Oh, it was so hard to forget another love those memories were unforgettable. However, day by day, and year by year, I started to lose that crazy fever of loving someone. As a student, I began to focus more on my studies. Even though I studied hard, I still played games during weekends or vacations to relax.

It was almost the end of 2024, and winter vacation had finally arrived. My stress melted away after finishing the board exams. At that time, I was in Class 8. Now, I'm in Class 9. Oh, let me tell you how I met my man he's nine years older than me, hehe. He's even bigger than my brother! Despite our age difference, I still adore him very much. But let's not dive too deep into that just yet…

It was winter vacation, and I was over the moon. I was so happy because I finally got to play PUBG after a long stretch of studying. I logged into my PUBG account and started playing with my classmates, who were already on my friends list. We would chat and enjoy the game together.

Normally, I didn't use social media apps much, but after the exams were done, I downloaded all of them including TikTok. I began posting my PUBG gameplay videos on TikTok. I didn't have many followers, but somehow, I used to get about 30 to 40 likes on each video. Then, one night, I received a message from someone named "Dawlay" on TikTok. At first, I didn't reply, even though I saw the message. But the next morning, I finally responded with, "Yes, please?"

He was online instantly and said, "Do you want to join our squad?"

I wasn't part of any squad before, so I thought it would be better to have one

somewhere I could proudly say, "That's my squad." So, when Dawlay sent me a friend request, I accepted it without hesitation.

Since then, I started to see him as our squad leader. We talked often during games and played scrims together. One day, he messaged me, "Hey, consider me your friend

and my friends too! Don't be shy." At first, I was hesitant to talk much or even join their games, but bit by bit, I got comfortable. They were older than me, but they treated me like an equal, and that made me feel special.

Dawlay was always encouraging, texting, "Come on, let's play! Don't keep the squad waiting!" So, I played with them as much as I could. This routine went on again and again, and I barely noticed how quickly my vacation was slipping away.

One evening, the thought hit me. I wanted to tell them, "I'm going to delete all my games and social media soon." I was serious about focusing on my studies. But then, I hesitated. Something inside me stopped me from sending that message. Instead, I thought, Why not try to improve my gameplay? Maybe I can help the squad be the best. I knew deep down it was a long shot, but it gave me hope.

When I finally told Dawlay, "I'm thinking about deleting all my games and social apps," he replied quickly, "You can manage your time, I'm sure! But if you really want to, I understand." After a little while, he added, "Good luck with your studies, okay?"

Truth be told, I never deleted the games. I kept playing and chatting with them maybe that was silly of me. Hehe, I did something stupid, but I couldn't stop.

Our chats became longer and deeper each day. One night, after a long gaming session, Dawlay said, "I really like talking to you. You're different from anyone else I know." My heart skipped a beat. I wanted to say the same, but I was scared. Yet, I couldn't hide my feelings forever.

We stayed up playing games until dawn, laughing and sharing stories. That connection pulled us closer and closer. I tried to stay focused on my goals, telling myself I didn't want to fall for anyone not now. But he won my heart anyway, and I couldn't resist

Even though he was busy with his own studies, Dawlay always found ways to make me smile and support me. "Don't worry, I've got your back," he'd say. That made me fall for him even harder.

As I already mentioned, I had already fallen deeply in love with him, and it felt impossible for me to resist anything he said. His words had a strange power over me. Even the smallest message from him could make my whole day feel brighter.

Normally, I was not the type of person who used social media often or played games during school days. I usually kept my phone away and focused on my studies. But this time everything felt different. I slowly started keeping those apps on my phone just so I could text him whenever he wanted to talk. It became a small routine in my life. Every day I waited for his messages, and whenever my phone buzzed, my heart would immediately become excited.

Soon, playing games together became our nightly habit. Almost every night he would text me something like, “Are you free tonight?” or “Do you have any work to do?” And even if I had homework waiting for me or something unfinished, I would still reply, “Yes, I am free. I have nothing to do.” The truth was that I simply wanted to spend more time with him. Being with him, even through a screen, made me feel happy and calm.

I wanted to stay in those little moments forever. I wanted to keep being his lover girl, someone who was always there to laugh with him, play games with him, and talk about random things late at night.

Since I had decided that I would enjoy the year when I entered Class 9, I truly did. That year felt different from the others. My nights were often filled with long chats, playful arguments in games, and small jokes that only we understood.

Many nights I stayed up later than I should have, talking and playing games with him. But even then, he always reminded me to take care of myself. He would tell me to sleep early and make sure I got at least six or seven hours of rest. In his own quiet way, he cared about me, and that made those nights feel even more special.

For half of the year until it finally ended, I felt the kind of love I had always wished for. Having someone I admired care about me made me feel lucky and special. It was a feeling I had never experienced before, and it slowly became a very important part of my days.

Throughout the year, I was always an introvert when it came to love. I was quiet and kept my feelings to myself. But after talking and chatting with him every day, something slowly changed inside me. It felt as if I had known him for a very long time, even though it had not been that long. Our conversations felt natural and comfortable. He shared many things with me, including his knowledge and advice. He often told me to become a better person and focus on improving myself. Even now, his words still echo inside my head.

By the end of the year, I had become a different person. In many ways, I had changed because of him. One day he asked me, “With whom did you play games?” It happened when I played games while he was not there. Because of that, he started to think that maybe I did not enjoy playing games with him. But that was not true at all. The reason I played games with him was because he once told me to grind more and practice together so that we could become better players.

Sometimes I logged in to the game when he was busy, just to practice a little. But that made him overthink. Because of that situation, I slowly changed myself and became more careful about whom I played games with. Unlike before, I no longer played or talked with random people. I became more quiet and distant with others. I only talked to people whom I trusted and knew were good.

In the end, I explained everything to him and cleared his doubts. Only after that conversation did my heart finally feel at ease again.