Some may say that if someone forms their dream then no one will be able to stand in their way of achieving it.

Will you allow me to ask some questions?

Is that dream really yours? What does it take for a person to create theirs?

An individual may know their dreams from early childhood while some may discover it late in their lives, but can we really confirm that the dream we have is really ours? As we have acknowledged every human being has their own set of dreams, and they want to fulfill it just like how a mother's dream for her children to have a stable life which pushes her to nourish them with all of her capability. As much as a middle-aged person wants a better future for himself or his family. Similar to a teenager who wishes to become a doctor, an architect, a firefighter or a teacher, and so much more. A child dreams of becoming a princess, a fairy and various fantasy ideals.

As a child grows their life is influenced by other people that they encounter in their journey from an innocent baby to a curious child then transforms into a confused teen then matures into a promising young adult who ages to a functional person in society.

A baby’s dream is to just have a peaceful life with his or her parents then curiosity comes knocking by the door that very same baby turns to a child which results in having a fantasy-like dream that is not grounded by reality after sometimes that child grows up into a teenager who has an ambition to be someone great, dreaming of a less fantasy-like more reality bound dream then that very same ambitions carries that teen to become a young adult whose dream slightly dulled into a realistic dream where the fantasy we carried from childhood vanishes into smoke only leaving a small puddle of fantasy which dries up as we turn into an adult who have already faced the harsh reality of life.

As time slowly catches up we encounter thoughts such as “Is this really what I want?” ‘Do I really have a choice?’ “Why do I feel like something isn’t right?”. After all we are sure that our dreams are really ours but what if we only believed it to be ours? What if we were only influenced into this dream? As society shapes us into the perfect mold, teaching us to fit in with everyone else and letting us slowly forget our own uniqueness as we are easily influenced by our surroundings. it is so clear to me that a lot of dreams are lost without us even knowing we lost ours.

So once again may I ask you? is your dream really yours? If you still think so then how was your dream formed?

If you are not sure if your dream is truly yours then why not take a journey with me on finding the dreams that we’ve lost?

Love love love .......why do people feel such a thing?

Sometimes I wonder what love truly is? I wonder if someday I can discover how it feels.....

LOVE is such a strange word that I can't bring myself to figure it out.

Others say LOVE is stronger than like but weaker than hate...... I wonder if that really is true.

I cannot bring myself to put my finger into it since I never felt the word love,I can easily say that I love someone but i never truly know what I feel about them.

They say the first people that we love are our family, but I wonder if what I felt for them was love or obligation, I wonder if they truly love me or just felt obligated to care for me.

Some say when you love someone you just can't stop thinking about them while others say that when you love someone you just want everything in their life to go well

Many want to be with their loved ones while some are satisfied with just seeing their loved ones happy even if that happiness does not include them in it on the other hand few people just want the person they love to be theirs only theirs to the point of becoming obsessed.

I wonder if someday I can understand love?

Because in this day and age I am torn if love is just a concept or a word since I never truly felt the feeling of love .... I meant romantically.

I pretend to have loved someone in the past whenever I chat with my friends just so that I can feel normal since I wonder if it truly is normal to not fall in love even once in all fifteen years of my life.

I wonder if love is truly how stories described them when reading children's books "true and magical" or if it's like how television shows portrayed them" fleeting and wonderful" or how my family told me of "passionate and regrettable" maybe each and every person has their own concept of love,, and maybe I have felt LOVE but never noticed it since it's different from what others say.

Maybe love is not real but something we humans just gave a concept off since sometimes society deems that a person's love is unnecessary or too much.

I wonder if there are others who feel the same as me maybe love isn't just about loving someone but also about loving something.

There is a chance that love is just a word that others use to justify their wrongs like the sayings "I can't help it, I fell in love". " Don't blame me, He fell out of love"

Maybe I will never feel it or maybe not since I can't feel it now maybe someday in the future.

'til I found the answer on what LOVE truly is ? I shall forever wait for its arrival.

As far as I pondered it truly cannot be helped .

"Second place is the place for the biggest loser"

Always being second place is the most painful place to be growing up.

Once you reach second place you will feel like the biggest loser, as you will be constantly pressured to surpass the first place and need to best others...

Everyone envies you ,yet they also compare you to the first place...... let me ask you this why is silver never good enough? Yet bronze is ok and gold is what everyone strives for....

For gold is the reward for the most exceptional, bronze is the prize for the one who tried their best to earn the spot, then there is silver the reminder that you were so close, yet you fell one step short.

Obtaining gold feels like you have attained everything the people's praises, envy, expectations and hopes, reaching bronze fills you up with excitement and fulfillment as knowing you can improve much more in the future as reaching bronze is a wake-up call for your potential, stuck at silver leaves you wondering what you missed, why did you fall short and being struck with disappointment knowing you had the biggest chance for gold yet never reached your peak, it is the biggest reminder that you had so much potential, yet you never succeeded.

After being at second place for such a long time you've learned to compromise and never expect, you have come to the realization that you will never beat gold and that you should settle for "ok na yan" and forget "magiging successful ako". After all that is what you are seeing in their eyes, you feel like there is a void you cannot fill, and you just watch as that ember inside you slowly but surely gets put out.

You feel like you're worthless after years of trying to improve yet never reaching the peak of your potential. You've settled for enough or less and forgot to dream big, you tell yourself that "someday maybe in another life I will achieve first place" but you already know inside that you are already burned out that all your passion and ambitions have already been spent in anguish knowing that you've already run out of time, you are no longer trying because what is the use of trying if all they are going to say is that you never did your best and that you never put an effort even though you did try, that's what you've been doing all your life.

Yet all they see are your flaws, your mistakes, your shortcomings they never notice your pain, your effort, and they ignore your soul slowly dying from failure.

Maybe if you've never reached for the top? Maybe if you were satisfied being average? Maybe if bronze was enough to sate your hunger ? Then would've your well-being stay safe from this anguish that torments your mind inside-out?

Let me tell you the answer to that

My answer is: No your mind would've not stayed safe either way as it is human nature to strive for the light at the top. You would have blamed yourself anyways saying "why did I never tried? WHY why why why?" my only opinion is try to shake off that pressure and look around you try to ignore the sea that hurls its violent waves of criticism towards you and you'll see the home that awaits you with warm light and love that fills you with cozyness. Always remember that there is always someone that is proud of you , if you can't find them then be that someone for yourself as the greatest pillar for success is knowing your self worth and loving yourself no matter what.