by: M4R5

Hello, My name is Mars. I am 13 years old and My brithday is on 18th June,

I grew up in a family of five and i only have two sibling.

My mom and Dad work out of home. So me, my Big brother and my little brother stay inside with our Maid or babysitter who helps us with anything.

I am a really an open, A yapper, a random, wierd person. I had a lot of friends because of my wierdness but as i grew older, My cheerful personality began to shatter and so is my humor.

I have one bestfriend named Aurora, she is the one who always calmed me down. I love her, she’s always by my side. Aurora is smart, mature and tall while I’m short, ‘not really smart’, and the childish one.

She made my day, she brings colors into it that made me scared about the thought of losing her. Even though I know every meetings has goodbyes.

She is full of surprises, i like that about her. But i cant control my anger and jealousy when she’s with someone or when she’s being sassy to me.

I thought we will be together, bestfriends forever But no, I’ve had enough being a dog, pleasing her around while she’s living a good, perfect life out there. She and i became a stranger since february 16, two days before her birthday. I felt rude not give her any gifts on her birthday, so i left a duck plush on her desk, knowing that she really likes animals, especially the one’s with feathers and furs; like cats and birds.

I acted aloof and mature with my decisions after, but it is hard to keep it up when Everyone starts ignoring me after. So now i know that they’re just friends with me just because of Aurora.

I immediately regretted my actions and tried to say sorry to Aurora but her door was closed. (Metaphor)

I hate this feeling, being alone, left out and ignored. Once, she really talked to me. She said, “You’re too childish. Besides, my math scores and drawing skills were better than when i was with you. And you’re always about yourself, you just want me because you missed me and you felt lonely.”

I mean, is there ANYTHING else why I or Anyone wants you? Because you’re smart? Challenging? Respectful? That doesn’t make any sense to me.

Let’s just forget about her and move onto the present.

Somedays after She and I forgot each other, My eyes met him. The guy that likes me and i treated him so badly just because. I felt bad for what i did so i tried to make it up, i was making sure that i don’t leave any traumas or guilt to anyone before i graduated Secondary.

I came up to him and passed a note that says; “Yo, My name is Mars.”

I know it sounds like a kid trying to be friends but jokes on you he already known me for 2 years. Well, At least my name. 2 minutes after i passed that note, he passed it back to me. As i opened it, i immediately saw an ugly but tidy handwritings. It says; “Oh, hello. My name is Xavier, what’s up?”

I enjoy our banters that goes like;

Mars: “wanna be my bestfriend?”

Xavier: “sure”

Mars:”oki, now we’re bestfriends.”

Xavier: “okay.”

It was so straightforward, and fast.

Since that day, i learnt a LOT about Him. I also greet him every morning and sat face to face with him, talking and chit chatting. I also got along with his other bestfriend Vian. He is a batman fans really, and he is a really enthuastic person that knows his goals.

He is Quite chubby and short but older than both me and Xavier. I Love both of them like my own family. They reminded me of times when i’m still around girls and how they colored my days with their praise but now, I’m surrounded with boys, their complains, comments, and somehow, insults.

Xavier likes Cars, his mind is full of them. He often told me about everything he knew about cars and i nodded, trying to understand what he was saying because i don’t want to seem rude.

I have a low score in math, thats why I have tutor coming over after school.

Honestly, I’m so disappointed when i saw my score low especially math.

My folks will yell at me everytime i failed my test or quiz.

I don’t have any secrets, anyone may be free to ask anything to me.

But, that ‘I don’t have secrets’ are secrets to between myself and my parents. I never want to tell anything to my parents about my life or anything. I don’t enjoy telling my story to the people who raised me except other people excluding them.

I am good at acting. Mostly covering The bad stuff i did, washing their brains. I’ve been in A LOT of romantic relations before, even though i’m still 13.

For me, Romance Isn’t about love and obsession. I think it’s about having To pay attention to someone, waiting for them to destroy my feelings at the end.

Which means, It is indeed an adventure that became a thriller.