Alone...

Alone....

It's been few years, and yet, I'm still alone...

Come to think of it, I'm always alone. That always crossed my mind when I was thinking. Was I meant to be this way? What did I do to deserve this?

I lost my mother at the age of three. Lost my father when I wasn't even born yet. Lived with my grandparents ever since. Now, I've moved to the city. Living alone, I'm a part-timer, which is also a student.

Your usual seventeen years old boy, like I said, usual. Life as ordinary as everyday. Study-maniac, if I put it simply. I used to be outgoing...

Not until I had a fight on the first month of the high-school year.

A girl, could be said popular in my class, was asking me if I could help her with her studies.

(Not to brag, but I'm an ace student)

She is an outgoing and friendly girl, close to her classmates, and have a boyfriend. At that moment, I was quite busy, and ended up having to refused her request. After all, even I was having hard time studying.

Who would've thought, that day is the very day I regretted the most?

Her boyfriend comes up to me, while I'm on my way to work. He brought his friends along, simply put, he was already planning something from the beginning.

Just because his girlfriend didn't tell him anything, and talked to me instead, I was getting beat.

Four against one, is that fair?

Her boyfriend ended up being hospitalized, because that night, after our fight, he was involved in another fight.

Or should be put, a gang fight.

His condition spread to the whole school, and his friends put the blame on me, not just that, I ended up being suspended for a whole year. I became a repeater, and I was depress for nearly half of a year.

That was such a regretful decision, that I changed a lot throughout the year. Today is a new day, and I've braced myself with all the gossips that will soon be heard.

Now that I'm going to the high-school as a first year once again, I had to prevent everything that will give me problem. I must, otherwise I won't be finishing school any sooner.

A new year, with a different attitude from before, and new things to do. That goddamn couple must have been having good time, when I was the one enduring.

I'll let them be... it's not like anything would change if I get revenge anyway. Forgiving is better than avenging, that is what my grandparents always told me.

After all, I've find peace nowadays...

A ray of light has shined! Who is this loner? What awaits him at the school? Will his usual dark and gloomy self turns again?

Find out on my new novel, Weird Love Story~

Riruka Shina here! A first-year high-school girl! I live with my parents, and this year is going to be an exciting year!

I went to a reunion party with my friends, and we exchanged a whole lot of hot topics while we were at it. Some of my friends were gossiping about a boy that was suspended for a whole year.

WHOA?!

I mean like, WHOA?!!!!!

How could he get suspended for a whole year? That was what I questioned to my ex-classmates.

They only heard rumours, and they said, that the guy was suspended because of a fight. He was in a fight with some another dude because of girlfriend thing.

That is quite... Unreasonable thing to do, right? He even got suspended, so I guess maybe he is with us this year. The party was quite lively that night though!

When I got home, my parents were having dinner together! My father is already home~

I had a talk with my parents that night, and they say I need to be careful when I'm alone nowadays. Well~ I know how to take care of myself! They also told me to be careful with the suspended guy.

Seriously, he is not a demon right? Why is everyone keep mentioning him like he was some kind of criminal? Who knows maybe he have changed over that one whole year!

Hehehe! This year is going to be interesting! I hope I can meet that suspended guy though, because I felt really bad for him. He was badmouthed everywhere, I hope I can apologize to him.

My goal this year, is to move out, have a job and BOYFRIEND!!! It's going to be the main goals for this year. I don't care how my boyfriend is, as long as it is not a fuccboy.

(A/n: Hehehehe~)

Well, it's my first ever relationship anyway. I hope it last long. And I hope the guy I'll go out with is not too young or old, not too cold or nice. And must at least be able to protect me~

If time is allowing me this year, then it would be better! I've never been able to get a boyfriend because of dad.. He's overprotective and paranoid, it's just kinda annoying.

But still, I know his reasons. After all, not everyone's a good people. We need to be careful in life like this after all. I'll enjoy a good night sleep for now!

Let's see... A boy I like... I want him to be able to hold on with me for long... The longer the better... I need him to be cool and chilling, not ill-tempered person that easily gets angry...

Finally, I want him to love me. I need to make sure he does...

The light that shined has been introduced! Now, the only thing we haven't known yet is the male lead's name! FIND OUT IN THE NEXT CHAPTER!

I woke up straight at 4 in the morning. It's still dark outside, and I lightly stretched my arms as my bones popped a little. It's the first day of school, I'd better be well-prepared.

Not to forget, the incident last year. I'll pretty much end up in isolation... Not like I wasn't expecting it.. after all, it was a great turn of disaster.

I prepared for my breakfast, just a simple cereal meal, since I'm not prepared to eat anything after waking up. It took me nearly half an hour trying to finish the bowl of cereal.

I led out a reluctant stare, thinking about today's plan. After the opening ceremony, the school will start like usual... And I must not be late before then.

It was 5 a.m and it's still dark and cold outside. I looked at my hanging red and black striped hoodie on the closet. It has been quite while since I wore that.

If I recall correctly... Around a year ago? It was oversized, and I only wore it when I was feeling cold. It's January, so I guess wearing it wouldn't hurts.

I take the hoodie, and lightly put it on my shoulder. I looked myself in the mirror, and lightly combed my hair while I'm at it. My hair is slightly curly, and sometimes quite annoying when it grows till it blocked my eyes.

However, because of this hair, I became quite reluctant to appeal more. I sometimes let my hair be messy, since I hate combing sometimes.

I pulled out my smartphone, and checked on the time. Light sigh, tired eyes and body. I guess I did woke up too early.

I yawned lightly, as the dawn finally started to arrive.

"Today... School, lunch, work, dinner, rest and sleep..."

I enanciate the words that is in my head. I bring myself to stand up, and lightly picked up my school bag. I pulled my hoodie, and gets out of my room.

After I finished locking, I head slowly towards my school by walking.

On another side...

"Ngggggghhhhhhh!!!"

Ah, my back feel refreshed! The first day of school is here, and finally! The time that I've been waiting for has greeted me so early!

I looked at my phone, which is flooded with hundreds of texts from my friends. They have been discussing about the school that some of them didn't even sleep.

I giggled lightly, reading through the texts. The discussing began at 10 in the evening, and it ends at 2 in the midnight. They are quite lively during that time.

I feel kinda missed out, gotta catch up to 'em later at school.

I stretched my body, and lightly led out a sigh. Switching on the light, it finally reveals my neatly arranged and clean room. I felt slightly happy, and I packed up my things for the school later on.

I looked at the school uniform, and clench my fist in excitement.

Gotta find a boyfriend this year, Riruka!

I giggled, after saying that to my own self. My goal is quite pointless, but I want to feel how it is to be in relationship! I watched an anime few days ago, about renting a girlfriend!

It was quite interesting, but I wonder if people like that exist. I stared at the empty wall, while thinking about the anime. Does renting a boyfriend exist though?!

Hahahahaha!

It would be quite interesting that way!

So anyway, I had my cold morning shower after my breakfast. My parents was already up, and I can say they are more lively than I am.

I wore my usual ribbon and tied it up, it stays up since it has a wire in it that kept it the same. I also kept my nails neat and tidy, well sometimes I like playing with nail-polisher and colour.

"Bye mom, bye dad! I'll be back before evening!"

"Okay, take care dear!"

"Careful on the way, Riruka-chan!"

"Okies!"

I left my home, and get out of the house around 6 in the morning. The dawn has arrived, and the sun is already shining bright.

I jog lightly, heading towards the school. My bag is just a medium sized handbag, so it wasn't quite heavy for me to bring around!

...

"Sigh..."

I walked slowly, heading on to the way towards the school.

*ting*

Hearing the ringing sound, I stopped walking, and looked around. The zebra-cross line in front of me is empty, yet I still had to be careful since it can becomes quite dangerous.

"EXCUSE ME!!!!!!!"

Suddenly, I heard a loud shout of a girl from behind. I looked by my side and can see her running through.

*Honk* *Honk*

At the same time when the girl was about to cross, a car rush through at quite a high speed. It startled me for a few seconds and nearly get me off guard.

Then, I finally remembered about the girl. I looked at the car and the girl, "Watch out!" I said, within the slightest moment. I managed to pull her arm and stopped her from running.

She was quite surprised, and immediately freezed upon realizing what has happened.

"Goddamnit, that was a zebra-cross line! How could he just shot past that?! People could die here!" I complained, as the car just pass through nonchalantly, as if the driver doesn't even care about anything.

"What happened?!"

"Did anybody get hurt?!"

"I don't think so, but that girl nearly got ran through."

"Luckily her boyfriend is there, otherwise she would have died."

"A cute girl with a cool boy, quite a perfect match too."

It was then, that I finally realized, the girl I pulled earlier is close in front if me, blushing lightly. I don't know how in the world's physics did she do to turn like that, but this is quite embarassing.

I pulled back my hand quickly, while taking few steps back in awkwardness. The girl continued blushing, while some people from the crowds kept on talking.

"S-sorry, are you okay?"

"Yeah... Thank you..."

After hearing her reply, I quickly walked through the zebra-cross line. I can tell that my face is flustered, since it was warm after I realized what happened.

"Ah... That was really embarassing..."

I wondered back to what she was wearing, and it took me by surprise that I remembered she was wearing my school's girl uniform.

"Hell, I hope I won't meet her again..."

I continued walking, heading towards the high-school. I shooked my head while trying my best to forget about everything that happened.

...

Wowowowowow! What just happened?!

I gazed back onto my memories, and that guy's face was burned deep in it! Did he just saved me?! Wow! I can't believe this happened at my first day!

My face is still red! And I still CAN'T stop it! Who was that guy?! Why did he helped me?! Did he have a crush on me?! All sorts of thought dashed onto my mind.

But... what is this thing... Why does my heart beats like this. I don't think anything would make me feel like this but... It started after I get into that guy's grasp.

What happened if he hugged me though?

I never had a strong heart beats before, and it is quite slow too. An average have around 70-90 beat per minute, but mine would be around 40-60.

But right now, right on my phone screen, it was clearly telling me that my heart beat reaches 81 beats per minute.

This all happened, from the guy earlier? But where is he? I thought he wore our school uniform! Then he must be at school! I need to find him later on!

Did he had a crush on me? Did he saw my face?! Why did he save me? Ahhhhhh!!!! I can't stop thinking about it the whole way I'm going to school!

But for real... He is just so nice... Not only were he angry for me, but he even saved me. If only what the people were talking about is the truth, I would have been happy.

Happy because I have a nice and cool boyfriend. I hope I can find him again. I must find him again, otherwise I won't have the chance to make him my BOYFRIEND!

...

"Happy to see you, and welcome in this new year of high-school!"

Sigh... The ceremony finally ended, and we finally head back towards our respective class. I looked inside, and can see several people already taken the seats.

I looked on the foremost corner, and takes on the seat at the back of the class. The seat that is beside the window, and I could tell it is empty by now.

With my thoughts wandering off to my dilemma, a part of me thinks about what to do later on.

"Hello guys!!!"

I looked at the class' door, and what greets my eyes is indeed surprising. The girl I pulled earlier is there, with a huge grin as she watch throughout the whole classroom.

Luckily I was in my hoodie, I looked away once again, daydreaming off to another land.

"Is everyone here?"

A slightly grumpy voice, accompanied by footsteps that I can hear clearly. A teacher gets inside the class, a middle-aged man, with his beard already quite silver from aging.

He lightly pushed his glasses to his eyes, and looked at the class.

Though, I actually know this teacher. After all, he was my class' teacher last year. I guess he ended up handling the same student that causes him problem last year.

"Alright, get back to your seats. We'll start with introduction for this morning."

The class started to calm down, and everybody gets to their own seats. However, something that caught me by surprise is that the girl earlier takes a seat next to mine.

Our tables were set up in pairs, and out of all people, she had to choose the seat beside mine, what a bad luck...

"Hello! Nice to meet you! My name's Riruka!"

"Hm..."

"Can I know yours?"

"... Raizen..."

"Oh! You have quite a cool name!"

She giggled lightly, while I just kept myself quite, not trying to continue our conversation. Well, that's what I planned to do, until the teacher asked me to introduce myself.

"Let's start from the back, can the one near the window be the first to introduce himself?"

I stand up, and lightly sighed while I started talking.

"My name is Raizen Kenji, I am eighteen years old this year, and I hope I won't be a burden till then."

"Hey, take off your hoodie! Show us your face!"

"Yeah! How can we recognize you if you don't show us!?"

The class started to make a commotion over my face. I clicked my tongue lightly and pulled back my hood. Rurika seems quite surprised to see me, while the teacher just laughed after seeing my face.

"Well, Raizen, are you sure that's all you're going to tell us?"

The class seems a little bit too curious after the teacher says that, all of them looked at me. Until I finally regains my courage.

"I am the student that got suspended last year... I'm the one that got in a fight, also a delinquent if you prefer that... It doesn't matter what you see me as, but I hope I won't be involved on such events ever again... That's all from me."

I sat back down, turning to my left and stares at the sky in slightly pissed off mood. Riruka stands up quickly after me, and introduced herself.

"Hi everyone! Hi teacher! My name is Riruka Shina! I may be clumsy sometimes, and I hope everyone in this class would forgive me for it! Looking forward to be friends with you~!"

The class laughed, as she bows down after finishing her words. Some of the boys started chatting excitedly, after seeing Riruka's characteristics and appearance.

"Wow, such a cute girl!"

"Look at that legs and breasts, whoever go out with her surely is lucky."

"Wanna hit on her later on? It's worth to try, who knows she is still single."

This people... Can be quite blunt sometimes, talking about the person right in front if them like they weren't there. I ignore the commotions and chatters, as the introduction goes on.

"Hey, Raizen..."

"Hmm..."

"You don't remember me?"

"..."

"Come on! I'm the girl that you saved earlier! Don't tell me you didn't manage to get a look on my face!?"

"..."

"Hey.. Why are you so quiet?"

"It's none of your business, just don't get close to me. I don't want the thing last year to repeat."

"Hmph! I just want to thank you properly! Is that a way to treat a woman?"

"A simple 'thank you' is enough for me, I was just passing by anyway."

"Hmph...!"

The girl just groaned, while pouting away from me. At least I was able to dodge that question, girls can be annoying sometimes but she seems cheerful. I don't want that to change because of me.

On Ruka's side~

Waaaaaahhhhhhh!!! He remember me! And he just ignored a girl! A GIRL!! How can he be so rude?! And he is also the person that is suspended last year!! He is a celebrity!! I can't believe it!

Well, at least that was what I want to say, but his face is quite reluctant. His eyes soften as I talk to him, and his tone doesn't sounds like he is angry or annoyed.

I wonder if he thought that I'll hate him because of what happened last year. For me, that is just a past, after all, he saved me earlier today.

Not to mention, he seems to care for people. As a girl, I can see that he is not quite the man that he said he was.

He is not a delinquent. He is not a bully. He is not a trouble student. He is not some person with discipline problem.

Why? Because this is an A-class. Even I barely make it to this class, and he? He managed to get in this class, which means he might be far more clever than I am.

But why? Why? Why did he became like this? Isn't this unfair?! He is nice, I can tell that, but why was he suspended? Because he is in a fight?! That is not reasonable enough if he is not the one that started it!

"Okay class, I'll see you again. Registration ends now, please wait for your next teacher to come in."

Our class teacher exited the class as soon as he finished his words. The class turns loud once again, and after hearing for quite a while, I can tell that most of them is talking about Raizen.

"We're in a class with troublemaker? Damn, looks like we'll be in trouble for the rest of our school years."

"I know, right? I never would've expected that I'll be in an ace class with troublemaker. Seems like my hardwork doesn't worth it."

"I hope he'll be suspended again this year."

Alright, that's more than enough. This people doesn't seems to have a sense of respect in them. I tried to stand up, as they keeps on talking about Raizen.

The whole class turned their attention to me, and I started to talk non-hesitantly.

"All of you! Try to at least have a bit of respect for our friend here! Can't you see that he is troubled enough for being suspended a whole year?! Now you badmouth him like he doesn't even exist! I want you to apologize!"

Raizen seems to ignore my word, and he is not even interested for a slightest moment. Did he already lost his feelings for selfcare?! Is he depressed? Gosh! It doesn't seems to b looking good!

"What are you talking about, Shina?! That person is a delinquent! Why would you side with him?! He even ignored your words even though he is sitting beside you!"

"Give her a break, if you want to throw the accuse, throw it to me not to her. Did I even asked you guys to be nice to me?! Yeah, I'm a delinquent, because that is how you see me. Not like a small fry's opinion matters to me."

"Hey dude, you want to give it a go?!"

"Heh, resorting to violence? I never expect a fry to get pissed so easily. I don't mind giving it a go, the last time I'm in a fight my enemy ended up hospitalized..."

Raizen turns around to look at the class, his eyes showed a violent and sharp stare while he continued his words. I gets out of his view, and awkwardly sat back down. The person who pisses him off earlier shivered a little, after meeting with Raizen's eyes.

"You still want to give it a go? I don't mind being suspended for a year again."

"N-no... S-sorry about that..."

Raizen returned his gaze to the sky, and becomes quite slightly after finishing his words. He ended the argument by just threatening back the one that threatens him!?

I hope he's not mad at me though...

"Don't do that again."

Huh?! Did he just talked to me?!

"Did you just talked to me?"

"No, I'm talking to the wall."

"Hmph..."

...

The day goes on without any problems, but everytime Ruka tried to talk to Raizen, Raizen escaped or ignored her words. It took her a hard time just to make him at least reply.

Riruka's info:~

-Birthday at 26th August

-Sixteen years old by the time she met Raizen.

-158 Cm tall

-Black hair with teal blue eyes.

-Her hair reaches her shoulder, and slightly longer.

-Wore a blue ribbon that has wire in it to prevent it from being perky.

-Ruka is a cheerful girl, and sometimes quite blunt and straight forward. She is quick to learn and quite easy to make friends with.

-She also have bangs that cover up a part of her forehead.

-Quite confident.

Raizen:~

-Birthday at 4th September.

-Seventeen years old when he met with Riruka.

-175 Cm tall

-Brown hair and black eyes.

-His hair is quite short but smooth and soft, it grows past his forehead, and a bit of it covers his eyes sometimes.

-Doesn't give up on living because of his grandparents.

-Oftenly became a caring person, but not to be messed with when pissed. He seldomly get in a fight, unless it was not his choice or non-negotiable.

-Hate to be nagged, mainly Riruka's nag.