The world inside my home smelled of lavender and old books. Chandeliers cast golden light on polished floors, and lace curtains billowed like ghosts in the evening breeze. Everything was soft, delicate—just like my parents wanted me to be.
I sat at the long dining table, my fingers tracing the rim of my teacup. The scent of a freshly baked tart filled the air, but my stomach felt hollow.
"Lia, darling, you hardly touched your food," my mother said, her voice gentle but probing.
"I'm not that hungry," I murmured.
Father folded his newspaper and looked at me with a warm, proud smile. "You always were so disciplined, sweetheart. Never a difficult child."
Never a difficult child. A perfect daughter.
I swallowed the bitterness in my throat. They meant it as praise, but it felt like a weight, an expectation too heavy to carry. I wasn't perfect, not even close. They just refused to see the cracks beneath the porcelain.
“I think I’ll go for a walk,” I said, pushing my chair back.
My mother frowned. "It's dark, dear. Why don’t you sit with us a little longer?"
"I just… need some air."
They didn’t argue. They never did. Their love was velvet-soft, but it smothered me all the same.
I stepped outside, the cool night air prickling my skin. The garden stretched before me, ivy-covered archways casting twisted shadows under the moonlight. The scent of night jasmine clung to the breeze. And there, leaning against the old stone fountain, was him.
Elias.
His dark curls were tousled by the wind, his hands buried in the pockets of his coat. He wasn’t supposed to be here—he never was—but somehow, he always found his way to me.
"You look like you're running away," he said. His voice was low, teasing, but there was something else beneath it. Something knowing.
I sighed, stepping closer. “Maybe I am.”
He tilted his head, watching me in that way that made my heart ache. "What did they do this time? Tuck you in too tight? Comb your hair too neatly?"
I gave a small, bitter laugh. "They told me how perfect I am."
Elias winced. "Ouch."
"Yeah." I wrapped my arms around myself, staring down at the rippling water in the fountain. "I hate it, Eli. I hate that they see me as something flawless when I feel like I’m falling apart inside."
His voice softened. "Then let them see you."
I shook my head. "They won’t. They never do. No matter what I say, they just keep treating me like I’m still a child."
He didn't try to fix it. That’s what I liked about Elias—he never gave me empty reassurances, never told me I was overreacting. He just listened, like my words mattered.
The silence stretched between us, comfortable in a way silence never was with my parents. Then, finally, Elias sighed and ran a hand through his hair.
"You know, Lia," he said, "one day you're gonna have to break out of that dollhouse of yours. They can’t keep you in glass forever."
I looked at him, at the boy who had always seen the real me, and whispered, "I don’t know how."
Elias smiled, lopsided and full of something I couldn’t name. "That’s okay," he said. "We’ll figure it out."
And somehow, in the quiet of the night, with the wind tangling my hair and Elias standing beside me, I almost believed him.
The morning sun poured through my bedroom window, turning the lace curtains into gold-dusted ghosts. My mother had been here earlier, as always, opening the windows to let in the light. She believed in soft mornings, in warm air and fresh flowers.
I believed in silence.
I stared at my reflection in the vanity mirror. My hair was perfectly brushed, my dress neatly pressed—a picture of elegance. But I felt nothing like the girl in the glass.
Downstairs, my parents sat at the breakfast table, already deep in their world of quiet affections. My father sipped his coffee, the newspaper folded neatly beside him. My mother, dressed in pastels, reached for a bowl of strawberries, her every movement graceful.
“Lia, sweetheart,” my father said as I slid into my chair. “We were just talking about the gala this weekend. Everyone’s excited to see you.”
I stiffened. The gala. Another night of rehearsed smiles and hollow praise. Another night of people telling me how lovely I was, how poised, how perfect.
I swallowed the protest rising in my throat.
“Of course. I’ll be there.”
Mother beamed. “You always bring such light into a room, darling.”
I focused on the silver spoon in my hand, gripping it tight enough to turn my knuckles white. I wanted to tell them the truth—that I wasn’t light, that I was suffocating under their expectations—but I knew they wouldn’t hear me.
So, I just smiled.
The morning passed in a blur of routine. A piano lesson, a scheduled call with my mother’s friend’s daughter (who was “so accomplished for her age”), and an afternoon spent pretending to read while my mind wandered. I wondered what it would be like to live without the weight of expectation pressing down on my shoulders.
Later that day, I met my friends at the café just outside town—a place that smelled like roasted coffee and cinnamon, where the furniture didn’t match and the walls were covered In Polaroids. It was messy, loud, and imperfect. It felt real.
Sienna was already at our usual table, stirring sugar into her espresso. “Lia, you look miserable,” she announced, her dark eyes narrowing.
I sighed, sliding into my seat. “I’m fine.”
Sienna rolled her eyes. “Lia, if you say you’re fine one more time, I swear—”
“She’s lying,” Elias cut in, sliding into the seat beside me.
I blinked. He didn’t usually meet us here. But today, he did. Maybe because he knew. Maybe because he always knew.
Nico, sitting across from me, lazily flipped through a sketchbook without looking up. “It’s her parents again,” he muttered.
I pushed my untouched drink away. “They want me at the gala this weekend.”
Sienna snorted. “Of course they do. Can’t have their perfect daughter missing from the display.”
I winced. The words shouldn’t have hurt. But they did.
Elias leaned back in his chair, watching me. “So don’t go.”
I looked at him, startled. “You know I can’t do that.”
“Why not?” He tilted his head. “What’s the worst that could happen?”
I hesitated. Disappointment. Disapproval. The soft weight of their love, pressing down until I couldn’t breathe.
“I just can’t,” I whispered.
Sienna scoffed, tossing her spoon onto the table with a clatter. “You’re acting like skipping one party is going to make the world end.”
“You don’t understand.” My voice was quiet, but the words felt sharp in my throat.
“Then make us understand.” Elias’s gaze didn’t waver.
I wanted to. I wanted to tell them how every moment of my life was planned, how every step was carefully chosen for me. How my parents didn’t see me—they saw the version of me they wanted. And if I didn’t fit, I felt like I might disappear.
But I couldn’t say any of that.
So, I just shook my head.
Elias sighed, rubbing a hand through his hair. “One day, Lia, you’re going to have to choose yourself.”
I exhaled slowly. “Maybe.”
He watched me for a long moment before finally turning back to his coffee. The conversation shifted to something else, but the weight of his words stayed with me.
Maybe he was right.
Maybe one day, I would choose myself.
But not today.
The dress was beautiful.
Layers of soft ivory silk, delicate embroidery along the sleeves, a ribbon cinched tight at my waist. My mother stood behind me, her fingers deftly adjusting the final details.
"You’ll be breathtaking," she murmured, her voice warm with quiet pride.
I met her gaze in the mirror. She looked at me with such love, such admiration. But the reflection staring back at me wasn’t me. Just the doll they had sculpted, dressed up in perfection.
I wanted to tell her. Wanted to rip off the dress and scream that I wasn’t this delicate, obedient girl. That I was something more—something wilder, something restless. But instead, I whispered, "Thank you, Mother."
Because that’s what I always did.
The carriage ride to the gala was quiet. My father sat across from me, eyes scanning the invitation in his hand as if he hadn’t already memorized the names of the esteemed guests attending. My mother was beside me, her gloved hands folded neatly in her lap.
"Tonight is important, Lia," she said softly. "Your future depends on how you present yourself."
I knew.
I had spent years training for this, learning the perfect smile, the right tone of voice, the graceful way to accept a compliment. I had been molded, polished like a gemstone until I gleamed with expectation.
So, when we arrived at the grand ballroom, I did what was expected.
I glided across the marble floor, my expression serene. Chandeliers glittered above, casting golden light across the polished surfaces. Music swelled in the air, violins singing in elegant harmony. I exchanged polite greetings, nodded at compliments, let strangers admire the dress, the careful way my hair had been styled.
Perfect. Elegant. Poised.
And yet, I felt like a ghost.
The laughter of the guests was distant, muffled, like I was trapped behind glass. I went through the motions, speaking when necessary, smiling when appropriate, but inside, something was fraying, unraveling thread by thread.
Then—
"Lia."
The voice was familiar, grounding.
I turned, my pulse stuttering in my throat.
Elias stood near the garden doors, slightly apart from the crowd. His suit was well-fitted but looked foreign on him, like a cage trying to tame something untamed. He belonged somewhere wilder, freer.
Something inside me lurched.
I moved toward him before I could stop myself. "You actually showed up?"
He smirked. "I had to see if you’d run away yet."
I huffed, folding my arms. "You’re impossible."
"And you’re predictable," he countered, a challenge in his tone. He leaned in slightly, his voice quieter now. "So… are you gonna prove me wrong?"
My breath caught.
I glanced around—the grand staircase, the glittering chandeliers, the endless waves of silk gowns and tailored suits. My parents’ laughter echoed somewhere nearby, perfectly blended into the melody of the night.
I could stay. Play my part. Smile until my face ached.
Or—
I reached behind me and untied the ribbon at my waist.
The knot loosened, the silk bow unraveling between my fingers. It wasn’t much—just a small act, a single defiance against the perfect image they had crafted. But when I looked up, Elias was watching me, his gaze flickering to the undone ribbon before returning to my face.
Something in his expression softened.
For the first time that night, I felt like I was the one breathing.
But it wasn’t enough.
The tight bodice still restricted my ribs, the delicate embroidery still scratched against my skin. The weight of expectation still pressed down on my shoulders.
My fingers trembled as they moved to the row of tiny buttons along my sleeve. I hesitated.
Then—one by one—I began to undo them.
Elias exhaled a quiet laugh, shaking his head. "You really are something else."
"Help me," I murmured.
For a second, he just looked at me, his expression unreadable. Then, without a word, he reached out, his fingers brushing against mine as he undid another button.
The voices in the ballroom faded. The chandeliers, the music, the polite conversations—they no longer mattered.
I didn’t know where this act of rebellion would lead me. I didn’t know what came next.
But for the first time in my life, I was choosing for myself.
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