down in the bathroom floor, my back against the wall. My heart starts to pound rapidly, I start to tremble, feeling very hot, my breathing starting to come in shallow gasps. There was only one explanation to what was happening to me, i’m starting to have a panic attack.

I tried to control my breathing, to calm myself down before my panic attack gets worse but tears started to flow down my cheeks. I close my eyes, a memory comes to mind, it was a memory of what my dad taught me what to do if i have panic attacks.

“Breath baby, breathe” He put his hands on my face. “Breathe in, and breath out.” He starts demonstrating on how to do it, little me starts to copy him.

“There you,” He smiles. “That’s my girl” He continues to do this two times, he than goes. “Now, count with me.” A bit confused, i counted with him. From one to sixty, by the time we got to sixty, my breathing had calmed down.

I slowly began to open my eyes, hands over my chest, my breathing slowly began to go back to normal. Once i was okay, i opened the door and i go to my bed to lay down. I grab my phone and text my boss that i’m sick and that i’m taking the day off, once i was done, i put my headphones on with music. My vision starts to get blurry, i feel the tears running down my cheeks. I cry and cry and cry until i slowly fall sleep.

^^^To be continued…^^^

It has been a week since I met Lucy. Ever since I met her, my mind has been all about her. This week has been very busy because of school and work, so I haven't had the opportunity to go and see her, until today. My phone vibrates, and I take it out from my back pants pocket it was a text message from one of my closest friends, Mia.

Mia: I want a banana shake so bad rn

we should go to the store where you bought me the cake!

it was so good

An image of Lucy appears in my mind and a smile forms on my face

Me: Yeah alr

let's meet at the front of the school

Mia: yay!!! 😆 

Me: I also gotta tell you something 

Mia: uuhhh do tell pls 🫣

Me: hmmm 

i'll tell you after class

Mia: NOOOOO 😣

WHY I CANT KNOW ABOUT IT NOW?!?!

Me: 😂😂😂

bc is is better to tell you in person

Mia: 😒

what a bit-

okay fine 😔

BUT YOU BETTER TELL ME 😠‼️

Me: okay okay 😂

Mia: 🙄😒

you're paying btw ☺️

I laughed at her message and sent a thumbs up and turned my phone off.

The class was finally done, and I made my way to the gate where I would meet Mia. I took out my phone to start calling her, however, I noticed her jogging towards me with her book in her hands.

"Took you long enough," I say to her in a teasing manner, she gently punches me. "Oh come on," she puts her book in her backpack. "The class just finished, the fuck you mean I took long enough." She rolls her eyes, and I start to laugh, making her glare at me jokingly.

"One of these days you're gonna get I swear," She grabs my arm and we both start walking

"Now come on, take me to the magical place." She lets out a big smile.

"Let's go," I said to her smiling.

When I realized that I also liked girls, I was scared. I was scared of what my friends would think of me and what my parents would think of me. When I came out to my friends as bisexual, they were supportive of me. Half of my friends are part of the lgbtq and the other part are allies -which I didn't know by the way- When I came out to my parents, they didn't take it well, but in time, they started to accept me slowly. And that makes me happy.

"Hey!" Mia slaps my arm "I'm talking to you." She pouts.

"What?" I turned to her "Oh sorry, I was just thinking."

"Thinking about what?" she asked while raising her brow

"When I came out to you guys." I look at her smiling, and she starts to laugh.

"Oh yeah, I remember," She says while trying to calm down her laughter. "You looked so scared."

"It was a terrifying moment," I said with a sad exaggerated tone, she rolled her eyes and continued to laugh. Mia and I stopped in front of a door.

"Is this the place?" We entered the place and she looked around inside all excited.

"Yeah," We both go sit at the table, and a waiter comes and leaves us the menu to order. My eyes started to search for Lucy but I couldn't seem to find her, I frowned.

"Are we waiting for someone else?" I turn to her. "What?"

"Oh, well, it's because it looks like you're looking for someone." I can feel my face turning red, I turn my gaze away from her for a little and then I look at her again.

"And by the looks of it," She puts down the menu folder and looks at me. "They're not here, are they?" I sighed

"Yeah" Mia grabs my hand "It's okay, I'm sure they have a reason for them not to come today now," She gently smiles at me "Tell me about them, do they work here?"

"Yeah," I smile. "Her name is Lucy, and she works here." I hoped to see her again today, but I haven't stopped thinking about her ever since I looked at her. Sometimes I wonder if she felt the same way as me.

"Are you guys ready to order?" Suddenly the waiter appeared in front of us.

"Oh yeah." Mia starts to order, the waiter turns around to take my order, I order a strawberry milkshake. The waiter was about to turn around but I stopped them.

"Hey!" The waiter turns around 

"Yes? You need something else?" 

"No, but, I wanted to ask about Lucy, is she not working here today?"

"Oh yeah, she called in sick today so she didn't come, did you want to leave a message for her?" Upset and worried, I shake my head no, he nods his head. "Do you know when she's going to come?" 

"Uhm, probably tomorrow." I nod at him "Would that be all?" 

"Yes." 

"Very well." With that, he leaves. 

"So!" Mia smirks at me. " Lucy huh," She says while wiggling her eyebrow. I mentally facepalm myself, Mia starts to laugh at me. "So who is this girl, tell me about her." 

And with that I told her everything since the beginning, every time I talk about her my heart races. I was looking forward to seeing Lucy and maybe getting her phone number today, but perhaps today wasn't the day. I seriously felt like smashing my head into the wall, why didn't I ask for her number before? Sometimes I hate my slow-ass brain. 

"I should've asked for her number before I left." I mewl to myself.

 "Hey, hey, hey," She grabs my hand. "I'm sure you'll get to know her soon, alright?" I smile at her. "You're right, I'll come back on Friday." 

"Oh to be in love." We start to laugh, I'm glad to have Mia as my best friend, she's my number-one supporter, without her, I would've gone down the wrong path a long time ago. So I'm thankful to have her, by my side.

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Hi guys, Ria here! 

I want to apologize for not updating for almost two months now, I was having trouble with this chapter, and because of my personal life. But we are back! Hopefully, you guys enjoyed this chapter! See you guys in the next update.

Bye-bye <3