"Hey, teacher, can you help me with something?"

"Sure, what is it?"

Her name is teacher Suzan; she is my math teacher. Even though she is a teacher, she is still very young, I never heard her commenting on her age, but she is certainly no more than 25 years old.

'And yes, I'm in love with her.'

I'm in the last year of high school, I'm almost done this year, and it won't be long before I distance myself from her. I didn't want to let our relationship stay open. I wanted to declare myself to her.

I don't know what her reaction will be, but I'm sure I will be rejected; there is no way a woman like her will accept dating a boy like me.

Why did I fall in love, you must be imagining? Well, she is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, it is as if I had met the woman of my dreams in a classroom, and she is my teacher.

"So, what do you need?"

"Ah, I wanted you to help me with an issue I didn't understand. Could you come to the room with me?"

Damn it, and I started to sweat and stammer as soon as I started talking to her, surely she must think I'm weird.

"Sure, but can't it be like this? I need to hurry. I have to

correct some activities. "

"Well, I ended up forgetting my notebook in the classroom, so I wanted you to come with me." But what kind of a lie is that?

You just wanted to be alone with her in a room.

"Okay, but we have to be quick."

I feel like my heart will explode anytime while she walks beside me; please calm down, you can't die before you tell her how you feel. You need to control yourself.

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"So, what's the matter?"

"EXCUSE, I FOOLED YOU!" I ended up talking too loudly. I felt like I was going to die of embarrassment.

"Why did you do that? I was busy." When I looked at her face, I felt a threatening look; she is furious, I need to tell her.

"I'm sorry, I wanted to be alone with you for a moment, I, I ..." She continued to look at me with those menacing eyes. Was she that scary? I just made you waste a little time. It doesn't have to be like this.

"Say it."

Shit, I have to say, I need to say that I like her, maybe this is the last chance, I will never have the courage to do that again, control yourself and say it.

"I ... I LIKE YOU, PLEASE, DATE WITH ME."

Again I ended up saying it too loudly. It doesn't surprise me if someone outside the room heard it.

"Are you kidding me? I need work, don't play that kind of game."

"It's true since I saw you earlier in the year, I fell in love with you; I can't get you out of my head."

"Is it true? Well, I can't do anything, now excuse me." And so she left me inside the room and left the room without looking back, damn it, I knew it wouldn't work.

'So this is the feeling of being rejected?' I put my hand on my chest to try to control the pain I was feeling at that moment.

"Damn it." I was about to cry at that moment, but I could only think how am I going to look at her face tomorrow? I will not be able to do that.

'I need to control myself, and I was already prepared for this, right?' Even though I think that tears started streaming down my face, they told me that the first rejection hurt, but I didn't know it would be like that.

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** WHILE THAT\, OUTSIDE THE ROOM **

'What did I do, I rejected him, I don't believe he likes me too, I didn't think he liked me, what do I do?'

He's in the room, I could hear his crying, but what can I do now? I just rejected him, I rejected the person I like, I never thought I would do that, but I did.

Don't cry; please don't cry.

Why didn't I accept it? Just because I wanted to maintain the pose of a responsible teacher? I'm so sorry, and I still made him cry. I didn't want that.

Why can't I be honest with him? How am I going to look at him now? He sure hates me; he doesn't like me anymore, what am I going to do?

Haaaa ~~

I screamed in my mind because I didn't know what to do. I have to reverse it somehow.

My name is Yuu Ishida, I am currently 17 years old, and I am in high school, and oddly enough, I am in love with my teacher. I know that many people would say that this is wrong and that it could never work, but I want to make it happen.

My teacher is called Suzan; she wasn't even 30 years old, but I never asked her that. She currently teaches math. I'm in the middle of her class right now.

I have to say that I'm already close to her. Usually, she talks to me a lot, or maybe I'm just forcing her to speak to me since I only get close to her and start talking about some things.

'Maybe she is just talking to me out of pity, as she would not like to leave me talking alone, but I think she would not do that.'

Even though I am a bit of a severe teacher at times, I have come across some cute moments from her, but when she found out that I had seen her, I thought I would be threatened.

You may ask me if I fell in love with her beauty or for another reason, well, I must say that she is lovely, maybe she is the most beautiful woman I have ever met, but something about her is different.

I feel that she is not the way she acts, this is not her proper way of acting, she seems to be hiding her real personality, and it made me curious about her, and after approaching and watching her for a long time, I started to fall in love with her.

Maybe it's a stupid teenage love that will fade over time, but I don't want to leave school without even trying to do something about it.

I'm currently in my senior year of high school, so I don't know if I'll see her after graduating, so this year is the last I have to try to declare myself to her or something, but it won't be that easy.

Even approaching her a few times to talk, I am still a person who is ashamed very quickly. I can't even imagine declaring myself to her; when I start to imagine it, I start shaking with shame.

But this is not what scares me the most. What scares me is the fact that I can be rejected, and of course, it is the most likely to happen. I don't know if a teacher like her would be with a student.

Sometimes people say, it's better not to declare yourself than to be rejected, but I don't know if I agree with that. Isn't it better to be rejected and lose hope than to hide your feelings and then walk away without saying anything?

I have to make up my mind soon.

"I need to find a way to declare myself to her, but how do I do that?" I said while placing my hand in front of my mouth. I think I spoke too loudly; my colleague, who was sitting next to me, started to laugh. I just looked at him and smiled.

But it took me a while to know the reason for his laughter until I looked ahead and saw the teacher in front of me while looking earnestly at me.

Glup ~~

I swallowed, and then I started to feel my heart racing with time. Shit, that's the side effect of being in love. I've thought it a few times before while talking to her.

Badump ~~

Badump ~~

I lowered my head a little and started to wail in my mind, damn it, she's here, did she hear anything? Do I have to pretend I didn't say anything, but I don't think it's too late now?

"Could you stop thinking about your school novels and pay attention in class?"

"I'm sorry ..." The only thing I could do was to apologize and keep my head down. I was embarrassed at that moment.

HAHAHAHA ~~

The whole room started laughing at that, and when I looked at the teacher, she had a satisfied smile on her face. Wait a moment, did you want to embarrass me? Why?

"Hey, stop getting all in love there and pay attention in class." The teacher had already left my face and was continuing her class, and the person who sat across from me turned to say that, well, and who is that person? Her name is Alice, basically my childhood friend.

I have studied with her since I was little, and a few years ago, she moved to the front house, so we got close enough.

In many works, people fall in love with their childhood friends, but I was never attracted to her. It is strange if I follow the logic of anime; she also never gave a sign that she likes me.

"I'll be careful," I said as I put my finger on his head and pushed a little forward.

"Stop it."

"Hehe," I liked to play with her during class, but I think it's better to stop doing that. I don't want the teacher to show up here again. If I do something stupid, she can find out everything.

Imagine just receiving a rejection before you even declare yourself?

***//***

"So, who are you going to declare yourself to?"

"Stop it, and I'm not going to declare myself to anyone."

"Hmm, you don't know how to lie, you are all flushed."

"Leave me in peace."

It was time for lunch. I was sitting at one of the tables with Alice. We usually always eat together, sometimes some friends show up, but today we are alone.

She could stop playing with me like that. I feel ashamed to talk about love with her. I think anyone would be like that, speak to a woman about love, even more so a close friend.

'There would be no problem talking... "I looked at her, and then she looked at me, and I turned my face away.

"Wait, don't tell me that you finally fell in love with me?"

"No, it will never happen."

"You fell in love with me, come on, declare yourself."

"I didn't fall in love with you, that's enough, everyone is looking at us."

"So what? Let them look, so they'll know that you fell in love with me, hehe" She had a sarcastic smile on her face, that's why I never fell in love with her. I get angry with her quickly.

Well, it's even fun to play with her like that, I won't deny that.

"Okay, time to go back to the living room, you two there, stop flirting, and hurry up." As soon as we finished eating, someone appeared behind our chairs. When I looked, there she was.

The teacher was standing there looking at us with threatening eyes. Wait, we didn't do anything, we were talking, but even so, she is irritated for some reason.

Maybe she is still angry with me because of what happened earlier in class? I hope she forgets that.

"Alright, come on, Yuu." Alice took my hand and pulled me along with her; when I looked at the teacher's face, she was still looking at us with those eyes, but I could see that she was also with an empty look. She seemed a little sad.

I wanted to know what is going on in her head right now. I need to find some way to be alone with her. It will only be a little tricky.

'Wait, I had an idea.'

"Hey, stop being flustered like that, I'm going to kiss you." As soon as I came to, I realized that we were already inside the classroom, and Alice had her face in front of mine.

"Shit." I pulled away at the same time as I felt my heartbeat rapidly. It scared the **** out of me.

"HAHAHA."

"Were you going to kiss me?"

"Of course not."

She sat in her seat as if nothing had happened. I don't even remember how I got to the room. I remember Alice pulling me and the teacher's face.

I wanted to know why she had that empty look.

After class, I always went home with Alice, since we lived very close, I think we got used to doing that; throughout high school, we went home together, sometimes some colleagues walked with us, but it rarely happened.

"Hey, but now seriously, who are you going to report to?" Alice asked while walking beside me. I think she still hasn't given up on it. I see no reason not to talk now; we are away from school.

Some people were passing by, but I didn't know any of them, and those people wouldn't remember if I said who I'm in love with, and what would they do about it since they don't know me? They would do nothing.

At school, it was different, the number of people who know us at school is excellent, and our colleagues were watching us at that moment. Imagine if I say that I am in love with my teacher in front of everyone? I would die of shame.

So to answer Alice's question, I just said, "The teacher." The moment she heard those words coming out of my mouth, her feet stopped, and she stood looking at me for a while.

"Is this serious? For the teacher?"

"Yes, by the teacher." The atmosphere seemed to be getting tense. It felt like I was on trial, and the judge was Alice; I was starting to feel bad about being stared at by her, until ...

"HAHAHA, what? Did you fall in love with our teacher?" She started to laugh in the middle of the street as she punched my shoulder.

"What's so funny about that?"

"I can't believe it, are you in love with our teacher? Are you stupid? Nothing can happen between you, of course, I would laugh about it."

"Stop it; it's not my fault for falling in love with her."

"Don't give me this story that you don't rule your heart, you fell in love with her willingly, and that's very funny."

"Because it's funny?"

"Yuu, are you asking that? She is your teacher and is also much older, of course, it's funny."

"That's not funny, you know, I'm seriously thinking about declaring myself to her." All that made me frustrated. Is it hilarious for a student to fall in love with his teacher? I thought it was weird, but not funny.

"Okay, I'll support you with that," Alice said as she put her hand on my shoulder and smiled at me. For a moment, I thought she was serious, but then she started laughing at me again.

"Let's go home, and don't tell anyone about it."

"Of course I'm not going to tell anyone, I don't want my friend to be made fun of for the whole choice."

"I see, so this is so funny and weird."

"Well, most people think so, but I believe that if you want to do this, want to declare yourself to her, you can do it, but don't count on me to comfort you when she rejects you."

"I won't count on you for this."

"I'm glad." For a moment, Alice's gaze changed. It seemed that she was bothered by something, besides that forced smile, Alice was undoubtedly upset about something.

But since I'm an idiot, I decided to ignore it.

//

"I arrived."

"Ah, Yuu, how was it? Where's Alice?"

"Alice? She went home."

"I see, I could have asked her to come to dinner with us." This is my mother, Erika. Usually, she always asks to bring Alice home. I think she is trying to push me towards her.

How can I say? Sometimes she tries to join me with Alice, even if we don't agree on anything, she always tries this, she should stop for a while. I forgot how many times I was forced to ask Alice to have dinner here at home.

Alice's company is something I like because we already have a conviction for many years. She is a fun girl, we always play something after dinner, and of course, my mother still watches us from afar, you could forget that nothing will happen between us.

"I'm going to take a shower in a little while, I'm going down for dinner," I told my mom as I took off my shoes and put them in a closet near the door.

"Okay, but before dinner, you could go and call Alice."

"No, I will not do that."

"Ara, fufu." Stop acting weird like that, you should think about things a little more, don't you know that trying to put two people together like that is a little strange? Let me try to find my love on my own.

As it is, if I don't declare myself to the teacher right away, my mother will end up forcing us to be together for real. Just thinking about it makes me shiver.

I can't imagine myself dating Alice. It's too weird for me.

'Okay, bath time.' I took my towel hanging on a support on the wall and went into the bath; this is one of the best hours of my day, where I can lie in the tub and be thinking about Suzan.

I couldn't get that sad face out of her mind. She sure was unhappy about something.

'It could be...'

"Is she having love problems?" No, it can't be, she can't be in love with someone. I can't imagine that Suzan having feelings for someone, that cold woman who doesn't seem to feel love.

Wait, I'm a little hard on her, I won't find out what happened until I asked her, but wouldn't that be weird? During one of our conversations, I just ask why she is sad? That would be very strange.

Haaa ~~

I sighed and closed my eyes while still lying in the bathtub. I didn't even notice the time passing. I only realized that I was already in the bath for a long time when I heard my mother's voice screaming at me from downstairs.

I'm going to ask her what happened tomorrow. I hope I can do it without looking too invasive; I don't want her to be upset.