Sitting on the bed, I looked out the window dressed in bridal attire. Did I really make the right desicion? But I have caught feelings for Vijay Tiwari. And now I am here married to his son. This is so wrong!

Okay let's just pretend as if I am happy with his son, Sanjay Tiwari. For my father's sake, for the relatives' sake and especially for Vijay's sake.

I was so lost in thoughts that I didn't even see the door open. The room filled will the smell of alcohol. What the fuck?

Did he just come drunk to our wedding night?

I was horrified.

He walked towards me. Fuck he couldn't even walk properly. I was about to hold him so that he doesn't fall on the floor and doesn't hurt himself.

But he lost his balance and fell on top of me. He reeked of alcohol. I was feeling heavily nauseous.

It took every bit of strength in me to push him away.

My wedding night was a blunder.

I couldn't stay in the same room. I hated the smell of alcohol. What do I do?

Finally after some minutes I decided on leaving Sanjay as it is on the floor and leaving the room.

I went outside. A little exploration.

Downstairs I sat on the sofa thinking about my life.

+Flashback+

I don't like this. Not at all. This idea of coming to the party was bullshit. All my plans got ruined. But i guess i can survive this a little longer for the sake of papa. But you know the funny thing? Papa and mummy disappeared among the crowd as soon as we arrived. This is hell. Oh god! How much I want to go back home , back in my comfort zone!

But oh well, papa wouldn't be very happy. It was hard for him to get an invitation to a party like this.

"Should i get a cold drink?", I thought.

"Oh like hell, i should".

It wasnt hard to find the bar section of the party. Wait, how do you ask for a drink? How the fuck? Thats why you should go out more Nandini. I mentally scolded myself.

"Um, ma'am uhm... ", i fumbled. Oh fuck, how do we say it? Do you request? Or do you order? Oh l- "Do you want wine?", a voice emerged of the blue.

"I am not interested sir-", i spoke as i turned around the face the man who just offered me wine. I was literally blinded when i faced him. He was tall, like really tall as compared to me.

"Then what drink  a beautiful lady like you would love to have ,my  dear?", he spoke again but my eyes were fixated at his face. Damn, he was so... sexy?

I didn't knew I was staring at him until a waiter broke our moment. "Sir, ma'am would you like to any anything?".

"Win-", he turned to the waiter.

"I don't drink. Sir.", i blurted out. Oh shit. Did I make any wrong move? He stared at me for a very long time.

"Two Plain cold drinks, then. ", he spoke to the waiter without breaking any eye contact with me.

As the waiter left us, he smiled and said "didn't expect you to not drink love".

"What's your name darling?"

"It's Nandini...."

He extended his hand towards me and removed the hair from my face. I was awestruck. Totally blank.

I could fucking faint.

"I am Vijay Tiwari. I am glad to meet you. Nandini."

I love the way he says my name. The way he speaks my name makes me feel all tingly.

"You are really very ethereal, jaan"

"Jaan?"

"You don't like it? Jaan?", he spoke titling his head to one side .

I fumbled.

"Nandini... I was looking for you.", my Papa's voice broke me out of the trance. I blinked several times before i turned towards papa.

"Good evening Mr Tiwari. It's a beautiful party. Isn't it?", papa greeted him.

He knows him? Well why wouldn't he?

"Good evening.", Vijay Tiwari replied.

"I hope Nandini didn't bother you "

"Not at all. Actually we chatted for a bit. "

"I had a um proposal for you Mr Tiwari."

"Yes go ahead"

"Let's talk about it over Dinner,  Mr Tiwari".

"Sure thing. Well let me just call my son too"

"Sure sir."

Papa and ma dragged me towards the other end of the hall. "We have made a desicion Nandini. "

"What? What desicion?", I asked curiously.

"You are getting married."

"What! To whom? How? When?", I was extremely shocked. Nope. This can't happen.

"The person you were talking to... Mr Vijay Tiwari... His son"

"What the. Papa. I do not want to marry. I am only 22. What's the... Papa i haven't completed my studies yet."

"You may continue after marriage. But the point is it's time we turn this business relationship into a close relationship by marriage ".

"Papa..."

"I will hear nothing from you. "

"Papa. His son won't even agree!"

"Actually it was he himself who came up to us with the offer"

I was feeling... Wierd.

I just had a crush on Vijay Tiwari. Well I know he is older than me and everything but... Yet! Well. I can't marry his son! I don't even know who he is or how he is!

"I hope I am not interrupting", i felt a presence behind me. I swiftly turned around to see Mr Tiwari and a young man with him which i assume to be his son.

"No Mr Tiwari. We are glad you are here"

"Well my son was telling me that he has fallen for a woman here. ", i stared at him in disbelief.

A few moments ago he was flirting with me.

And now..

What the fuck.

"Well the kids have grown up now", ma added.

Situation was escalating pretty quickly and the next thing i know is they are talking about marriage. What the fuck? Oh my god.

+Flash back end+

A tear rolled down my eyes. How did my life turn out like this? This isn't what I imagined my life to go. Where am I stuck?

How do I... Deal with this... How?

Will i be able to spend my life like this?

My eyes were burning yet the tears wouldn't stop. I need to be strong. No. You cant cry Nandini. You are stronger than this.

I lied down on the sofa curled up into a ball and cried more.

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SASK Xoxo ~

I was surrounded by a musky manly scent. The smell was intoxicating. I felt protected. Just exactly how i want to feel.

I inhaled the scent more and the more I fell into the trance.

I could feel softness engulfing me. I felt cherished.

When my eyes opened my head was lying in someone's chest. I lifted my head.

"Vijay Tiwari? Sasur ji?"

It's probably a dream.

And oh god. If this is a dream don't let it end.

I silently admired his face and how the shadowed rays of sun kissed his face.

He looked ethereal.

I could stare at him forever.

I felt protected and safe.

........

I didn't realise it was already 8am when I woke up. I hurriedly removed the blanket and got to the floor.

The room seems different....

Well I don't know the house and the rooms too well so maybe i was mistaken.

That's when my eyes fell on the photographs hanging on the wall. It was of him... Vijay Tiwari.

It takes a lot in me to call him sasur ji when I have feelings for him...

Last night's memories rushed to me. So many things happened. My so called husband came drunk on the wedding night. Then the dream. Fuck my life.

The dream was nice ... Actually very nice. I felt loved after a very long time.

"Nandini... You are awake? Are you feeling good now?", a familiar voice emerged.

"Sasur ji..." , i turned around.

I saw him standing at the door way.

"Change into these and come downstairs for your breakfast."

"Have you eaten... Sasurji?"

"I thought you would have to eat alone. So no."

"Uh... Okay. Sasur ji"

A saree was kept neatly on the bed for me to wear.

I held the saree in my hands. It was soft to my touch. I could smell Vijay's musky scent in the saree.

Wait.

Last night i smelt that too.

Was this really a dream?

Wait, It's clearly not Sanjay's room. It's Vijay's.

Oh my god.

Last night was not a dream! What the fuck? How will I face him?

After bathing and dressing up, I opened the door only to see Vijay Tiwari standing just outside the room with breakfast in his hands.

" You must have been hungry", Vijay spoke as he calmly placed the plates and trays on the table.

"Thank you sasur ji... I am really glad", I spoke taken aback by his gentleman behaviour. I really never expected such behaviour for a man like him.

He turned towards me and stared at me for a whole Minute before lowering his gaze towards my body.

I felt extremely underdressed under his gaze.

But yet i loved the feeling of his eyes on me.

He took large steps towards me. And I backed away out of reflex until I was backed up against the wall.

I couldn't look at him in the eye yet i could feel his strong dominating eyes fixated on me. He pushed his knee between my legs and with his fingers he held my chin.

Slowly he lifted my face, until we were making eye contact.

I could feel his warm breath on my face. My heartbeat quickened. I didn't want this to stop. I could feel myself getting hotter each minute.

He held my throat and held me still against the wall.

He brought his face closer to mine and I bit my lips. I didn't know what I was expecting but yet i was ready for whatever that was to come.

He went for my ears and spoke slowly but sternly.

"Don't squirm jaan. Just relax. And rule number 1 is, you don't bite your lips jaan. Unless you want to get punished".

I was extremely flustered and I was totally blank. I didn't know how to react. But I loved it.

I didn't know I was biting my lips until he i heard him.

"Tut Tut Tut. What's rule number 1 jaan?"

"Sasur ji... "

"Answer me jaan", he applied a little pressure on my neck. Not enough to make me out of breath but enough to make me feel light headed.

"Not to bite lips"

"Yes.. it's your first day so I am going to let you off the hook. There's no second time jaan.", he pressed his lips on mine and my body gave in to him. I was losing control.

I didn't know when my hand travelled to his waist.

He bit and pulled on my lip before letting me go but his hand was still forcing me to the wall.

"Jaan. Sanjay has gone for a business trip abroad. And he won't be back anytime soon. So, you will do whatever I say jaan. Am I clear jaan? ", he looked me deep in my eyes as if he was staring right into my soul.

"Yes..." It was as if I was lost in a trance.

"That's my good girl".

That's when I fucking lost it.

Xoxo SASK