"Is it enough love that i've gave you?" or "Is there something i've done to make you change?".

I've been always asking myself if i ever made some huge mistakes that could change you.I would not dare to call you because i fear of something,fear for the promises you've made and fear for getting hurt again.

Its been a long time since we spent our time and our lives together and I wish i could turn back those days where we would have fun.

I just want you back,back when you're before and live our lifes to an happy ending together,hoping you to laugh and smile with everyday and wake up every morning to see your face,touch it and feel it like lovers do

If the love between you and me cannot last forever,then i'm sorry because it's time i had to let you go.

Today is the day where the snow starts to fall this year and in the first snowy night of the year.We should have spend our snowy night together,making dumplings together and cuddling in this cold day.

*The phone you've dialed are not available this time,please leave a messages after the beep*.Why he still not picking up the phone calls and it's been twenty days that he haven't come back home.

I have to make a phone call one more time and i hope he will pick up this time.

Suddenly,Zhang already pick up the calls after several calls from Chen."Zhang,will you get home,it is winter night and we should eat dumplings together here"said Chen and Zhang said "Don't wait for me there

I won't go back today and no need for you to make such a dumplings yourself.I will get someone to order you some take\-away.I gotta go now,I'm so busy!!" and ended the call just like that without saying any goodbye.

I would allow Zhang to do whatever he wants to make him happy,but now he wouldn't come home even for once.I don't know if i can have dumplings with you in this first snowy night of the year.

"Hello,i'm here to deliver the dumplings for you!" said the delivery men.I guess i had to eat some take\-away dumplings by myself in the corner of the room,feeling cold and empty all alone without you.

How fun that i still remember on the first day when we eat some dumpling on the first snowy night of the year and you promised that you would never done anything to betrayed me for your entire lifetime and you'd never cheated me and lied to me.You was crying so hard that day to promised me such a thing.

I was so stupid that day to give all my trust and believe in what you've said to me even it was just a lie and you cried out loud for it.It's a shame for me.I don't know what are you doing right now,where have you been and who's with you because all i know is your busy all the time and would never spend any time with me again.

It's no wonder that i would get an illness like this.Didn't i offer all my luck to you from the beginning and why in the world it would be me who'd have an illness just like this.It hurts so bad and i didn't even have an appetite,so i ate less food a day and not even having a meal every night.

I can't just leave you here and walk away just like that.I don't have much time.It should be less than a year.No matter how wild you are behind my back,as long as you didn't have a falling\-out with me.I would accept everything you do.