Lucid Dreaming is my Ability, I have been doing it for almost 4 years.

I often sleep to lucid dream. Because, it's the only way to escape my sad and lonely world. It's the only way to escape reality.

In my dream I can do anything I want, I can create imaginary friends, become famous, litterally anything.

In school. People call me weird and creepy, basically I'm the one who's lonely and have no friends.

Ever since I was a kid I had a difficulty on socializing, I am very shy and Insecure that's why I stayed at home, I have been always jealous on the kids that have fun and get to play with their friends outside.

Because of my negativity it makes me think that even my mom and dad doesn't love me, I am sensitive and get hurt easily, Even if I hear a single word that makes me hurt it feels like the damage will stay forever but I act like it doesn't hurt me at all.

I think I can be and Actress because I'm good at pretending, I started doubting myself when my dad left us.

"Was me and mom not enough for him?." still asking that till this day. Call me an emo or edgy but that's how I feel.

I think you're confused, what's the connection of this to lucid dreaming?

I have a friend in my dream. He makes me feel happy and forget all the problems I have, In my dream I feel like I am the most happiest person in the world with him. He's my first friend in my dream and It feels like he is real and has his own mind, I told him all my problems and he comforts me. Isn't this lucid dreaming? Wasn't I was supposed to control everything in my dream? But why does it feel like he has his own mind?

But even so, I'm still thankful that even if I'm dreaming I can feel happiness. I was so happy that I did not want to wake up again and stay in my dream to feel this kind of happiness everyday but what can I do? I have to go throughout the day and continue living.

I haven't Introduced myself haven't I?

Denise Reyes, 18 years old, and that friend of mine? He's Kaden Ramirez, 19 years old. And he is an amazing person that has been my dream friend for 2 years now \=))

To be continued~

stay tuned♡

Authors note:

I have highlighted some words/sentences that I feel like many people have been experiencing these (anxiety and depression) things and wanting to experience those. To those who are reading this please check up on your family and friends that might be going through this, and I hope you're okay too. Please get some rest if you're tired \=) Just remember that not everyone hates you and remember that if you ever feel hopeless God's there with you♡

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the story and have a good day, afternoon, or evening. I'm sorry that it got emotional in my note but it feels like I have to give this message \=)

See you on Chapter 1! Thanks for Reading.

Sunday (2:08 PM)

"I'm going out." I said.

"Where are you going?" My mom asked

"I told you. Out."

She sighed "Fine. Just come back early and safe."

I got out and biked till I got in the playground, there were kids playing, Much more kids were here than before but I didn't mind and just sat in one of the swings near the tree.

"Baby let's go over there alright? Let's get away from here." A parent said

"Tsk."

I got my phone and earphones out and started listening to music.

Few minutes later

*Poke poke*

A kid was poking me, I looked at her. She looked so excited.

"Woah! Big sis you look so cool!"

I'm surprised that this kid isn't even scared of me. I'm wearing all black and Looks so gloomy what so cool about this?

"Big sis, you know you dress up like my brother! He said wearing all black is an emo look, but i think it's cool." She's smiling at me and waiting for me to respond.

"You think so?"

"Yup! Oh, Here. Candy."

"Thank you." And I patted her head

"**You're welcome!"

"KAYLA! TIME TO GO HOME!"

"Oh,my Mom's calling me, I'm going home! Bye Big sis! I hope I see you again**!" She waved at me and I wave back at her.

I didn't even realized that I was smiling. I hid the candy inside my pocked and decided to keep it and not eat it. I stood up and biked my way home.

(2:24PM)

"Oh y-you're home earlier than I thought you would be"

"..."

"A-anyways, do you want some snacks?" Mom nervously asked.

"No thanks Mom. I'm going to my room to sleep excuse me."

"O-okay.."

I got the candy and hid it in my drawer beside my bed,Then I took a bath and Slept to lucid dream.

"Oh, Heyyyyy! You're back! Do you have anything to talk about?" - Kaden.

"Nothing much. But, I'm feeling much more alive thank usual."

"Tell me abaout it."

"There was a kid in the park who talked to me. She called me Big sis and Cool. It was heart melting, She's so cute I wanna see her again."

"What's her name?"

"Her name is Kayla from what I heard, She even gave me a candy, I didn't want to eat it, insted I kept it in my Drawer."

"Kayla..?"

"What?"

"Nothing."

"Hm.. Suspicious.."

"HEY!"

"HAHAHHAHAHA"

"Hey Denise, I was thinking."

"What?"

"For our hangout today how about you think we're at the amusement park and ride all the intense rides in there. What do you think?"

"Yea sure that sounds fun. Make sure you don't vomit. Pffft."

"Says you."

"I won't duh."

Few Hours later

.

.

.

*Vomits*

"HAHAHAHAH YOU SAID YOU WON'T VOMIT HAHAHAHA"

"Shut up.."

"Oh my gosh I can't breathe. HAHAHAHA"

"Tsk. What time is it?"

"It's 7:43PM."

"I'm gonna eat. See you."

"See 'ya"

I woke up and went to the kitchen.

"Oh, Hi honey, I've prepared us dinner."

"Honey.? You never call me that. You're acting really weird today Mom."

"I- Sorry.. I just wanted to change.."

"After all these years. You decided to do that now?"

"I know I've been a horrible mother, but please give me a second chance."

"..."

"Give me more time honey, I'll proove it to you that I've changed. Okay?"

"I'm sorry I've lost my appetite."

"Denise.."

"I'm going back to my room."

My mom sighed.

"You must've suffered a lot. I'm sorry honey, I couldn't give you my best, But I promise you I'll be the best from now on. Goodnight honey, I love you." My mom said in a worried tone.

I went to my room and tried my best not to cry, but my eyes betrayed me. I cried until I fell asleep.

Next day

I woke up and all my things for school was already prepared.

"Mom's really trying her best to change.." I whispered.

At school:

*Bump*

"Ow."

It doesn't even hurt me, She's being overdramatic. Tsk.

To be continued.

Thanks for Reading! Another Chapter will be uploaded tomorrow! \=)