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If I think about my life I haven't done anything extraordinary. If you saw my life you would call it boring. But now my life is over, I'm dying m. I haven't even lived a full life yet and I'm dying. I just turned eighteen yesterday, you would think I'm in school but I dropped out.

My life is filled with misfortune. I'm also an orphan. My parents never wanted me. I was raised in an a church. That was my hell, I got beaten half the time and I was hungry. I got kicked out eventually and took a boy with me named Rome. If you thought my life was bad his was worse. I thought he deserved better so I took him with me.

I work five different jobs. I work at McDonald's, Fun world, Starbucks, Maid cafe, and a bartender. I got an apartment, it was cheap because the person before me died and no one wants a place where someone else died in. I didn't think it was a problem, my life was difficult. I enrolled Rome into school he was 14. He was smart, the smartest person I knew and he deserved to have a chance to hav a pretty decent life.

I hope he has a wonderful life, I hate to leave him. I'm drowning into an abyss. The bottom of a river dark. I find that darkness to be comforting. I know no one is saving me, because my life isn't interesting. I wish, I could restart. If someone was pushed in the water they would panic and scream but, I'm not struggling at all because I don't have a reason to live. I wish I had one but I don't but, I don't want to die. I wanted to see something amazing but I'll never get the chance. I can hold my breath for six minutes. I've never realized how beautiful water is. This beautiful thing is taking my life from me. I feel weightless as if my body is no longer hear. I'm starting to run out of breath. I wonder where I'll go. I never believed in god because of my life because, if he really did exist why is my life like this. The devil I don't believe in him either because this place is hell. You die, you feel the pain of your body literally dying doesn't that sound like hell and people have demons inside them they try to hide it but eventually, they let their true selves show.

If I had a guardian angel there doing one hell of job because I'm dying now, you can take a vacation. I don't know if I should be mad, sad, angry, maybe even disappointed at the fact I'm dying. I never liked anyone or really got the chance to I got bullied a lot for everything. My hair, my eye color, my height I couldn't change anything.

I was pushed into this river. By somebody I I don't even now maybe, some kids thought it would be funny and they realized that I'm not coming up and scared. At least they'll live in interesting life, I know I should hate them but I really don't and I never knew them to hate them. Gosh! I hope Rome can have a good life graduate, go to college become a doctor or whatever the hell he wants to do, get married have kids or not. I just want him to be happy.

When I used to live at the orphanage he was called "Satan's child" because he had dark eyes and light hair. His eyes looked so innocent and pure but he was beaten everyday. No one liked me they said that I was impure because of my face I've been called pretty but not for a good reason. When I was seven I told mother (the nun) that the priest was touching me in weird places and then the she said 'you're impure you're a nasty vile little thing'. I was beaten because of that , I have the scars to prove it. The mother found out she didn't do anything about it and, it got worse every day. I hated myself and started to believe that I was impure.

A new kid arrived at are orphanage. He was the prettiest I've seen besides Rome. The boys name was Killian. He was 14 and I was 10. When he first saw me I think he was mesmerized. ' you're pretty ' he said. I never thoughtvibwpuld hear those words from anyone. I actually thought he was being genuine.

We talked and talked, eventually rumours grew. We had young nuns and they were caught sleeping with a kid. A lot of the kids thought it was Killian, I disagreed. I wanted to believe he was kind. Until he came into my room at night and started touching me like the priest, I didn't know what it meant. I didn't know what was happening at the time but now that I'm older I know that I was molested.

We got into an argument and he told Mother that I was trying to seduce him. I was beaten and I wasn't feed for that. She said ' I always knew you were the impure one not the priest you are the devils child". I didn't trust anyone except for Rome.

six years later I was sixteen. Killian was 20 an adult he wanted to adopt me. I didn't want to be adopted by him. Mother let me spend the day with him, she knew what was going to happen. ' You grew up nice ' He said looking me up and down and I was disgusted by the way he looked at me. He had beautiful face but it couldn't make up for the terrible person he was. His hands moved down my lower backside. I started to shiver. We made it back to his apartment 'This is where you'll live' he said sinisterly.

He started pushing me against the wall and kissed me. I said stop plenty of times he didn't. I grabbed a knife and stabbed his shoulder. "Gahh.. You little bitch I was trying to get you out that hell hole" he panicked.

The blood on my hands made me realize that I was impure. I ran back to the orphanage Killian told Mother and I was beaten basically to death but, I didn't die. I survived I left and took Rome with me. Now I'm drowning so, this is what the end looks like. I wonder if my parents ever knew would they cry, mourn. I won't even have a funeral no one will even find me. Maybe Rome will but they won't find out what happened to me.

I'm running out of breath and time. If there was a way to restart I would.

"You can restart" A voice said. I thought this was a figment of my imagination.

"You can restart" The voice said.

This time I knew I was real.

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I was drowning in a bottomless river.

Until I heard a voice say , "Do you want to restart?" Can I restart? Is someone here to save me. "Do you want to restart," the voice said annoyed. The voice sounded sinister but I didn't really care.

"Yes, I want to restart," I said to the unknown voice that I could here.

I'm no longer drowning im standing on the bridge where I was pushed in. Is this a dream or a figment of my imagination. The voice isn't here I guess I was imagining it.

I patted my clothes and realized that they weren't wet or damp. My hair was dry, I could feel the sweat on my forehead. Huh? it must've been a dream. Was it a dream? The water feeling up my lungs burning the back of my throat, the salty felt like fire in my eyes. "Dreams are scary"I muttered to myself.

It's dark I realized I don't have my phone. I just made a payment on it. I didn't have any money. So I walked the cold air on my skin reminded me I was alive, but I had the strangest feeling that someone watching me.

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Jin (Devil) POV

I'm lurking in the corner I need to find a soul to bring to the feast. It has to be a delicious one. Oh! I see a girl, she looks interesting. Boys are running towards her and pushed her in the river. Making a Splash! noise. The boys stay for a while and start to panic because the girl isn't swimming back up. Ah! I smell a perfect opportunity. I looked down below and transmitted my voice to her. I think she's lost in her thoughts. I say it louder "Do you want to restart?" I said trying to hide my true intentions.

Ugh! this human takes to long to respond. I repeated "Do you want to restart?," this time I didn't try to hide sinister tone. "Yes, I want to restart," She said. I know she heard me but I guess she wasn't scared of me. How interesting. I think I'm going to enjoy a soul for the first time.

She's out of the water. Wait! I didn't do that, I also didn't smell anybody near by. I'm intrigued now. She's staring at the river, she's standing by the bridge looking down at the water. She's easy to read out of all the humans I've met, she's the most interesting.

I'm curious on how she got out of the water. Maybe she had a guardian but, I didn't see any of them near. Unless...No that can't be. It's not possible I'm going to follow her. I have to get her soul.

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At home.

My feet are aching, my legs are sore from walking. I could still feel the presence of someone watching me. I opened the door, to my house "Hey! I'm home...," I said loudly. I walked further inside my apartment. "Rome...Rome"I said loudly again. "You're... b-back" he said tiredly. I guess I did wake him.

Rome is like the little brother I never had and, eventhough we're not related by blood I consider him as my family. "Hey you should sleep on the bed not the floor" I said softly. I wasn't his mom I know I could never be his mom and I didn't try to be. I'm pretty sure he thinks of me as a sister.

He's sixteen now, He used to look so small but now he's so tall he looks down at me. He was no longer a scrawny little boy. He has muscles now, he's still lean. It surprises me sometimes. We share a bed because o couldn't really afford one.

We don't really think of it as weird. I mean our living situation is better than the one at the orphanage. I also find it very comforting, I do wonder if he has a girlfriend. He's so pure and innocent, I don't understand why they called him a devil's child.

"Hey I'm gonna go change" I said to him while picking up my clothes and going to the bathroom. I stare in the bathroom mirror, was it all just a dream?

"You can start over" The voice said. I remember that voice, I turned around and stood there a man? I mean he looked like a man but he didn't look human. He had black eyes, black hair, black nails, black horns on his and fangs. I slapped my cheeks "Wake up" I said to myself.

The thing walked up to me and tilted my chin "Look at you... your a sweet little thing aren't you?" He said. "Who are you" I said trembling in fear. I've never been this scared before.

"You see I'm a devil..." He said with a smile. "A devil" I said outloud. I wasn't afraid, because I knew what he was. "Hahaha... You're not afraid of me why?"he asked.

" Well you just told me you're a devil...At least you're being honest about what you are but the people that hide the fact that they're devils are scary because you trusted them" I said crossing my arms.

"You are truly interesting anyway I'm going to grant you three wishes but once these wishes are fulfilled you have two choices I can claim your soul or you become a devil like me" he said happily.

This has to be the most interesting thing in my life. I didn't believe in the devil they created with red horns and red skin. I thought of devils as people. I know it sounds weird but I think all of us have some kind of devil inside all of us. The people that hide it are scary.

I have nothing and I am nothing. "Fine deal" I said nonchalantly.

Little did I know that my life would change drastically.

***

"You're no fun" The devil said. "I was going to make you sign this contract but you'll sign it when this is all over" he giggled.

"Hey... uhm you have a name right...?," I asked him. "Well... I do and I don't... see we demons don't see the need to have names we go by numbers... I'm 999" he said to me.

"Okay... Well do you have name name like not numbers" I said as if he were an animal. "Jin someone called me Jin" He said. "I really don't see the point El" He said smiling at me.

"Wait.. Don't tell me have some secret database where you can found out everything about me" I said nonchalantly. "Correct." he said raising his finger. I notice his long black finger nail it looked like a claw. "Your wish" he continued " What is it" He said in a hurry. " Oh uhm... I... I want to restart" I said calmly.

"You're gonna have to be more specific if that's what you want I can turn you into a baby again." He said seriously. I could tell he was being serious. Let's see I would like to have a high school experience.

"Ah! is that what you want high school is so precious I want to see that so I can grant you that wish" He said. I looked at him even though he is a devil. He's pretty hot, Oh God! what am I thinking. Wait if devils are real I guess God is real to. Oh God!

I mean his body is different from Rome's he looks strong he's lean but he looks like he works out. He's tall to he bigger then me, I feel so small. "So you're thinking about me... Like what you see" He said in a sexy tone. I've seen movies where girls get flustered but I've been harrassed so many times that I didn't care. "No reaction" He said stunned. His voice was deep but a good kind of deep. His eyes are so dark that it's like the night sky.

"Okay I want to have a high school experience ," I said happily. "Ho, Okay wish granted," He said sinisterly. He left leaving swoosh noise behind him. I know this is too good to be true he is a devil after all.

I heard a strange noise scratching. I walked to the door of my apartment. Oh! It's a cat. It's a pretty cat, it's as white as snow. Meow! I let the cat inside the house. The cat rubbed against my leg. I guess it must like me. I have to see If it has an owner. It has a collar and I see a name Michael what a weird name for a cat. I walked into my room and the cat followed. This reminded me if when i was nine.

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Nine years ago

"it's a bunny," I said to Rome. "Bunny, hop,hop" he replied jumping up and down. "Can we keep it," Rome said happily. He was looking at me with such a cute face, I couldn't say no to him.

"We can keep him but, you can't tell anyone about him" I whispered. "Okie Dokie" Rome giggled. I was afraid that Mother would find out about the bunny. The bunny was white fluffy and clean it was pure. I picked up the white bunny and wrapped it with my coat.

We went inside the church and hid it underneath are bed. I found an old cage and put the bunny inside.

And put underneath the bed. "Are you going to name I Rome" I asked. "Bun Bun... I'm naming it Bun Bun" He said loudly. He's so cute, he's so adorable and lovable. "Okay Bun Bun it is" I said kindly.

'Come help me with dinner'Mother said. "Coming" I said. I ran downstairs very fast, "cut the carrots" She said. I cut the carrots as she made the broth.

Meanwhile upstairs

"Bun Bun... Bun-Bun" Rome sang. "You're so cute" Rome said. "Time to take a bath" The nun said. "Okie Dokie" Rome said.

A girl that doesn't like El, Her name is Clarissa. She hates El because everyone likes her. "That disgusting little slut will pay" She said. Rustle Rustle. Hm! what's that?

It's coming from the bed. Oh! It's a bunny. "El must be hiding this from mother" She thought.

She picked up the bunny and ran downstairs to Mother. "El brought a bunny in the church" Clarissa said. "Is that so? Give it here" Mother responded.

Clarissa was happy because El didn't have a pet anymore.

Hours later

"It's dinnertime" A nun said. I was heading towards the kitchen. "That smells lovely," I said with a faked smile. The kids sit at the table and the nuns pray. "This stew is great... right El?" Clarissa said with a high pitched voice.

"Uhm... Sure" I said worriedly. The meet was chewy and left a strange taste that I haven't tasted before. I looked at Rome. He wasn't eating it looked like he was scared to eat it.

Mother said, " Rome... you're not eating". She sounded sincere everything about this meal was felt off.

"What meat is this Mother" I said sarcastically. "Oh! Bunny I thought it was nice to have a change"She said.

Bunny! I stood up so fast I almost fell and ran upstairs. I looked under my bed and the bunny was no longer there. I threw up the stew that was once Bun-Bun. Rome is crying hysterically and Clarissa is laughing in the back ground.

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Present day

I just remembered a terrible memory. I hugged the cat tightly. Restart. I get a chance to restart.

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Jin POV

Hmm. I smell something strange, an angel is near by. I can't pinpoint it's location but I know it's near by. Hahaha. Looks like I'm gonna have some fun.