I really don't know where to start from so let's do this my way. It was the night of my parents wedding they were happy and were excited for the challenges they will have to face together in building a family. I'm really grateful for being a member of my family and I'm proud to say they won't regret. Hi, my name is Nico, I have a sister(20 years old) and a brother(17 years old) . I'm 22 now and I'm going to graduate this year and start looking for a job. I have a good family background and I lack nothing I mean what would I lack when I have every thing. Money, a happy family, good friends and a wonderful person that I have had a crush on for as long as I can remember. He is a great friend of mine or should I say my fevorite person on earth. His name is Sage, he is 27 he has been my friend sense I was 9 so I have known him for a very long long time. Sometimes I try to avoid him but no matter what I do he always sees me as a good friend and sometimes he treats me like his responsibility if you know what I mean *like a little brother*.

Although my feelings for him are not in my control I wish I gave up the first time he rejected me.

He has rejected me 3 times and he always says that I'm just confused and that I should avoid my feelings for him and find a younger person to date.

Every time I hear these words from him I drop and as an emotional person I cry a lot. But I never give up. I think I'm going to confess for the last time. I'm tired of being rejected but I can't get over him, if I see him every moment *we moved in together when I turned 19*. If he rejects me this time I'm giving up. I hope he doesn't because it's not that he doesn't like boys he has dated boys but the relationships never last more than 6 weeks because he doesn't give them enough attention.

I never care to regret after I have done something but I have really started regret falling for him in the first place.

Sometimes I think he rejects me because of our age gap or our friendship but whenever I try to quit hi gives me hope by spending more time with me or buying and cooking me food he even touches me impolitely sometimes.

So you most be wondering why I'm telling you this. Well I wanted to start writing about my life *for a new start in case he does reject me*. So please support my hard work. Enough of the blabbering lets head to the 2nd day.

I Hope He Doesn't Reject Me.

''I can't believe this happened again''.

While running to the bathroom.

''Nico wait, it is not what it looks like. Wait''.

I entered the bathroom and lock myself in one of the bathrooms inside the bathroom.

''Nico place come out. While banging on the door. I know you are in there.

Breathing heavily ''Go away''!

''Please come out''.

''You got nothing to explain..''.

''You didn't do anything wrong''.

''Nic..

''So don't worry about me. I will be fine after a while''. Sniffing.

''OK..'. Walks out of the bathroom and goes to his office.

Nico staid in the bathroom for a good while and he spent it all on crying for a person he loves one-sidedly.

Nico got up and went to Sage's office

He took a deep breath and knocked on his door. ''Knock knock''.

''Come in''.

Sage was carelessly busy with some paper work so he didn't see who came in

''What is it''.

''I wonder if he wasn't so attractive would I like him this much...''.

Nico wandered In his mind curiously.

''I'm sorry for interrupting''.

''What do y...''.

Looks up to see a sad face.

''Nico. Are you ok I didn't mean t...''

''You don't need to explain anything you didn't do anything wrong''.

Nico said cutting him midway.

''I'm the one who wouldn't control his own emotions''.

''So it is me who should be apologizing for interrupting your privacy''.

''I'm very sorry''. Bows low in front of Sage

''Only if you knee how bad I feel u wouldn't be bowing in front of me like that''.

Sage admitted sadly in his heart.

''OK..''. Stand and picks up his vest. ''Let's go''.

''Where are we going''?

''Shopping for the after party remember''?

He smiled brightly down to me who was several sentiments shorter than him.

He held my hand and dragged me out of his office to the inside parking lot.

''So u see. Every time I get weak he peeks up the peaces of my heart and glues them together, with his gentleness towards me''.

''Sometimes I just want to scream I QUIT. But I never really get myself to say anything close to that when he is being all so good to me.

''It's sad right''?

''The ride to the expenseve shopping center was quiet and a bit awkward. Sage made it even worse by constantly glancing my way and asking if I was alright''.

''When we reached the shopping center he kept doing the same things, but this time he would always hold onto me and drag me to every shop he sees fitting''.

''Even if he knew I knew he didn't like shopping.

He knew I was not alright tho''.

''So soon enough he stopped pestering me and we went to a restaurant for a meal''.

''At the taple I ordered only one dish since I was a bit down for too much food''.

''But Sage ordered a lot''.

''While eating he continuously served me more from one dish to another''.

''I didn't talk to him at all or even look him in the ayes for I was ashamed very ashamed''.

It felt as if I was a burden to him, as if he was forcing himself to respond positively to my feelings.

''It felt really bad, very very bad''.

Until we meet in the next chapter then.

Mhua love u. Bye..!

Nico: I'm full now, you can stop giving me more than I need. 'I smiled.'

Sage: OK, then what else do we need in the house? 'talking to himself.'

Nico: 'I looked back down to my plate.'

Sage: ohh, should we go grocery shopping? 'He asked awkwardly but excitedly.'

Nico: 'I looked up and saw the concern in his ayes.'....

Nico's pov:

He was wearing a handmade limited edition vest and a tie clip I clearly remember giving him for his last birthday.

Nico: Damn he looks good with that concerned look in his ayes for me… 'I thought to myself.'

And it was at that moment that I Nico, the person who has been liking this handsome person in front of me right at this moment will start concentrating on the fact that there is a 30% chance that he will accept my feelings this time and 70% chance that he won't and I will have to completely change my feelings towards him either I want it or not.

Because at that moment I realized that I'm powerless in front of him. And if I don't help myself now, nobody will.

If I continue like this I will be left alone in the end and I'm afraid it will be too late for me to start collecting myself when the time comes.

So I made a brave yet stupid decision on the spot and I promised myself that.

If this man in front of me right now, does not accept my feelings once again. I Nico will give up and will try as hard as possible to get over him for the sake of my future.

I knew it was stupid of me to think I can survive the heart break but I had to try if I didn't want to end up losing myself.

So let's make this small time I have with him worth remembering.

Nico: y.. Yess! Let's go grocery shopping and let's watch a movie when we get home. 'I confirmed with a glimpse of tears in my eyes while smiling brightly from aye to aye.'

Sage: Nico, you d...

Nico: Come on let's go fast. 'I dragged him to the car not wanting to let him finish his sentence.'

Sage: OK, let's go. 'He smiled at me while holding the door for me to pass.'

TBC: thanks for reading !

I have been hella busy with school and other stuff that I didn't really remember to update so here I'm back again giving this story a go. Please show your kindest support by liking and comment so I know I'm doing everything correctly.

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