Letters to Myself
Letter to myself¹
Shitty things going in my head
You know when you need to hide it all?
When you grow closer to others you don't really want to share your feelings with them
Cause you don't want them to worry
More like don't know how to explain
Words get stuck in throat every single time
and when others seem sad you don't know how to ask them
You don't want them to be more sad
More like afraid to hurt them loose them
everything feels like it's falling apart
can't focus and no appetite
it's like you are just alive not living
For just sake of some words you are alive
You talked yourself as burden all the time and don't disturb others cause you don't wanna bother them
No feelings no emotions Nothing at all
Letters to myself²
They give me what I want-!
But sometimes why do they hate me?
They make me feel like I am a burden
But it won't really matter if I'll no longer exist
They will remember me for a while, cry for few days
And act normal and go with the flow of life
I don't with to breathe as they made me feel like I'm such a disappointment that I am not even worthy of it
Maybe they are just pretending to care and love as I'll soon leave their side
it's hurts when you are treated differently when u are the older one
I don't have a aim in life
even if I had it will be that I wish to have a ordinary life, work from 9 to 5 weekends where i can spend peaceful time in my tiny cozy house alone
i don't need anyone, just myself
I wish for peace and nothing else
But I do know that I'll never find it atleast not in this life
So maybe I'll ask the sky to take as a part of it maybe I'll look better with moon and dark sky in form of a star
Maybe I'll find peace there
But it's still a maybe......
Letters to myself³
But for me it's same as always
Waking up,
Having an argument
going to school
Living in daze coming back drowning in books
having an argument
and sleeping again
Lolz what a lovely poem of my sadend life
I'd love to sleep and never wake up again
I hate the fact that they want me to be perfect
I don't understand humans why don't they understand that everything can't be PERFECT!!!
None is perfect every single human has done something bad in there dang life!!
why don't they understand that I'm just a kid
I am not like those geniuses who see it ones understand it and can do it
I don't have a super mind! I can't understand at ones!
yeah I am good at certain things doesn't mean that I can be good at every dang thing
They dreem to have a perfect child, but in they never understood that they themselves are never perfect
then why do they expect me to be perfect?
I am a human too i make mistakes too why they don't understand it-?
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