I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what happened. Will they hate me. Will they believe me.

Rick you hurt me I thought we were friends but you drugged me. To be honest I don’t remember what happened because I was drugged all I know was I heard Rick for sure. What did he do to me and why did he do it.

“Come and get me” I told Rick we were playing a game of tag my brown hair shimmering in the sun. Rick sped up “Gotcha” he yelled as he touched me. I looked at him the problem wasn’t that he touched me it was the place that he touched me. My ******. I quickly shook him off, acting like nothing happened we kept playing tag.

Me and Rick are inside eating a snack that he got for me my 17th birthday was 3 days ago he told me he got me a present and that he would give it to me later. A few hours later I got tired all of a sudden and went to bed. When I got there I layed down I stayed like that because it hurt to move. A few minutes later the door opened I saw Rick coming in, I was about to say something when he covered my mouth and crawled onto my bed. He touched my leg and my eyes widened, his hand kept moving up while that happened I passed out.

“ What happened” I said looking around I was still in bed it took me a while to recall what happened my eyes filled with tears I tried to get of the bed, but when I stood up my legs went numb and I fell. My mom (who had gotten home a few minutes ago) came upstairs she saw me on the floor I told her I tripped.

I was too scared to say anything I couldn’t believe it myself Rick my best friend really did that to me. Suddenly it accured to me that Rick probably drugged the food then in my mind I thought. Jessy do you think when he said he had a gift he meant ... omg My face twisted and I passed out I heard my mom calling my name but then everything went black.

I woke up in the hospital my mom next to me crying I tap her and ask “what happened” she looked up at me eyes red and said “you were drugged, I’m so sorry I couldn’t be there for you” I tried my hardest to looked shocked. I couldn’t tell her what happened I couldn’t face the truth. I said, “ ... really mom what kind of drug was it, that must’ve been why I passed out.” I felt horrible for lying to my Mother but what could I do I can’t handle what happened so there’s no way my mom could

I’ll never forgive Rick.

The doctor said they would be able to get the drugs out of my system, but then she asked,” how did you get drugged” when I thought about the answer to that question my eyes filled with tears. My mom took a look at my face and said ,” it must be a sad topic.”

When we got home I went straight to my room and didn’t come out, I was scared mom would ask about what happened. Once I got in my room I took the covers of the bed and examined it. Nothing looked out of the ordinary. I sat there for a while and thought, We had been such good friends, we were playing tag then went to get a snack the stupid snack I was hungry enough to forget to close the door. Jj if you didn’t it the snack... the snack.

After I thought about the situation I flopped onto the bed. I had a headache from trying to process what happened. I looked in the mirror and decided to grow my hair. I don’t know why but all of a sudden I was seeing all my flaws, and wanted to fix them.

Five months later and I haven’t seen Rick and I have to go back to school, but I changed a lot. I used to be unsocial but now I actually like talking to people but it’s scary to get close to boys now. But every time I get nervous to befriend the opposite gender because of Rick I punch myself. Everybody’s different.

I take a picture ready to go to school

When I get there a lot people ask me what my name is and I say “ it’s me jj we have been in the same clas for two years” they would look at me shocked. I would smile. Apparently I was the latest gossip but to be honest all I did was grow my hair change my glasses and wear a smile. I liked my change I won’t be depressed. I will try my hardest to change my ways and make real friends that I can depend on.

My fist class is P.E I know that I’m not shut off anymore but wearing the p.e uniform is still embarrassing. I saw a girl in the room standing right in front of me becaue I was the last person changing and some boys were peeking into the changing rooms. At first I was confused then I realized she was shielding me I smiled at her she smiled back. Another girl went up to the boys and yelled,” What are you doing in here this is the girls changing room so leave!!” After she shooed away the boys she came to me and asked if I was okay I said yes and that was the start of a beautiful friendship. During p.e today we played dodgeball those two girls ( Alice and Mac) teamed up with me I’ve always been the best at sports so it was no surprise when my team came in sport.

While we were playing and I caught the ball it reminded me of when I played with Rick I almost started getting said but I stopped myself because,

I’m different now

Math is next and I’m not happy about it. Out of all the classes math is the worst, but I have to do it. Ms. Naz was my math teacher’s name I could tell I would like her because she didn’t make me stand up and say my name which meant she recognized me.

Finally math is over next is Ela my favorite class. I really like reading but writing isn’t really my thing. Mr. Robinson or Mr. Rob I really like the teachers this year they seem cool. Hahah Mr. Rob is hilarious he keeps Ela entertaining and he not as strict as the other teachers. We finished Ela class early so we got to watch a movie, Mulan I really like that movie because it’s about a strong girl unlike all the other Disney princesses.

Next is science class I’m okay with that. Mr Angelo, he let us do our work independently he not my favorite but he’s okay. I finished my work super early so I started thinking about Disney princesses again. Isn’t funny how Ariel left her family for a boy. Like what are you teaching children DISNEY anyway Auruoa was told not to touch the needle and there were none of those needles in the house or so they thought so you deserve to sleep forever because you are stupid enough to touch the needle when your parents said NOT TO. Next when they finally made a movie about a black princess she was a frog for 80% of the movie. Be- rrrrrrriiinnngggggg looks like the bell rang next class is dance Yessssss I love dancing.

The teacher for dance is Ms. Day she is awesome I think I found my role model and passion. During dance Ms. Day asked all the people who were flexible to stand up I stood up because I was super flexible that’s one of the reasons why I am good at sports. Half of the class (mostly boys) choose to got to music big mistake, dance was awesome Ms Day taught us some hip hop dances. The boys who did stay learned how to break dance. Even though the school year just started there was a show coming so if you wanted to be in the dance club you had to sign up. All of these things helped me forget about Rick. I signed up for dance. 30 minutes later I went to get water, I saw Rick in the hall. I had always wondered what I would do if I ever saw Rick again, but when I saw him I completely ignored him. However Rick walked up to me.

Rick said “ jj how are you I haven’t seen you in a while you changed a lot why didn’t you call me.” I looked at him trying to hide my anger unfortunately I could not hide the disgust in my voice when I said “ you know why” but at this point I didn’t even care I left Rick standing there and went to get my water I felt like total badass.

In my head I thought I’m bad!!!