Hii.Im known as Aurora

I am fifteen and still with no friends, its embrassing to say though. When iwas born my mom died and my father hate me because of that.he alys blame me for that and yeah I agree with him.i just dont know why on the earth I'm so unlucky,iwish iwas at heaven with my mom so I could get rid of all the troubles.im tired .I'm really tired. I need some rest.

Until now my dad havent spoke a single word to me , all he does is frownd and ignore me everyday .you might be thinking how is it possible living in the same house and not talking at all.I dont know neither.I'm so confuse too, how he manage to do that?.when ever I tried to say something to him , he directly ignores me and be busy in some activities or he acts as if im invisible but how come ican see my own reflection at the mirror.he wont hear anything though ishout at him like I wassa talking to the walls.

idont know when will he accept me as his daughter.Ithink he wont even in next generation and iknow idont deserve it. iwas taken care by a nanny and she is so adorable.She was good enough to me and was like my mom but still than Ienvy my classmates when their parents come at school and care about their child.iwant to know how it feels to be loved and cared by parents..I'm so envious but all I can do is watch them.

The nanny who took care of me until now,who was my godmother died at a car accident all because of me.After the school when iwas heading back home crying because ilost my only bracelet my dead mom left behind was lost.iwas so careless that I nearly got hit by a car .Fortunately my godmother saved me.Her leg have been badly injured that she couldnt stand and iwas helping her but suddenly she push me and the big truck hits her and she died on the spot.iwas unconscious when iwoke up and i found out that the only person who was with me was dead all because of me.

whyyy!why!why!godddd!!!!

all the people whom icare and those who care die saving me,leaving me alone In this samsara world.From that day iwas so hopeless to live.there was no reason to live .i worried that iwill hurt the person who is care about me will land up leaving me alone like everyone did.so ipromise to myself to stand by myself and not to bother others.

Some of them even thought iwas orphan at school because my dad never show up at parents teacher meeting and other programs helded at school even though its important.When I asked him about them he simply said he is ashamed to be called me as her daughter,who is such a ugly duckling.that's was the first time he spoke to me iwas happy at the same time sad.I dont know how I was feeling.It was a mixed feeling.It's better to say I'm orphan than saying ihave a dad who totally hates me and will never love me.

7 yr passed and nothing changed.My dad still hates me and worst thing is ihave to attend classes.Till now i havent got a single friend because they all were afraid of me that they will be affected by my misfortune and now ihave to go to school and deal with so many different people .idont know whether they gonna accept me?ithink they will also ignore me like others did .its alright iam used to it.My own dad hates me , why would other people like to hang out with me?? there hundreds and millions question in my head still ihave no one to ask for advice and idont know what iam gonna do in future.

School started and now it's been 3 years and Iam 10yrs old now . People at my age lives with their parents and make lots of friends and enjoy alot and I'm still here alone like iwas always.My dad got a new wife and they obviously dont want to be responsibility for me . they want to start a new life and have a baby and live happily without me.yeah! okey iwont interfere their happiness.

My dad spoke to me for the second time .he said he wants to cuts all the ties between us. just because of that woman?How could he do such things to his daughter? 'he is the most terrible dad I met in the world,uh not dad most terrible unfaithful person.'ilaughed looking at myself in the mirror seeing how pathetic iwas.

Though I knew this day gonna come still than I cant take !!!!

my dad abonded me when iwas 12 since he is embrass to say' im his child 'jst because of my uglyiness.life is going on early in the morning crying alone .I tried to have a normal school life too but ithink I'm too unlucky to have a normal school life . My mates ignore me and act as if I'm invisible.iget bullied all the tym by some girls in our school.neither than helping;other watch and enjoying laughing along.idk y it has to be me gawd!!!at the day my dad shouted to get the **** out of his house iwas homeless.ibegged him somuch but he didnt seems to have a little heart . He transfer some little amount of money for my living expenses and it's enough for me.every since iwas born iwas so pathetic?ain't I? .what sin did idid last generation that lead me here...pls gawd!!!!icried looking at the white round moon .it was so pretty that ilend up looking at the moon for the whole tym. Just than at dark someone seat beside me . Its marina a pretty woman sat beside me with such a beautiful smile in her face.will I ever be pretty like her and smile like this?iwas lost in my thoughts still staring at her.she wave her hand over me and said hy pretty girl y are you crying? I..i..are you talking to me ? Really? I whisper to myself.y are you murmering huh?he smiled .I'm not good at socializing with someone as I never did and I never recieve a gentle line for meh .thinking abt it my side of mouth curve , tears falling over my cheeks looking at this crystal beautiful moon.Iwish i was pretty like valentino . Velentino is a most popular girl in our school and her father is president of our country and her mom runs a 5 star hotel of themselves.she is btf and rich and she is also good at grades.she is alys 1st .unlike me im nothing compared to her.Being ugly is the worst thing.ihave noone.in my life to live so decided to die. eww such a ugly creature, how can someone be damn ugly, is she human ,gross.. ahhhh stopppoo bammm .when i was falling from the high ifelt like im finally free from those trouble.ismile but tears naturally fall from my eye like a sorrow of ocean.butt why didnt i die.iwas relief sort of and somehow dissapointed too.ah my head was acing so muchh.doctor came and said you will be alright dear rest a bit . with curiousity istare at doctor and ithink she can read my eye. The boy standing there bring you here you were uncounsius when you were bought here he almost waited hea abt 5 hr.ill tell him you have cometo sense .hi im jack.are you alright ?with thr worry in his eye he said.ireplied ah yeah im fyn thankyou for saving me. Anytym for pretty girl like you he give me a warm smile.pretty what is he calling pretty to me wait what really m i dreaming? that was me saying to myself. He looked at me and said well what happened to you?anything bothering you you can share to me though icant help ican try my bess.he said.iwas dancing inside until now no one was concern abt me . He head to canteen to buy something for me.iwas really happy and when i looked at the mirror .there was gorgeous woman standing ryt inforn of me.long slicky blond hair with those creppy doubled big eye and her body slim wait wat thats me no way how.iwas kinda lost that day that irun home .