Dark....

quiet....

cold....

Ah ...

it's true that I was dead, killed by my own sister. How could I die like this ??, how could my brother betray me ??, what is my fault for you sister ?? what sin I have committed until you have the heart to kill me.    "Is it because of love ?? Is it because of love you killed me !?"   "Love" What is love like ?? he said love is sweet like cotton candy, he said love can make you happy like in a playground, love is beautiful like a flower garden, love is able to change someone for the better, love is like gold is very valuable.   But for me "love" is cruel, love is bitter, love makes it tight, love hurts, love makes me suffer, love is a bad thing, love can change people to be very bad and evil in order to get the desired love, love it's blind, love is like a time bomb that can explode at any time. To get the perfect love requires hard work. But for me, working hard no matter how hard, I will never get love. In fact I have never gotten love from my parents since my sister was born into this world, more precisely after my father left me and my mother through divorce, since my father and mother divorced, 1 year later my mother remarried and I lived with my mother because custody was in my mother's hands. After 3 months of marriage my mother was pregnant with my new father, and my mother gave birth to a little baby girl named Shaina Alisha

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February 22, 2000

  today is my 17th birthday, me and my sister Shaina, who was 4 years younger than me, invited me to go to the amusement park, she said, so I was happy, even though she ended up playing it until she was satisfied, she admitted. .   Even so I don't hate him, even though he was born into this world makes me no longer noticed by my mother, but I still love him, because he is my brother, a precious sister to me.    I want to see her happy, I want to see her smile and laugh, I don't want to see my sister cry and hurt, I want her to live a life full of happiness.

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March 7, 2002   Now I'm having lunch with my best friend, "Will", William anderick's full name, I'm lucky to be close to him, he's a campus prince. He is handsome, his skin is pure white, his hair is brown neatly laid out and his eyes are brown in color, wearing a white checkered shirt and long black pants. Which girl is not stunned by her good looks, there is no girl in the campus who is not fascinated by Will.

There are so many who want to be friends with him and I'm lucky I can be his best friend. He is unique, he is not arrogant and he is also smart, for me he is perfect. I always feel happy when I'm with him, I feel happy, but sometimes I feel sick when I see other girls sticking to him. Oh gosh .... Don't let me fall in love with him ?? ....

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August 8, 2002  

 Today is Shaina's 15th birthday, at home we have a small birthday party for Shaina, Shaina's classmates are invited to the party.  I gave him the rabbit doll gift he wanted at the time, but unfortunately at that time he didn't get it because it had run out. I hope she likes the doll I gave her ...