Hi I'm Lara... a sweet charming adorable pretty little daughter of the the most influential business man in Shenzhen.. I'm lucky right??I'm always happy smiling face...I got what ever I want from head to toe I'm every man's dream they say.....

but you know something was wrong the man I loved never looked at me even once is he blind??

Not only like that .. he just simply hate me and even mocked me and insulted me..

I don't know what's his reason he hate me..

I just invited him to come on my 18 birthday..

actually he came.. I grab that as a chance to be with him even just so quick..

but that night he bring along his so called fiancee... Gosh did he hate me that much and hurt my feelings in my birthday???

I cried a lot .. I just simply ask my dad why I like that man never like me.... my dad smile and just look at me.. that's not true he like you..

Nick simply just not show his real feelings ..

that's right...my dad knows Nick. he is my dad business partner 10 years older than me..

I met him when I was just 12.. then i like him and like him even more.. like a fan girl to their idols...but now I'm so broke..my love is already having a fiancee...

for me to forget and move on.. I promise my dad to study business abroad..

he ask me why suddenly interest in business while I like arts.. I just tel him I wanted to help him in the future... actually i just wanted to run away maybe if I'm not around the man I love will appreciate me..if not I need to move on...

I study and got the best grade..never entertain suitors...

4 years later I just graduated...

now my daddy ask me to come back in my hometown he tell me he miss me so much..I don't have mom.. she died so early I never meet her either.. but it's ok my dad loves me so much.. and I'm happy of that...I never heard any news about Nick...or I avoid the news about him.. I wanted to protect my self whatever he is married or not I don't want to be get hurt again... again?? or I'm still hurt ?? I just make my self buzy .. i let my self believe that I already move on .. but honestly in the deepest of my hurt I still longed to him .. I still feel the pain ... buts it's ok.. I can manage..I will try my best to others maybe I will meet another man whom I will love and love me back also..

and today ..is my first day in the company..

i feel matured .. it's time to help my dad ..

I'm a ready..??I will soon meet nick..

when I'm about just to enter the elevator a kid run and dodged me.. to my surprise . why have kids running around in my dads company..

And suddenly I heard a voice of a woman .saying sorry .. Gosh it was here it was Nick fiancee before.. is she already gis wife and this kids is their son??,noooo I wanted to collapse.. I'm not really ready.. I fell my heart was torn into fine pieces...I just say it's ok and leave I go to my fathers office. as soon as I got inside I cry instantly on his lap...like a child... daddy all this time I thought I'm strong enough but why I fell so hurt .. I saw them they are happy now.. what about me?? I feel so miserable.. dad touches my back and just say.. honey life is not perfect sometimes you need to accept things surround you.. even it is good for you or bad.. stay still.. my dad said..

I cant work now I feel like my eyes was swollen.. I go home and change pajama I wanted to sleep hopefully tomorrow when I wake up my feeling get better ..

and the next day I started to work..

I became a very workaholic.. I spend my time working.. I became wicked boss of my dads company.. you read it right... you can't find smile on my face.. I'm very strict in comes to work.. I often see nick around but I never noticed him I just pretended I didn't see him at all.. and thats work... my dads company goes up and down and I'm still here work so hard.. no lovelife.. no romance .. work..sleep..eat ..torture employee.. hmmm I'm very strict... I want everything is perfect when it comes to work..

one evening my dad came to me in the library..

he wanted to talk to me.. he ask me one question that makes me wonder..

"where is my sweet little princess "?

I'm here dad didn't you saw me ..

dad wanted to tell me that I change a lot..

I miss my sweet adorable .. charming daughter... he said.. that's right.. because of work and business I forget my real self..

I hug my dad and say sorry and kiss him.

after all I just got him..

suddenly my dad tell me this .

why don't you try to date.. I'm getting old.. before I go yo your mother I wanted to hold my grandson

. that's makes me cry...

yeah I wanted to fall in loved again ...

so I entertained suitors.. gosh so many flowers and gift..

but you know it's hard to choose..

but I have my favourite .. he name is Brian he is a doctor.. I like him he is too neat .. mature and a handsome man.. he just 5 yrs older than me.. I feel I little comfortable with him..

finally I'm happy.. although I didn't realy love him atleast I like him.. he is so understanding .. so kind and very gentle.. it's like he's perfect for me.. finally I will free my self my old feeling and started a new one..

Brian and I date several times already..

we both compatible with each others..

one day I received a envelope..

when I open it.. it took me long to understand..

it was Brian with another girl..

I got angry..not to Brian but to someone who spy on him.. yeah he cheated on me bit where not yet official .. maybe he's the same as me looking for the right one..

I wanted to investigate who send the pictures but I got nothing.

I didn't comfort Brian I wonder why .. maybe o didn't like him that much??

I keep going out with him despite of what happened.. were like same friends we shared idea .. laughter anything under the sun..

until I received again onther envelope ..this time is too serious.. Brian in his sleep without anything ware and with another woman this time its another woman not the same woman in the first picture..

"who is tailing Brian.. I think some people who will do this to me.. so came to my dad ..

and ask..if he the one invetigate Brian.. but my dad honestly tel me it wasn't him..

this time i really angry..the personal life of person they tresspass it.. how dare who ever do this.. so i warned Brian to be careful that someone has tailing him and investing him ...

Brian ask me if I'm not mad at him.. who will get mad?? after he just my scapegoat ..for me to forget someone.. so I juat tel him I'm not mad

. I just worried about him.. and were still friends we keep our each other company ..

he also tel me that has like a playboy who wnats6 to bring girl in bed.... but Brian tel that I'm different among them he declared friendship between us..

several days later Brian invited me to the dinner he tel he will bring his girlfriend.. he want me to meet her..so I say yes I wanted to out also..

I'm about to ho yo my car when a man stop me.. his body is hard.. it's very strong that I can't even push him..

when I look up .. it was my shock I see the face of nick.. an angry face.. no it's super angry face look like he wanted to kill me..

I got scared.. why he is here near my car.. my knees was shaking... I smell his perfume it makes me more anxious..

I just say sorry to him that I bump into him and say excuse I wanted to go inside my car..

then his powerful voice said a big "no you can't "

what?? is he here to approach me??

"ah excuse me.. did anything I can help you??

but in my surprise is just choked me...

gosh it hurt..is he here to kill me now??

"listened carefully if you still wanted to meet that doctor guy I will kill you both.."

are you crazy you know he is not honest to you and cheat on you why the hell you keep on dating him?" the voice of nick he very angry.. so he the one who envestage Brian..

I tap his hand in my neck..

I was really choked.. this time I feel really angry to him he is too much..

"why ..what does it do to you it not of your business "I shout to him..

"are that desperate to find a man to sleep with you huh?"he shout to me too.

in shock I slap him.. I feel so miserable this time.. I feel like my words collapsed..

I was so hurt my heart my feelings my body can't take it anymore..

I just ask while cry..why you "

I lost my consciousness..

I don't know what happen next

but I wake up in the different room.

the way it looks its like a man rooms..

"hello" I called.. then I heard a rushing step ..

it's a kid.. gosh I'm here in nick house..

I just thought. them followed by the kids is the pregnant woman..

I'm in the deepest hearteache for all my life..

"your awake.."said the woman..

I wanted to explain I dont want to be looks like a mistress..

I'm sorry but " I didn't finished yet what I'm going to say when another man enter the room..saying.

"darling let her eat something maybe she hungry.."the pregnant woman took a tray and put beside me..

"hi Lara.. are you okay?? do you remember me..?she ask

. how could I forget you.. I just thought..

"this is my son Clint and my husband Chris"

you been unconscious since yesterday..

the last sentence I didn't hear it clearly.. he refer the man as her husband ...

where is nick?? nick is her husband right??what's is happening..

"hmmm Lara nick still have some business today but he take care of you the entire night.. "she continue

maybe you forget me I'm Niena Nick's older sister..she smile.

I wanted to collapse again.. so nick is still not her husband?? so much question running to my mind.. maybe she noticed it..

"silly nick.. he used me before to let you stay far away from him.. "and he smile again..

"why nick hate me?" words came out to my mouth..

Niena brush her hand into my hair..

"we always hate you.. "she answered so directly .. I cant help my self but cry..

"Lara I will send you home.."said her husband

"no I can call my dad."I just answer

"I'm sorry Lara.. "said niena..

I just wondering why she just says sorry.

"why you hate me.. why all your family hate me"?i scream .. I didn't do anything to you and to your family..

"maybe you can ask your dad"?

I go home with terrifying heart..

I go to my dad office but he not there.

I go to library and I heard some voices arguing..

it was nick and dad..why it sounds like they fighting..

"are you done enough punishment to my daughter nick are you not satisfied ??she suffered a lot.. she's innocent.."his dad voice I tired.. nick sittings in my dad chair..

"I gave you a big share I gave up everything to you.. you hurt my daughter.. what else nick.. but this time you hurt her to the point she collapsed.."his father continue.. so my father know about why nick hate me?? not only me also my father..??why ??

"my mother is still alive but you took her heart .."the voice of nick angry with sad feelings I couldn't describe what he mean my father took his mother heart??

you selfish people..

my revenge is not yet finished.."

nick stand up.. and found out that I'm the door.. he just looked at me upside down and leave... that was the first time I saw dad crying..he look at me.. and he hug me..

"dad"i just hug back my dad..

honey do want to hear a story??

he ask..dad wanted to tel me the past he never mentioned..

and maybe the reason why nick and his sister hate my family that much..

your mom and nick mom was bestfriend..

nick mother got married first .. she have a happy life.. with her family me and your mom find a hard time how to have a child

. but the a miracle happen she get pregnant on you..

that time nick mother suffered from cancer.. the doctor said she only have 1 year to live.. your mother was so sad .. they are bestfriend.. a month your mother was about to gave birth to you.. she get a heart attack.. the doctor said I can loose both of you..and that was a very tragic moment in my life.. your mother .. she is in comma when her bestfriend visit her.. they both facing death..

and you are still in your mother's tomb the doctor said she need a heart transplant in order to save to you.. not a very high possibility but the doctor wanted to do the best.. we look for more people who could be possible donor but we got nothing and we don't t have more time.. your mother greatest dream is to have you in this world..

and her bestfriend know that..

her name was Lauren your name came after her.. she poke herself she tel that she will die sooner or later she wanted you to live.. I was so disagree I was torn between you and Lauren family. that time nick is just 10.. Lauren husband understands his wife.. but the kids they are against.. they build a war between them and their parents.. they don't want to gave up their mom.. but without their knowing.. the operation get successful.. your mom get a chance to see you in this world.. but after 3 months she just passed away.. she can't bare the pain anymore.. she exchanged heart but she still got the heartache..."that a the reason why nick and Niena never look into you.. and hate you.. they blame you of what happened .. their mother still have a chance to live.. but she gave it up because of you..

I dont think I can still cry anymore..

all this time i can't take any reason why nick hate me that much..but now i feel like i also hate my self..I feel so lonely..

that day I pack my bag and leave I will go the province were my nanny leave.. I will visit her.. I will ask more things .. and I wanted to unwind.. I cry a lot these past few days..

maybe she's so old now..I was thinking

I just arrived to the place when I saw a familiar back.. I just wondering maybe I just in hallucinating.. it was nick.. he is talking to my nanny.. did he hate also my nanny??

is he here to throw also his anger??

I walk fast.. but I noticed that nick is smiling and talking to her like he love her.. then the old woman noticed me..

"huh its Lara nick " the smile of my nanny I can tel thats she happy seeing me..

but why nick is here also..

"oh come on Lara you grow beautifully. "then hug me..

I ask my nanny why nick is here ..

"I'm originally nick nanny take good care of him when he still a baby.. your mom and his mom always tel me that when you go out on this world they wanted me to take care of you also.. you are thier daughter...

nick at the back was just listening..and I cry a lot.. not only I took nick mother I also took his nanny...

that night I wanted to apologize nick.. I know he's been a lot of pain also..

i invited him to the bridge near the lake the nice spot of the province. he agreed..

I was very thankful he agree..

"nick I know sorry can't do anything about what happened in the past.. can not even lessen the pain you suffered when you lose your mother..

but still I wanted to apologize .. this is not I wanted also.. .. but as long as I live I will keep this life healthy and try to be happy

. because this life.. took two lives.. your mom and my mom.. they both wanted me to live.. to be loved to be happy to be able to see the world...

I just cry alone .. nick is in my side I wondered if he is listening..

then suddenly I feel his hand into my shoulder ..and slowly hug me..

I burst into tears.. I don't know why.. gor a long time. I wanted to be in his arms.. bit now I feel like I didn't deserve it..

he hug me so long until I finished cry..

I wanted to leave... i turn my back ..

but nick voice echoed and says

" do want to pay me "you only have one chance.. give me your heart .. "

it took me time to realise is nick wanted me to die???

"silly women marry me.. "

he shout how dare you date other man ??when you came back from abroad you didn't even look for me.. I was expecting you.. but what I saw was a cold.. workaholic woman not dare even to look at me" he continue .. and even date a playboy..""

I run to nick as fast as I can..

I hug him..I rub my face into his chest..

that night I explain to him why I became so cold..

I misunderstood his sister to be his wife and his niece to be his son..

he kiss me.. he cares for me..

I love you the day I first meet you Lara

I torn between hate and love my mother and father love you that much.. I just feel selfish..I just think of my feelings.. even drag my sister to hate you too ...

"sweetheart please let me love you.. let me take care of you not because your mother ask me.. but because it's me.. it me who love you.. I'm sorry sweetheart I took so long..

that night was my greatest dream of all time..

me and nick got married..

we visit our mother grave.. . "mom I got your favourite daughter sorry I just wanted to get back my mom's heart..."he smile and kiss me..

now I'm pregnant with our first baby.. both of you will soon turn into grandma... thanks to both of you.. for loving me ..I promise to be healthy and live a happy life with nick..

the end..