Maybe I'm just a normal girl. I was born to an amazing mother, but I can't say the same for my father. He so hated me that he hadn't even came when I was being delivered. On that summery night my mother had to endured all the pain by herself not in a hospital but a home of a nurse. After one night and a half day I was born, a girl. Which my father and grandmother hated to guts. It do not took me long to understand that I was born in a not so normal family. I never got fatherly love. It was as if he just do not care about me. when I was little I would usually get jealous of my friends when they talk about their father and I love how their father used to pick them up after school. I still remember the day when I was waiting for him (father). But he never came to pick me up. Anxious if you can say I was or maybe Fear of a six year old. I still laugh on how can anyone can not remember his own daughter. At that time I don't know what I was feeling. Getting despise by my own father, if I can say despise. Later I realised he just don't care about me. I was mother's love who kept me going on. And yes he also do not care about my mother I just wanna ask him a question if you weren't ready for a family then why

would you start one.

Yehhh! Life went on like this. I turned 16. I also started to despise him more then anything whenever he use to humiliate me or mom I, now started to talk back to him like I would. I have no mercy not love. I just can't stand him back then.

I don't know what it was hatred or hormones.

I am 19 now. Maybe I can never forget how he treated me. But I got more mature now to care about someone who don't even care. So my mom left him after 18 years. Now we are happy as ever. My mom decided not to date again. As for me I don't think I can love anyone. I neither have the energy or the power to love. So, going to single for rest of my life and going to live a very happy life. Just me, my mom, and momo (my puppy).