!!*I'm really sorry for the bad grammar*!!

hello! everyone....my name is Amelia...I am a averge teenage girl like others but...., unlike other girls who r cheerful, happy and free, I am unable to express my true feelings...which drifted me apart from everyone including my family I even don't have a friend rn....Soo I really hope that some day I will be able to meet someone who can understand the true me..n help me express what I feel truly to my family n friends...and Soo I can have a normal family n friends like other girls who r able to interact with others easily.....Soo that's all for my introduction, let's move on to the story of my Life...will I be able to meet someone who brings the true me n will help me become the true myself 😊😊

now let's start my story about how I find the one for me..n how I find my happiness........

'on a hot summer day, I was enjoying watermelon with my family, Suddenly my brother cut his hand with the knife , he was using to cut the watermelon. I got panicked....as I was worried about his injury, I really wanted to console him as he made a face,like he was gonna cry, but instead I snapped onto him,

"like seriously , why r you so useless you can't even cut watermelon properly ,what are you going to do in the near future"

but I really didn't mean to say that, I was really worried about him,I really wanted to say that I am worried about him, that I wanted to console him so he can forget his pain....but instead I ended up giving more pain mentally. he began to cry and I were it was unbearable for me to see,.. I run out of there as fast as I could,

as I feel so bad seeing him cry...... I couldn't beer seeing him crying as I ran and from there I feel I might end up saying something again that might hurt his feelings more...

*Amelia P.O.V*

' i came running to my room as fast as I can,

I coouped up in my bed and begin to cry'.....

"why , just why!.... why do I always end up saying something that I don't mean........... why does nobody can understand that I don't want to hurt them ...I wanted to express my feelings that I care about them but every time I end up saying something opposite to them...

as I cried and cried I suddenly saw a flash of a boy that I offenty saw in some of my dream these few days it's like some parts of my memories that had been missing... aside.......... I somehow can't remember my childhood...

as I can remember my parents (I don't know really are my parents or not) did told me that I had accident when I was about 11 yrs old..... but I don't think that's true case because.....there is no injury mark all over my body or have I any impression of it....... n also I can't find any childhood photo of me inside my house and also sometimes they don't care for me just like they care for my brother and favors him over me... my mother always favours my brother n cares for him unlike me ..she doesn't care if I got hurt or not.... and also I can't understand what are the wierd dreams..... who r these people I am seeing in my dreams the past few days ......it's like they are part of my memory....that seems to be missing..... is there something that these people mean.....

it's like they are someone very important to me I can't understand what's happening to me....

..n also why can't I express my self in fornt of my so called family n friends it's like there is something inside me that is stopping me from getting close too them.....✌️

hey there! it's Amelia again....... currently I am 17 yrs old.....n m gonna tell u how my totally messed up life took a turn over night.....how a mysterious yet familiar boy came into my life n bring so many changes in my life for good......so let's start......

as you all know I can't interact with many people or I can say I can't interact with anybody.....I just can't speak with my heart in front of anyone......I always end up saying something different from what I really wanted to say.... that made my life till now a mess......a complete total mess....

since I can't speak to anyone what I truly want people consider me as arrogant......as I don't reply and stay indifferent to them.... I always ignore them if they are talking to me cause I am afraid....

that I might hurt them..... I am afraid that I might say that may hurt their feelings.....

that left an impression of everybody that time being arrogant due to this ..... I don't have any friends.... and due to this I offtenly got verbally bullied......and nobody help me cause everybody thing that I am arrogant and unfriendly I think highly of myself so they don't bother to help me. because of that I continuously kept changing schools as I keep transferring from one school to another. but things were good in the beginning since I transferred here , the students in my new school were friendly and understanding.... at first they did understand my uneasiness and did not do not talk much to me....as they thought that I was trying to adjust in the environment and I must feel uncomfortable in the new environment so they gave me some space....

but as the time passes by.... I remain unchanged and ignored them...and their attempt to friendzoning me......and,.then their were these few girls , at first they thought that I was good looking , so they tried to take me in their so-called friend circle , but... after I refused them....they started to spread some false rumours about me....

as the word flies the whole School things me as arrogant and unfriendly....whatever did I don't know what else rumours were roaming in the school but I don't know why people started avoiding me.....nobody wanted to talk to me , as... I try to ask something they ignore me and just go their way and keep doing what they were doing....I became an outcast that everybody hated ....nobody wanted to talk to me

*Amelia's P.O.V *

"WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW......there are false rumours about we all over the school. People don't wanna talk to me, what should I do.... I don't even have any friends...even one.... only one friend who whom I can share my worries but still if I have one I won't be able to do so..☹️☹️😔😓... my life is a total mess"

but as the saying goes "Dark clouds will shatter one day"..... a miracle happened in my life that changed my life for good....

Soo...for knowing what happened...keep reading..😊

thank u for reading this ❤️

Hey there! it's Amelia again...as you all know about my situation...that causes me a lot of problem and it caused me to stay lonely...but one day a miracle happened in my life....

One day a boy transferred to our class....he was somewhat tall, having fair complexion, black hair , n brown eyes.....he has a simple style but he still looks good......after introduction, he came straight to me and sat next to me as...the seat next to me was empty, since nobody wants to sit with me.

I wasn't paying attention to him first...but when he sat right to me I took a glimpse of his face.....I don't why but although we met first time , he gave me a familiar vibe. like I had known him for a long time..but I can't remember meeting him before this time.

after the class was over, all the girls in my class crowded around him and started questioning him , about his preferences. why did he transferd here etc. but he seemed unwilling to answer all those questions...he asked me the way to the rooftop..so he can get some space form these girls...as pointed my finger in the direction the way to rooftop was. he stood up and went out of the class.

*Amelia's P.O.V*

"as he stood up from seat beside me..I took a sigh of relief, as I was struggling with wether to talk to him or not. cause I wanted to initiate the talk , but I wasn't even able utter a single word"

I was lost in my thoughts , as he came back to the class in a hurry and pulled me out of my seat by hand. he grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of class...he dragged me to the hallway and asked me to take him to the place where it's quite with no person around in the whole school.

at first I was shocked what just happened to me...as I was being dragged by him..I snapped and pulled my wrist out of his grip by a jolt.

'Amelia' -"just what do you want , it's not even been an hour since u came here , and u are now dragging me like we know each other , I don't even know your name"

he stood still for sometime, like he realized his mistake...but instead of apologize , he pulled me into his grip , and then he took his face near my face. my heart started to fultter...my heart beat was getting fast as he whispered his name into my ear.

???- "'Adam' it's my name lilttle girl"

his deep voice made my heart beat more fast , my face was getting hot. I tried to push him away but I wasn't able to break his strong grip around my wasit.

he smirked at my struggle to be freed from his embrace, he let go of me , and grabbed my wrist and then asked me to show him the way to the place he wants to go..

Soo...what changes will this boys bring to my life , will I be able to interact with my fellow mates, will I able to open up and find the truth behind my wierd dreams and messed up missing parts of memmories......

T.B.C✌️