The necklace that my mother truly loved My mother is one of those beautiful women in the world who will gave me everything or anything I wanted in life, She's a gift of god not only to me but my whole family, and it's time for her to go back to the god she's willing to be with. Before she died holding my hands very tightly, She goes saying "The necklace give that to the person you will love forever" ordering me like a boss as usual while I replied "Mom you're the person I will love forever". "I know that but there's another. Don't sell that okay!" She whispered to my ears very loudly and I love it and love her as always. So then life goes on, remembering mom and her will until I met my first love, Claire who has those beautiful green emerald eyes and blonde brunette hair, I liked everything about her but there's one thing she didn't like about me, It was noticing everything about her eventually she broke up with me then I found another love of my life. Her name was Amanda, she's the nicest person I ever met in my entire life. We have a long relationship but there's one thing I don't like about her, it was having too many boy bestfriend so because of that situation unfortunately I broke up with her after years being single again, I found another and I think this time she's the last. Nicole, she's the example of every imperfection makes you beautiful and I liked her because of that but after month she realized something about me not loving me her when I was about to give her the necklace my mother wanted me to give. "Jayson...you don't love. You just like me" She muttered under her breathe. "What are you saying I love you very much that's why I'm giving you this necklace" I uttered as her tears where about to shed. "You---You don't love yourself do you?" She asked then looked at me in the eyes. "I don't know" I simply answered. "Jayson you don't anything about yourself. You just kept seeking what you don't wanted. You just kept remembering your mother's will without even understanding or finding out what is it?! Your mother wanted you to find yourself!" She enrages. "What do you mean by that Nicole?!" I asked which is confusing by that time. "Are you trying to be dumb or you really are? Find it on your own. Nobody will tell you the truth only you can discover it!" She said then left without a warning, leaving me behind. For days I started to think with my heart and it's not broken for a reason....it's just sad. I felt this before with my past girlfriends, come to think of it I was happy with them but empty at the same time. I noticed everything about Claire, her nails, dress, make-up and hair....it was so pretty that I loved it. I was jealous of Amanda having many boy bestfriend....it was so suffocating that I can't control myself to look at those handsome men more than my girlfriend. Nicole she said that I'm too soft and act all sensitive. That's the point when I realized that it's true I'm hiding myself and I found it but then to comfirm it I visited my dad. I sat beside him with a cup of tea on the table. "I was indenial at first then totally forgotten about that. Did you know dad?" I asked. "Of course when you're 3 or 4 years-old you started this things about being a mermaid and liking dolls but I didn't even care about that I thought it's part of growing up" He replied under his breathe. "At first you didn't care but now I know why you told me back then that I'm not like other boys but neither different too". I was confused but Mom told me the same thing that I'm special and just speak with my heart. I was scared so I kept it dad to the point I blinded myself for so many years" And that's how tears fell into my eyes and realized my mother's truly will is that she wanted me to love myself with all my heart, she accepted that fact, my dad also accepted it and just let me be. Now I will live my life freely no more searching, finding or keeping, I will wear the necklace my mother gave me because this is a gift to the person I truly loved and will forever...myself, it is I. The end