"I'm sorry, but we can no longer be together."

An out of nowhere chat that I received right after my College Entrance Exam. I can feel my throat tightens as I read those lines. I'm puzzled and my tears...

I am trying to hold them back because I don't want to cry here in a public place, not now...but I can't seem to hold it in and It just started falling right through my eyes, continuously.

I sent my friend a message, who also took the exam.

"Where are you? Please come and see me. I badly need you right now" "I am here outside the school"

Good thing that she's online at the moment but...

"Oh no, I am sorry Thea. I'm already in the taxi. If I have read earlier what happened in the group chat I would have come to you earlier. I am really sorry, hope you're okay, sending virual hugs." and that's what my friend Ella replied.

Though I'm not angry, but I kind of wished that someone is here with me right now because this has got to be worst day for me.

"Aaaaah! This sucks!" I muttered to myself as I wipe my tears but its kinda useless because its still there and still flowing.

I have decided to go home because I already feel really bad and I don't want more people to see me even more that I am crying.

I am now walking to get to the train station and it will take about 5 to 10 minutes, as I'm walking I fixed my hair where I can a little bit hide my face.

Due to the fact that my tears won't stop...

I'm walking...passing by a lot of stranger...alone...and crying.

I know I probably look like a fool.

I lowered my head as I walk and making sure that I won't meet the eyes of the people that I'll be passing by.

Maybe in my mind I tried to convince myself that these people can't see my tears, but I know some of these people can see right through me.

I have already arrive at the station. I top up my card since it doesn't have a load anymore. I went up to the platform...and there I was standing alone...observing the people around me.

This was my daily route...but today it just feels so different...

*heavy

and sad

and I just want someone right now to comfort me, and hug me.

A lot of question are circling right now in my mind as I wait for the train to come.

"Am I not enough?"

"What happened? We were still talking yesterday. He even asked me to watch the Avengers with him."

"Did I do something wrong*?"

Those are the things that I have been thinking ever since he sent me those lines in his message, ***but...

How can someone tell you that they love you, and then the next day...they can easily throw you away and leave you***.