Is it possible to like someone forever? I don't necessarily believe in such things. Not every thing goes according  t our own will. There's no such thing as fate or destiny. I don't believe in it but I do believe in re-incarnation. I sometimes ask if I, myself, am a reincarnation of someone in the past? Is this why i'm born like this? What was my relationship to my parents in my last life? Where they foes or friends? I wish to know so badly. Is there a way to know? I really wish know.. Did I have someone I lied in my past life? Is he here in this century as well? I wonder if i'll meet him and if we will be friends in the future?

Wanna know one more thing I believe in? I believe in contracts. I believe that contracts are not supposed to be broken like other things in life. The law will act if one contract is broken and it is a reassurance. SO if I do come upon someone I like I will write a contract to entrust my life to him. A contract to like someone forever and never forget them no matter the situation.

A contract that will ensure my well being and my welfare. I hope to meet someone who will like me for who i'm truly.

I don't believe such a person exists though. There can't be such beautiful thing as love. I don't believe in it.

I suddenly wake up\, "Ah sh*t." Okay now the situation is really f**ked up! I can't believe i'm in the same situation again! I'm gonna become a f**cking laughing stock!

"What do you think you're doing, Cleo? Sleeping in class?" My teacher said  looking at me in disbelief while everyone's prying eyes were upon me to give an explanation. I believe everyone will talk behind my back at how unruly i'm. They don't care about my feelings. They'll gossip and make fun of me behind my back. I'm sure. It's what people in this world often do. They try to attract attention to what they are saying by influencing negative impacts of others. They make wild and uncontrollable. Why i'm born like this? Did I sign a contract to become something like this in my previous life? Uh.. c an't believe in my luck. Why am i'm standing here dumb-founded? There's nothing to say or explain. Can I give the excuse that I was awake until 5 AM? I'm repenting on my decision. My decisions are causing some frickin' problems.

I'm not good at giving excuses cause i'm afraid it'll be seen through. Others are so confident in theirs that I envy them to death. I hate those can give excuses and get away with it. Although it's my own fault that I can't come to terms with it. "Ma'am, I... I-" There was sudden knock on the door I was relieved for the intervention. I really was.

"Ma'am, there's a new student from  Delhi joining today," said the support staff . Everyone was amused at having another student from abroad. I was too. It was three months into the school year and even the first examination is over. Oh well, what to do?

Oh my god. What is happening? My heart is beating too damn fast! It's gonna explode... "What is wrong with me?" I thought to myself," Why is this like this?" I don't believe there's anyone who I did view as more than as annoying boy who's so confident about himself. I guess I was wrong.

He was tall. Taller than me. He had my heart beating fast. He had a perfect jaw line and beautiful light brown eyes. He has the perfect tanned skin. O to the M to the G. What the heck! Did I just use such a term? So disappointed in myself! My annoying teacher asked to stand in the middle of the class and introduce himself. He walked in such a perfect stride. Oh my, did I just notice such a thing? UH. Please remind myself to not say such a thing again. It's so girlish in love or whatever. Oh gosh, i'm screwed.

"Um, Hey, i'm Alex." He said barely smiling. So cold-faced. My teacher, Susan, urged him to say something more of himself but he refused the offer. Finally Susan was so exhausted from asking that she requested him to sit somewhere. And that somewhere is in the same bench as me. Oh lucky me! Ah this world! I wanted to scream and refuse but me being me had to come into terms with it. What the hell am I supposed to do now? He's staring at me! He's gonna sit next to me. I'm dead. R.I.P.

Life's so boring and hard to deal with! This is my tenth school in these 5 years. Can't I just continue at one place? But I know it is rather difficult considering that my family matters are not simple to deal with. But is this much guarding really required? Can't deal with such stuff. Well I should man up and do what the hell i'm supposed to do and get on. UH, bored.

So here Ii'm standing in front of the class i'll be assigned to in the future, The teacher lead me to the center of the class and asked to introduce myself. It's such a tedious thing to do. Let me tell you the first impression i have got on her. They are never wrong. Strict, not easy to deal with, not frivolous, and of course old. I have heard rumors of my new school being way too strict but I don't think it is as bad as they say. Even though the teacher as present  the class could be so noisy and loud . Could it be the opposite of what my father has in store for me? Oh what the hell ever. Doesn't matter. "Um, Hey, i'm Alex." I said introducing myself to the people in front of me. They were in awe so of me. They had their jaws dropping like others in my old school. I've had enough of them in my life. I wish to stay and live quietly with not many such disturbances. Will it be possible? Nope.

Susan touched my shoulder and said, "Are you not gonna say further?" I nodded a 'No.' Is it just me or does this teacher have a thing for physical contact. Ew! Get her hand off me. She looked astonished. It must have been the first time someone has dared to say something like that right to her face. She deserves it with the way she acts.. it's disgusting me. "Alright, you can go sit with Cleo," she said pointing to a girl in the last bench.

That's the first time I saw her. Long black smooth hair, brown eyes, long and sharp nose and medium thick lips which has a pink shade. My first impression of her was pretty. She has a tired face as if she had not slept yesterday but it still had no effect on how cute she was. She keeps moving her lips unable to control them. It makes my grin. Can't seem to control my actions now huh? Is this what they call 'love at first sight?"

I made my way and sat down next to her. She didn't look at me which was upsetting and crazy. People always look at me, It's making me very curious about her... "Cleo, stand up," the teacher glaring at her with fierce eyes. I wonder what she has done to receive such fierce eyes, must be no small matter I suppose.

"Cleo, you still haven't given me a clear explanations upon you sleeping though my lesson? Do you know the other teachers are also discussing upon this issue and has been rather troubling me with this?" Why every sentence she says has something to do with 'her' it's like she's trying to solve this not for the benefit of the student but for herself. I hate these types of teachers. Should I do something about her?

Cleo at this stage was looking around at others faces. She mumbled a sorry to the teacher before she was made to sit down and requested to meet on private. I felt the need to dismiss the teacher right there on the spot for making her in such a predicament. I wanted to say it's okay to her. Why am I feeling such things to someone who shows no interest in me who falls way of my preferred type? I have got no ideas which will justify myself.

I saw her frown as she sat down. I wanted to kill the person who made her frown but what ca I do? I can't even say you'll be fine to her. When I can't even do that.. there's nothing I can do.