I'm writing this note because I'm tired and I want people who are strugglIng with same problem as me know u are not alone my bro.

so, I use to be a huge taekook shipper, back in 2021

I'd watch their cute interaction them being goofy, sexual tension and jealousy moments b, those were beautiful days I suppose,

But so soon not even a year I found Mangatoon

Use to read y/n fics in here ,haaaiii!...

But soon I found tk fics I was happy, they barely had bottom kook fics back then and I didn't even care reading bottom tae fics I enjoyed it

And u know how MT stories back then where, cold arrogant mafia top and ofcourse cause I was reading bottom tae fics that rude alpha had to be jk

And then it started

I'd see comments hating on jungkook (story JK )

I was not grown up ok I was dumb and I took all those hate comments seriously

So I got into bottom kook, now jk wasn't mean, rude and people weren't hating on his character there were v. Less Bottom kook authors but they were all lovely

Tube rose was my fav. Here 🥹

Then the year 2022 I got into insta and then I found people fighting over dynamics and since then I'm like this

I didn't like kvs were higher in numbers

Didn't watch Taekook videos if the video posted was from a kv acc. stopped reading kv fics and I was now so obsessed with Taekook dynamic

I'd watch people fight over dynamics

and I'd feel my heart Shrunken down if I saw a cute KV fan art because I wanted that for my community so bad 😞 it's a sad story)

So yes!..enough of that

Current situation is I'm struggling, I'm struggling to get over tk, I don't like Taehyung being fragile, can't enjoy BTS and Jungkook is no more my bias

I don't stan them anymore but I can't get over with fics

2023 was harsh I was having anxieties for reaI hated how jk was all build up, explicit songs and too much skin and,ated how TAEhyung looked ohh so fragile it was killing my dellulu tk world I'd built up . I had no friends and jungkook was breaking my heart I'd always liked him being multi-talented but then I wanted him delicate, but that never happened I spent so many days crying

If any KV stan finds it,i hope u don't use it to mock Vkookers down

I'm still struggling with dynamics, and it hurts that I can't enjoy TK moments without analyzing If it's a VK moment or kv

Only I can understand this writting it so bad, I wish I could explain better too make u feel sympathy over me, 😞ok bye

I want a friend, is she there