I felt like the time froze. My heart is beating against my ribs as if it wanna jump out and run away from me. Ear are closed to let other busy noises surrounds me to get in. All I can hear is my heavy breathing. All I can see is him. I can’t stop staring at him. Even though he is uncomfortable by my behaviour. He is looking at me in a confused manner and looking away from my eyes time to time. But all I can think is ‘I waited for you for long’

But I dont know who you are. It’s my first time meeting him

I am quite familiar with his sound. But it’s first time hearing It in an annoyed way. I only heared this sound with full of disappointment and pleading. ☹️. Also it’s my first time hearing his sound in real too

You people are confused right?? I am also confused 😬😬 at first

But it’s true that I used to have dreams about him. It’s actually not a dream. Dream is one we see while sleeping right? For me I will dream about him when I get panic attack. More precisely I get panic attack when that dream wanna prop out of no where. It can be at any time. Maybe when Iam eating with my friends, or when Iam in for our football finals, during exams, sometimes even when Iam crossing the road.

It doesn’t have a proper time to pop up. My childhood friends, parents even middle school teachers are quite familiar with it. Even though I never like to share about this with anyone but it eventually will appear in front of them and I will end up telling them. I won’t tell deep about. I will just say I was having a panic attack. Reason: I don’t know.

Well guys let me indroduce myself first,,Iam sam ,19 years old studying in xxxxx university. I majors in business management since Iam gonna be the heir of great theor family

Iam perfect in every aspect like money, family, looks, sports, studies. I know Iam perfect to be called by the name ‘dream boyfriend’ for all the girls in my mid school, high school, university even in my kindergarten. 😂. It was fun to see girls fighting over for me though I never once intersted in them. Heyyy don’t get me wrong. I don’t think Iam gay too as I never felt anything for the boys around too. I do have large dating history with almost every girl in this university though I never remember anyone’s name

Like I said I do have a perfect dream boyfriend image in my university. The only problem I have is this damn panic attack which make others feel like I have some incurable disease. But truth is that it never affected anyone from dating me. This negative feature is always covered by all those supreme qualities I possess. In this university I don’t even know whether all know about my illness since I never had it after the mid school.

Maybe Iam cured of that unidentifiable, unlogical disease, which I myself named as panic attack. But the feelings I had when I get it is intact and firm in my heart.

Shitttt it’s the only thing that came out of my mind. Do you ever felt like some theories you build up and believed blindly for the past few years suddenly scattering to nothing. That’s what Iam feeling now. I mean ‘Iam wrong, I made up a stupid story for myself’.

Since Iam hearing this sobbing and pleading of a kid continuously and I don’t know the reason. So I came to a conclusion that ‘ maybe Iam kidnapped when I was young and had undergone some traumatic things that made me forgot the past but still its in my subconscious mind ‘ 😂 I really have a creative mind right or am I so much in to those fantasy novels and stuff. I don’t know. I just believed like that. And I even once asked my parents about it. And they started laughing. I made fool out of myself

But I saw the boy in my dreams also growing as Iam growing. But the only thing that didn’t change is his desperate look on him saying to help him. Saying to lift him up from that hell. I could feel my heart tightens and blood rushing out of my heart making me under severe pain.

So after watching my parents reaction to my stupid story of being kidnapped. I quit that idea and started thinking maybe it’s not this life.....it can be my previous life. Maybe in previous I had gone through so many bad things. Otherwise why could i have been feeling this much pain. Since Iam not a type of guy who feels pity and sad for others unless it hurts my precious family, friends most importantly me, my status. Nice logic right. I believed that for about 3 years. But now at this moment. I can see the eyes that Iam very much familiar with

Then I came back to my senses. I should think logically now. I should act logically. I am sure he misunderstood me. I chased him

He stopped running and faces towards me

He said while looking in to my eyes

I saw him little trembling when I raised my sound a little.I found out that he was acting like a tough guy earlier. I can feel how weak he is. But he do have guts to say what he thinks openly

Ohh nooo. What can I do. How do I make friends with him. I wanted to see him again. Obviously i wanted to talk to him. I wanted to give the hand he want to take desperately in my dream. Heyyy boy can’t you see that. *i hitted my own head with my hand*

Zen was already walked of there during my mind battle