All I could hear were shouts telling me to stop, students below me screaming my name desperately,, but I couldn't do anything about it. Here I was on the school rooftop knocking on the death door. I absolutely hate it when my body moves on its own without me having control over it. It was constantly causing me trouble and when it stops what do I tell people, I can't just tell them that "oh no my body was moving on its own" as if anyone would believe it will just be adding spice to the trouble,,, so I kept this to myself. I wasn't always like this, it all began when I was 10 (by the way I'm 16) I don't know the cause of it tho. This would happen when I feel certain emotions such as anger, sadness, annoyance or if I'm irritated, so I try to keep a calm demeanor as much as possible. I tried my best to not be known or popular but looks like I failed thanks to my mother giving me good looks and my father giving me a brain so yeah I'm your typical main character with brains and beauty live with it.

My legs reached the edge of the roof, and I was about to jump off I felt a strong grip pull me back and that immediately gave me control on my body again. I looked over to that it was my childhood friend Sia, and she wasn't happy. I heard cheers as I was pulled back from the roof, taking me downstairs. She didn't say anything, but I just knew that she was pissed or sad, maybe both, but she was definitely not happy I wouldn't blame her, I literally almost killed myself.

"I know you are not happy about this, but I have totally logical reason and..." Before I could even finish I felt my cheeks burn as Sia slapped me across my face. We stopped walking, and she kept her head down after the slap. We just stood at the staircase in uncomfortable silence.

"I don't understand" She said as her voice cracked and it made my heart arch. "I really don't understand why you were planning on dying..." She said as her tears fell and my expression softened

"Listen Sia..."

"No I just don't get it! You have a perfect life, a loving family, you've never been bullied, and you're smart so WHY WERE YOU PLANNING TO LEAVE US LIKE THIS?! Why were you planning to leave me? Your family?" Sia said as tears streamed down her face and I just felt extremely guilty. What do I even tell her, I have no excuse. I guess I'll just risk it all and tell her the truth, but where do I even start?

"Um... S-sia...there is something I've been hiding from everyone..." I paused a little to see if she was willing to listen to me. She just wiped her tears and looked at me and I took that as a yes.

"So um... I can't control my body sometimes" I said as I avoided her gaze and I heard a bitter humorless laugh that just clenched my heart. I knew it, I shouldn't have told her.

"What do you mean you can't control your body sometimes? Is this some kind of joke? Is this what you're treating situation? As a DAMN joke?" She said as she created distance from herself and me. She touched her forehead with her hand but as I was about to explain a bunch of teachers and students came. They crowded me, and I was trying to make my was to Sia, but they kept asking me questions and blocking my way. Some of them even carried me and took me away from the place leading me to the nurse's office, this is another reason why I wanted to avoid being popular.

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I sat at the nurse's office as a bunch of classmates surrounded me asking me tones of questions, but my mind was elsewhere. Sia probably thinks that I don't value her and did this on purpose as a meaningless prank, but I was struggling to think of any excuse because of these people throwing questions at me.

 "Are you okay?"

"Are you injured?"

"What's wrong?"

"You can tell us"

"Are you being threatened?

"Are you being stalked?"

"Is it Sia?"

Okay that was the last stroll I'm going to give these people a piece of my mind. How dare they blame Sia ugh damn it I need to calm down.

"Guys how about we let Daniel relax first?" A voice said and yeah I knew that voice. It was non-other than Gwen, the school's female hottie and sweetheart and maybe my crush, butt I wasn't on planning to tell anyone about and not with this body. Everyone started to leave the room and I let out a sigh damn I'm thankful for Gwen. I look up and saw her staring me then she gave me a soft gentle smile which gave me instant butterflies. She left the room with the other's, and I was a blushing mess, but that was quickly forgotten as I tried to think of a way to explain to Sia.

My first initial plan was to get out of this room and look for Sia, but that will fail miserably because I know deep down there is someone or people waiting for me to come out of the room, so they can take care of me, so I'll scratch this plan out. My second idea was to sneak out, but I just know that there are students roaming around so that won't work either. Looks like I'm not smart enough to come up with a plan to meet up with Sia.

I laid on the bed trying to think of something, but I ended up drifting off...

I was standing on top of the roof again, but something felt off. I was about to jump, and a strong grip pulled me back, and I reacted immediately stabbing the person who I just found out was Sia. Damn it! What have I done? Where did that knife come from? I was panicking as I looked at Sia weakening, I was trying to look at the wound then she disappeared becoming a puddle of blood. My surroundings were disappearing one by one as I was confused, my hands covered in blood.

"Daniel" I heard my name being called in a distance.

"Daniel"

"DANIEL" My eyes shut open as I saw faces looking at me panicked. I was standing near the window with a knife in my hand near my wrist. I was about to cut my wrist, I was breathing heavily and sweating as I was trying to process what was happening. I dropped the knife on the floor as I pushed over the crowd off students and ran out. They were screaming my name to come back, but I was just confused. I ran as if my life depended on it, maybe it did. I pushed many students as I was running out then I ran out of the school. Likewise, I had no idea why I was running, but one thing was for sure is that I needed to create distance from everyone. What's going on? Why is my body trying to kill me?

I ran to my house and locked the door behind. I leaned against the wooden frame trying to process everything. Luckily my parents weren't home, so I had time to myself.

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