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Prologue

THIRD PERSON POV

"Doc, what are we supposed to do?" A woman worriedly said "For her to be able to live longer, a heart donor is needed to replace her heart that has a hole and the surgery is needed to be done this week or else nothing can be done to save your daughter" the doctor replied with a calm expression looking at the woman that has a worried expression who just nodded as a reply to the doctor.

A few days passed, and it is time for the surgery, a child looking so pale is lying in the middle full of doctors and nurses operating just for her to be able to live.

A day that is meant to be beautiful with her age growing to a new level was being spent in a challenge that's painful to take as a child but hope being seen as the thing to keep on going and live.

A few hours passed and the mother of the child was still sitting waiting for the operation to be done and hear good news with her daughter being saved.

Another hour passed and the doctor came out walking to the mother of the child, "Doc, how'd it go?" said the mother begging for good news "Congratulations! The operation was successfully done with your daughter who can now live longer, after this we're going to move her to a more comfortable room and with the medicine needed for her to take will be taken care by our nurses" the doctor replied with a smile looking at the mother of the child fell to the ground crying while giving thanks to the doctor.

After all of that challenge faced by both the mother and the daughter another was waiting in the future.

TIME SKIP...

The mother of the child was now currently looking for a job to be able to pay the expenses used in the hospital but eventually failed, with strong dedication she didn't give up looking at, instead she found it, a friend of her suggested a job as a waitress in a restaurant.

Through all that hardship just to pay all the expenses, a few days passed, and the child is now able to get out of the hospital, everything may not have been easy but with hope it was solved yet another heart will be broken with a loved one being taken.

Both of them finally have a comfortable life, with a house being rented fit just for them, foods to feed, enough clothes for in and out, and good health to be able to survive in this beautiful yet dangerous world.

One day inside the school with a teacher teaching the students, one child looks distracted by the thing she is doing, she is drawing a picture of her and her mother celebrating her 16th birthday forgetting the memories that happened a few years ago, a very painful challenge was taken by her innocent 5 years old self.

This kid has a knack for drawing things that started 8 years ago and right now it's even more improving.

She looks so concentrated that it may seem like she couldn't care for whatever is happening in her surroundings. "low...illow... Ms. Kaycee Bree Willow!" a voice called that made her consciousness open "Ahh, yes?" she replied while hurriedly stand up, "It seems you were distracted by something Ms. Willow" her teacher said with the other students laughing "Ah, yes I-I'm so sorry" she said consciously being embarrassed by the way her classmates laughed at her "So, Ms. Willow can you read the page ....."

After the class, Kaycee went to the place that has been her favorite, a place where no other noise was heard but the birds singing in the sky, the winds breeze swirling and hitting solid objects, grasses that looks so comfortable to sleep on, and a one and only tree that can be seen by far away with its height so tall that's been living by maybe a thousand years old. This place was in the backyard of the school, but it takes a long walk to get there for the place where she lives is not a city that is filled with buildings.

Kaycee stared at the place for a minute and walked to the tree, she decided to sit down on its roots facing the view of the city that can be seen from far away. She started drawing the beautiful view while waiting for the sun to go down. A few hours later, the sun seemed to be going down but suddenly a stick of the tree being broken was heard, and so she decided to look behind her and a handsomely beautiful man was standing there that may seem like in his early 20's.

"A beautiful view, eh" he said while looking at the view, even though she sees that he's looking at the view, she knows he is talking to her. "Yeah" she replied nonchalantly while looking back at the view, "That looks beautiful, wow you're a good artist" she looks taken aback by the way he suddenly sneaks at her drawing and tells her that "Th-thank you" she said embarrassingly.

She looks again at the guy and thinks about the way how he made her feel that, but then as she looked at him deeply, she was mesmerized at his beauty, it looks so natural but with his blue eyes and nose and lips that perfectly matches his face. While looking, she felt butterflies in her stomach that she can't describe that feeling.

He looked back at her and the two of them met each other's gaze, but then she looked away feeling embarrassed, that is when she got her consciousness back and realized that it's almost nighttime, and so she ran away forgetting to say goodbye to the man.

As she got home she hurriedly ran in her room and jumped on her bed, she remembered what happened, and again she felt butterflies in her stomach not knowing that her face was already covered with red that almost looks like a tomato, this feeling was new to her because all she ever felt through her life was always being conscious of whatever the people think of her, and it's because she was bullied in her past school long ago.

A knock was heard through her bedrooms door and as she opened it a beautiful surprise was made by her mother, she saw her mother holding her favorite cake, a chocolate flavored cake and written 'Happy Birthday My Most Beloved Daughter In The World' on top of it with 16 colorful candles while greeting 'Happy Birthday'. After that, her mother invited her to their kitchen where you can find their dining table and chairs with food on top of the table. Even though these are just the thing that her mother prepared for her, for her this is enough, she understands that her mother was the only one working for them to survive and so it is hard with her daughter that a few more years will be having her debut and going to be in college.

TIME SKIP...

While Kaycee was studying, her mother was making money for the both of them to survive, whether it may be dangerous or not, she is not minding it because all she wants was to give her daughter a more happy and worth it life because of what happened during her daughters' surgery, she wants her daughter to not waste her life that was given to her on useless things.

She is now walking to the bus stop going to their home happily because she'll finally be able to see her daughter again through this tiring day because her was her strength through her life, she is her motivation to keep living in this world, but maybe the world just wants to end her tiring life.

While walking, she is now under the bus stop waiting and as she waits, she decided to take out her picture with her and her daughter smiling happily, it was taken after her daughter got out of the hospital, but a sudden wind blew it away onto the road. She saw no vehicle driving, and so she decided to take it back, but then as she took it a light blinds her eyes that took her life away.

She saw a flash of their memories together saying her last words "I'm sorry".

Chapter 1

FIRST PERSON POV

I woke up seeing the ceiling filled with plastic stars that always lights up at night with no light, these were bought by mom when she was still alive, one of my happy memories with her. When she is still here, I have no worries about what I should do if I'm going to be alone, because I always thought that mom would stay with me forever, guess that's just what happens to us people who live in this world. That's why we have to live our life to the fullest with our loved ones or else we'll leave this world with guilt.

After thinking for a while, I decided to get out of bed and started planning what to do since today is Saturday. I planned to clean up and go again to my favorite place and so maybe I'd be able to forget this lingering feeling of longing for someone.

Before I got to start cleaning, I did my morning routine by exercising using my dumbbell after that I washed my face, brushed my teeth and took a shower.

A few minutes after taking a shower, I got to the kitchen and fried an egg and made a pancake with butter and honey on top of it.

This feeling of longing for someone is something that can't be taken away by simply saying 'go away'. I still remember the day I got the news that mom died because of an accident crushed my world, everything started to crumble, all my dreams just for the two of us were taken all alone just by a word or is it. It was taken because of the bus, it took the life of someone I treasured so.

I really want to sue the bus driver for it, he didn't even see that someone was standing in front of the bus with the light that could reach a few meters away. But the reason was still unknown why mom went in the middle of the road. It hurts even more that people started talking maybe mom got crazy because of the tiring job she has and decided to go in front of the bus but during the investigation a picture of us was something that she was holding and that broke me even more.

All of those dreams and wishes that were made by us together were now just a painful memory, a happy yet painful memory. "Why?"

I realized I was already crying. It's been 3 years since that incident happened and right now, I'm still not moving on. I wiped my tears away and decided to start cleaning. First, I washed the plates that were used. Second, I started to clean up the floor with a vacuum and a duster to clean off the spider webs and dusted things. Third, I decided to re-arrange and decorate a little. Lastly, I washed up the used clothes.

After cleaning things up, I heard my phone ringing I went near it on top of the table and saw the caller's name, I quickly answered it and listened to the other line.

"Hey Bree, how are you? Are you doing something or what?"

Someone on the other line said "Oh, I'm good, I just got done cleaning up the house, why?" I replied "Good, well do you have any plans later? So that maybe I can take you out or something?" He said "Uhm,.Sure, I actually planned to go to the tree later to meet you but going on a date is fun too" I replied "Oh really? That's where I actually wanted to bring you but guess it's not needed just so It could be a surprise" He said as I heard him chuckle on the other side that made me giggle "Well almost, so,. What time?" I asked "I wanted us to be able to see the sunset so around 7?" He replied "Ok, I'll see you then" "Yeah, I'll see you then and with that take care of yourself ok? Bye Love You" "Yes Mr. I Love You too" "mmm" He replied as I heard him giving me a kiss on the other side that gave me butterflies even though he always does this every time we call or meet.

Aiden Anderson, he was the guy who I met under the tree A few years ago, the first guy who gave my butterflies in my stomach. At that time I really thought he's in his early 20's, but then he told me he's just 19 years old, but I'm not actually fully wrong since he's turning 20.

Ever since that day, every time I go over to my favorite place, I always find him ahead of time, and eventually it also became his favorite place. After he said that to me, It made me fall even more at him because I can have him as my companion in that peaceful place. We talk about each other's problems and secrets, and we build bonds with each other, I also got to know that he was born with a golden spoon. After mom died, he's the one who's there for me, he helped through those sad and lonely times.

One year after that, I confessed to him and heard his reply that he likes me too and guess what, you already know what happened. We had a relationship that's been going on for almost 2 years, and it made me happy because he's my first boyfriend and I hope he will be the first and last man that I have with in my entire life.

I went to my room and hurriedly looked for something to wear, something that would make me representable in front of him or else I'll be really embarrassed. He already told me a few times that I shouldn't be very conscious in myself because I look beautiful just the way I am, but I just can't think of not be conscious of myself and think at what the other people would think of me as someone not worth it to be by his side, and I want to prove them that I am worth it be by his side.

TIME SKIP...

It is now almost 7, and I'm just finishing up my makeup while thinking about the things that I might have forgotten to do. A few minutes later I heard a car stopped outside the house, and so I finished my makeup and went outside my room. I heard a soft knock as I was walking to the door. I opened it and saw the first man and may be the last man who I fell in love with.

He complimented my dress and greeted me with beautiful words, and later we decided to go.

We arrived at the back of the school and started to walk down the grassy road, it's because he just wants us to have more time to talk while walking. A few minutes later we arrived at the place, and we met with a shining sun that was setting down. With our hands tied together, we went over the old tree and sat under it looking at the sunset. We talked about anything, asking things about our lives and making dreams and wishes for our future.

But the question is, was there really a future for us?

Chapter 2

FIRST PERSON POV

It has already been 3 years and me and Aiden are still going strong. Tomorrow is my 20th birthday, and I am really looking forward for his surprise.

Every year he always has surprises for me that I can never get enough of, just like last year he surprised me with a new cellphone just because I broke my phone and a really yummy homemade cake with a bouquet of my favorite flowers. 2 years ago he gave me a really expensive promise ring and his homemade cake with a bouquet of my favorite flowers again , and it has been going on since our relationship started.

I have already told him to not buy me presents, or maybe he can but not too expensive, but instead he gave me something that most businessmen can buy, and I'm just a student like I don't even have a permanent work yet, yes I have a part-time job but all my savings from that could not even be enough just to buy expensive things like necklaces, rings, or bouquet.

I really want to give him presents too on his birthday and yet the prize of it cannot even be half of the prize of the things he gives me. Sometimes, because of this, I thought maybe I don't deserve him, but during those times he's always there for me to make me feel that I am just enough for him.

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I was currently choosing my outfit for today's date as I heard my phone rang on top of my bed. I picked it up as I saw my best friend's name on it, Sarah, she had been my best friend who I met during the 3 years that I have been busy with my part-time job as a waitress in a small restaurant.

"Hey Cc bae!" She greeted me loudly on the phone as I covered my ears from it "Hey" I replied "Oh my gosh, Happy Birthday, my Cc!!" She greeted me again with an even louder voice but with it I didn't even realize that I've been smiling "Thank you, so what are you doing right now? Because based on what I'm hearing you are outside right now, right?" I smiled thanking her as curiosity came to me "Oh, so right now I know you've been picking what to wear on you two Aidens date right, but I think you'll have to hear this" She said as her tone of speaking changed "Um, yes, yes I was picking clothes just now before you called, do what this thing you've been meaning to talk to, because I mean you know that there will be just a few hours left right for me and Aidens date?" "Um, so girl, I think you should know this just for an info, but, do you know who this girl is right now with Aiden? Like, I mean I know you might think that maybe it's someone he knew, but the way she's clinging unto him is just, you know" "What do you mean, what are you talking about?" I asked as I heard her suddenly gasped "Oh my gosh! Bae you cancel that fucking date right now, we have to talk this instant!" Fuck this! I know I may be meddling in you two's relationship but he, ugh let's meet up right, no! I'm going there, right now!" I heard her angrily as I got confused for what was happening to her "H-hey, Sarah, what's wrong, what do you mean cancel our date, hey, explain to me" as I heard the other line went down.

I just don't know what's happening, I got so nervous that I just don't know what to do, whether I should cancel our date or what.

I woke up to my senses as I heard my doorbell rang, it must be her.

I opened the door and as expected it's Sarah.

"Hey, can you tell me what's wrong, I've been thinking deeply about what happened just now" I told her worriedly. She didn't reply and just showed me a picture with her phone "What do you think this is?" She asked.

When she showed me the picture, I couldn't believe my eyes. Everything just went down, A flood of memories flashed down as I saw Aiden kissing another girl. I remembered the words he used to say to me whenever I'm feeling conscious with how I am with him, 'You'll always be the one for me, I will never trade you with anyone else but you'. A sentence that made me survive through everything the both of us went through and yet it all fell down with just a picture.

The future he promised me was never there in the beginning, because everything he said to me was just a lie, I trusted him. Everything I gave it to him, my body, heart, and soul, yet it was all a lie.

A little hope emerged in me, I wanted to hear it through him, I wanted to meet him, I wanted him to tell me that this is just a lie. I don't want to give him up with just a mere photo. "I have to go, I need to hear everything through him" "Cc"

I directly went to the door and just as I opened it I saw him walking towards the door, his expression changed when he saw my face covered with tears, I forgot to wipe it. His pace got fast and went towards me "Babe, what happened. Why are you crying? Did something bad happen?" He asked anxiously, I looked him in the eye and many questions emerged in my brain "Hey, do you really love my Aiden?" "Of course, I love you with all my heart" He replied with the same expression, anxious, "But then why? Why did you do it? Why! Why did you kiss another girl?! Did I do something wrong? Did I do something that made you do it?!" I shouted, I just can't take it anymore "Wait, baby, slow down what do you mean? Baby, hey, hey look, your anxiety is starting up again, easy ok, calm down first, we'll talk inside"

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"Actually, I couldn't think of the time when to say this, but that girl, I don't love that girl nor do I love her, baby listen, me and mom once talked, and she told me that she arranged a date with my childhood friend, but baby you should always remember that you're the only one I love you know that, and that kiss, I'm not the one who initiated it, it was her. I've already told her that I love somebody else and that's why she kissed me. Baby please trust, I don't want to lose you like this, and I never want to lose you ever" "Oh really, then what is this?" I threw a brown folder on the coffee table "What is this?" "This was sent by someone mysterious a few years ago, these are the pictures that made me insecure of how I am in a relationship with you. This made me think if am I really worthy of being by your side?! These are the pictures of you being with girls every time we're fighting. These, I have kept these for years because I don't want to lose you, I don't want to lose you, because you were my strength, the only strength that kept me going! Why?! I loved you so much Aiden, I trusted that you won't do it again, I did my best to fix us because I'm afraid of losing you Aiden!" "Baby, no-no, please no, please give me another chance, baby I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, baby I'll fix this baby" He said begging foe me to not let go, but I'm tired already, I fixed us but all of that came down with a picture of him kissing somebody else "Go, I don't want to see you ever again" "No, baby no, please, don't, Please-Kaycee please, baby I love you, please not this way" "Go! Go away! Get out of my sight!"

Sarah showed up from outside and helped me go to my room as Aiden was still begging with his knees on the floor. I guess this is the end of our love story, A beautiful yet sad memory that will always be just kept as something that was once treasured but will be forgotten eventually.

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