[Bian pov ]

It is already dawn. the sky has a beautiful  mix colour of blue , yellow and orange.  It looks beautiful  but not for me because  nothing is going to change in my life . It would  still be the boring and plain day like it was last 18 years . As the it is the last year  of my high school i just have  one goal to study and enter a good university.  with my  thoughts  i stop staring the sky and start to walk towards  the bus stop .

I always past through  the same path  everyday  to go school .looking around  the old shop colourless and lifeless , the building colours  were all fading  away its the same as my life boring and colourless .

"Bian........ An bian ....... " i just  heard my name being called as i look toward the direction  of the voice i saw a families  figure.  It was grandma Jay . she is an old lady she had her own stall . she is not living with her son as her son had settle  in the city and had his own family he never had came back to the village  let alone sending  money  to his mother .

" Yes grandma"  i said   " bain thank you  for helping me yesterday  with my store and here some breads i know you much  not have your brakefast yet .... here take it "  ................... thank  you grandma ..i would  be coming today evening  as well... but now i have to go i would be late,   see you in evening " nai " ( grandmother)  .

And i missed my bus ......... when i reach the bus station it was already  late.... n I'm  not going to get a cap or taxi now .... so i have to run all the way to school 

.. and i was already late  for the school the guard already close the gate ....

Uncle please... it's  my first  time being late can u please  .... let me go inside  please  uncles.... and finally  i got to enter . As soon as the enter my classroom i was so tired that i laid down  my head on my desk  and close my eyes. It was very noise  in the room as the teacher  had not reach yet. " oii bian you ok" .. i know the voice it was kai .... my friend since elementary school . He is a dumb head  , who knows nothing except for playing  basketball, he had never tried to study of course  he is the last rank student ... but he is good brother of mine always  help when ever i need ..... not to mention he was the most irritating  person i have ever seen . " ya m ok " i replied  without  looking at him and not opening  my eyes "but ............." as soon as he start  to talk the bell rang and the teacher  arrived  .

Ok student  today i would  be giving  you all the mark of the last test ......... ami ... ari .......................... " Bian " as i heard my name  i went to the teacher  to get it ... and i didn't  do good these time ..... " come and meet me in the office bian , after the class " . it was not like i did really  bad in the test .. but i got the third highest  mark .... But it is never good enough for me ... i had always  been the top .. and not being in the third ... i know  the teacher  know  what is wrong ....... i just hope that he wouldn't  call my family . After the class  the following  the homeroom  teacher  to the staffroom .

[IN STAFFROOM]

" Bain ... what happened  to you is something  bothering  you .. that distract you from your studies....... you are really  not doing well in the last few months  tell me may be i would  be  any of your help "

No sir ... it's nothing... i just  didn't  prepare  properly  for the test ...... Don't  worry  i would  do better  in the up coming  tests .

"you are sure " he ask me looking at my eyes.

i took a deep sign and reply  " yes sir

..... sir if there is no other think i would  go back to class " ....... yes sure... go he said go.

And as i was walking back to the class room  i slipped  and fall on something .... i was really  not paying attention

" ouch ....... it really  hurt " as i look up it was a can laying on the way  " who had thrown a can on the way..... it is actually  my bad day " i got up throw the can in a dustbin ... and went back to class.... we finished  the classes  by 4 pm .

As i was packing my books .... kai came " oii ... wanna go have fun ... we are going in a game center " ..... ' no' i directly  refused " i have to go to help grandma  jay "  " bian why don't  u come you barely hangout  with both of us now" said amily . she also have been my friend since elementary school,  she is a very cheerful and shy girl . " not today ami... may be some other day .... see you guys m going " and the got up from my desk ..... " ok .... bye... see you tomorrow  " said amily ... " yaa bye " kai said pouting  and looking at me .....

I got out of the school and directly went to grandma jay stall ..... i help her with serving and chores  . It was already 8pm so i was returning  home . And the building near my home   caught  my  eyes  it had been empty for quite a long time ..... but i saw light  on today .... " may be someone had shifted  ...... new neighbors "...

i went back home and washed my self up ....and came down for dinner .. mom was arranging food on the table  so i just went and give her a hand .... dad was watching  news on tv .." mom .. nest had not yet .came home " i ask nest is my elder brother he was 6 years older then me   ... i already  know  the answer he barely  came home early... he does nothing  but just roaming  around  with his friends  partying .. he was the most useless  person  in the family  " mmm" mom reply without  even looking at me ..

after that we had our dinner  and i went to my room.... i was almost  to sleep  when i heard  the bike stopping  sound ... here he came back .. my brother .... as soon as he came inside i could  hear him vomiting  ........ And i know  what was coming  next .....

i could  hear my father  shouting on nest and him smashing  all the thing ...... i had already  got  used to it ....it always  happen ........ everyday ... i just want to escape  from it ... it was like a living hell .

I just wish that i would  also have a normal  family  , where everyone are happy  , understanding   and a peaceful, place where after coming  being tired  we can rest and relax  ...... but it was never going to happen  .

My home was where all the members  get more stress  .. and is better  to stay outside  then coming back home. It was not alway like this it all started  when my brother left  his studied  when he was only 17 .

Actually  according  to me it was not home .... but just a building

\[BIAN POV\]

I don't  knows  when i felt asleep last night . A new day but its the same for me  .It is really  annoying  to really  do the same things  everyday. But it was my only way to survive and leave these dirty life that i have been living . yes my family was not a happy  family . My parents  were never able to support  me with anything  i want , but alway have been supporting my brother  even if he create a lot of mess. They fight but they still do everything for him as he is the male of the family who is going to inherited  the family property . And i a girl was nothing but a backup of my parents  to support  them one day when my brother  can't  make it . So the only thing i can do now is to study hard , achieve my dream , be independent and escape  from these hell . I was always been a backup  for my parents i have to always sacrifice thing just so they can provide  more for my brother. I had my breakfast  and leave for school.

[In school]

I'm  already  in school  it was very noise . I was just sitting in the second last bench  with my books open . i was alone in my desk as the desk near mine was empty.  i was just trying to concentrate  in my study when i heard amily voice behind me "Bain .. why are you studying  early in the morning  " " yes bain" kai joint her. "mmm" i didn't  even look at them while replying , i close my books and look at amily " ami and kai " i smile at them " how was it yesterday  did you guys enjoy " i wrap my arm with amily with excitement and spoke . " yes we went to a amusement park and rode a lot of ride  and we had our dinner  In my home , you really  should  have join us bian "ami replied   . " ok, ok next time , now go teacher  would  be coming " i told them with a smile ".

As they went back the teacher  already  enter  the room " Attention  student,  listen  here  , we have a new student  today in our  class , welcome  Ray shawn , ray come  , introduction  yourself " " hi everyone " the boy speak out and most of the girls were already  drooling  over him , he have  a very pretty  eyes silky hair with a with beautiful  lips , he has good  hight and a very good  body , but with all these features  he just look like a playboy with no interest  in studies  . " my name is Ray shawn, i just moved here form the city , as my father  got transferred  here , hope to get along with everyone "he introduce himself.   " ray go and sit  on that empty  desk" teacher said point  towards the seat near mind and i know  there was only one empty desk in the whole class , the desk near me , i really  don't  like it , being with someone  , i know  he would disturb me and my studies.  " yes sir" ray said to the teacher  and started  to approach  towards  the me , hell and what was more annoying  to me was that as soon as he sat at his desk , he was staring  at me , damn and my eyes  lock with his , even when i took my eyes off him he keep staring " what ..., you have anything  to tell me" i speak out with a very firm tune " you wanna speak to me , shit is on my face ... speak up bro" .And as soon as he open his mouth it was annoying " i was  just  wondering,  how can my deskmate be so ugly" . " I'm  much more better  looking  then the shit sitting  near me " i said loudly looking  at him. I really  don't  even wanted  to sit near this arrogant  boy for a second but i have to tolerate  it , and the class end . I was heading towards  my home but i feel like someone  just following  me , i tried  to avoid it by walking  fast or may be running  . I was really  was not able  to get rip of it , so i waited in a corner to attack  on him, and as soon as i tried that person stop me and shit .......... i was on him , like on him and and ...my lips .. shit .. was on his . And it was non other then the annoying  boy ray . As soon as i can  i ran towards home without even looking back . After reaching  home i locked  myself  in my room buried myself in my bed .. it was my first  kiss and i lost it to the arrogant  boy , no way .And thinking About  it i fall asleep. 

\[Ray PoV\]

standing  the the corner  of the road, staring at the running figure  of bian .He was to stunned to speak . " silly, anan didn't  even recognize " he spoke with low voice   his hand on his lips .