Maria …

"Maria, your mother is very delicate, we need to do the operation as soon as possible or we won't be able to do anything if her condition worsens" Mariano, the cardiologist who has been in charge of my mother's illness since she was diagnosed with heart failure, tells me.

"I know, Mariano, I'm trying to raise the money as quickly as I can, but you know my salary is low, I'll try to find another job, just give me a little more time" I say anxiously, as I was worried about my mother's health.

I sit next to my mother as I do every day and take her hand, seeing her in that state broke my heart.

It all started 4 years ago, the day we were informed that my father and my brother had had an accident and had died at the moment, my mother had a heart attack and since then she began to suffer from heart failure.

Since that time, Mariano has been treating my mother for her illness, but now her condition is worsening, the treatments that Mariano does for her are no longer very effective, and the only option for her to survive is a transplant and the surgery is very expensive.

Since my mother became ill, I had to drop out of school and start working to pay for her treatments, I was only 16 years old when I dropped out of school, I couldn't finish high school or go to university, but my mother's health was more important.

I looked for jobs for a long time, no one wanted to hire me because I was underage, until I finally got a job where they hired me even though I was a minor, it was in a restaurant, working as a kitchen assistant, and since then it's the only job I've had.

Although I am now of legal age, I am in my 20s, even so, the salary they pay me in the restaurant is low, it was barely enough to pay for my mother's treatments and to eat.

But now with her operation everything has become complicated, the transplant surgery costs a lot of money and even saving all my salary for several months is not enough to pay for it, so I have no choice but to go out and look for another job.

"Maria" my mother says, waking up.

"Mom, how do you feel?" I ask her worriedly.

"It's a little hard for me to breathe, but I'm fine" she tells me, somewhat agitated.

"Don't worry, Mom, I'll get the money for your transplant soon and you'll be as good as you were before" I say anxiously.

"Maria, let me die, daughter, let me go with your father and your brother, don't stress about me anymore, you're still young, live your life normally like all the young girls your age" my mother tells me sadly, and I look at her with tears in my eyes.

"You're the only thing I have left, Mom, don't think about leaving me" I say, starting to cry, the sadness of knowing that my mother wanted to die and leave me depressed me.

I couldn't imagine a life without her, I had already lost my father and my brother, I didn't want to lose her too.

I had my aunt Eleonor, my mother's sister, but she lives in Italy, and like us, she is not doing well financially, so she can't travel to come and see us, but she always tries to help me with some money by transferring it to my account.

On the other hand, my father's family never accepted my mother into their family, and therefore my brother and I were not accepted either, so I have no family on my father's side.

After spending a couple of hours with my mom, she fell asleep again, the medications they give her make her very sleepy, so she spends most of her time asleep.

I leave the clinic and head to the restaurant. My working hours were from 8 a.m. to 12 p.m. and from 8 p.m. to 12 a.m., I only worked 8 hours a day, that's why my salary was low.

I was on the bus to the restaurant and I saw the palenqueras dancing in their colorful dresses, if I liked anything about Cartagena it was that here you saw the dances on every corner, it was a very cheerful place and that filled me with sadness, because they looked so happy dancing without worries, on the other hand my life is not like that of other young women, my life was divided into two parts, work and my mother.

When I arrived, I went to the kitchen, put on my apron and started working.

"Maria, come" Luli, one of my colleagues and my best friend, tells me, taking my hands and dragging me outside.

"What's wrong, Lu?" I say, confused by how she took me out.

"I have to tell you something and I couldn't say it in front of the others, that's why I brought you out here" she says, speaking softly.

"And what is it that you have to tell me that others can't hear?" I ask, even more confused.

"Mari, tell me, what are you willing to do to get the money for your mom's transplant?" she asks me seriously.

"Anything, Luli, as long as I get that money as soon as possible, I would do anything" I say desperately, hoping she will give me good news.

"Okay, I got information about a job. Right off the bat I'll tell you it's clandestine, but the pay there is much more than what you earn here working all month, it's almost two monthly salaries in one night, the thing is that you're willing to do it" she tells me in a low voice and looking to the sides to see if anyone is listening.

"What should I do? I'm scared, Lu" I say worriedly, when she said it was clandestine I regretted it.

"Friend, they're looking for girls to please the clients, there you must be submissive, and the essential thing, be blind, deaf and mute. Obey everything you are ordered to do and never complain about anything. I know it sounds horrible to you, but think about the money, Mari. One night there, it's almost 2 months of what you earn here" she tells me and my eyes widen, this girl was crazy, how could I work at that? If I've never been with a man in my life.

"Luli, I can't work at that, I don't know anything about sex, you know I've never been with a man" I say scared.

"Mari, don't worry about that, you don't have to do anything, they guide you in what you have to do and the best thing is, it's with masks, so you won't see the man's face, nor will he see yours" she tells me excitedly, and I'm killed by nerves.

But at that moment I remember Mariano's words, "We need to do the operation as soon as possible or we won't be able to do anything", I didn't want my mother to die, and I was willing to do anything to get that money as soon as possible.

"Okay, where do I have to go and when?" I ask, sighing, but more out of nerves for what I was about to do.

"It's tonight, the job is from twelve to three a.m., it coincides right with your time to leave here, I'm going to accompany you because the information was given to me by a girl I know who also works there and I agreed to introduce you if you accepted" she tells me and I'm trembling with nerves.

"Okay, I have no other choice, I need to get the money for the transplant as soon as possible, but please Luli, clarify to your friend, that I will only do this until I get the money for my mom's surgery and then I won't continue doing it" I tell Lu to clarify that from the start.

I don't know what's going to come of this, fear and nerves have me unfocused, but I think of my mother and that I want to save her, so I'll do all this for her.

After talking to Luli and agreeing to go to that place after the restaurant, we both went back inside and continued working, although my head was not in the work, I still didn't let it show.

As we left the restaurant, we went with Luli to that place, my hands were trembling, I couldn't believe what I was about to do. I always dreamed of losing my purity with the man who was the love of my life, but here I am sacrificing myself for my mother's life.

I wasn't sorry, I was willing to do anything for my mother, but I was scared, and I think that's normal, since I will lose my purity this way.

When we arrived, I could see that it was a nightclub, but instead of entering through the main door, we went to the alley next door and Luli knocked on the door that was there.

"Don't be scared, we're coming this way because we can't enter through the main door, since if you're going to work here, no one can see your face," Luli tells me and I nod my head.

Immediately a blonde woman, in her twenties, opens the door, letting us into the place.

"Hello Karry, here I bring you Maria, she is the girl I told you about who is going to take the job you mentioned yesterday," Luli says, pointing at me.

"Good evening Maria, you are beautiful and you have a spectacular body, why do you want to do this?" she asks, surprised.

"My mother is sick, she has heart failure and urgently needs a transplant. The surgery is very expensive and I need to raise the money to pay for it," I explained why I am willing to do it.

"Oh, what a shame about your mom, well, here you get paid very well per night, and if you do an excellent job and the client is satisfied, you will receive a very good tip," says the young Karry.

"Karry, there is one thing you should know, Maria has never been with a man, she is still a virgin and she told me that once she raises the money for her mother's operation, she will no longer continue doing this job," Luli clarifies what we had talked about before.

"Are you a virgin?" Karry asks, surprised, looking at me "Well, if so, your first night you will receive double the salary, since losing your purity here is special for clients and they pay a lot for it," she continues, and my heart beats rapidly with nerves.

"Well, I'm leaving, I must go home before my husband starts to worry," Luli tells me, saying goodbye "Goodbye Karry, goodbye Mari, tomorrow you tell me how your first night went here," she finishes, giving me a hug and leaving.

After Luli left, Karry took me to a dressing room where there were many lockers to store my things, and a coat rack with erotic costumes to change into.

"Well Maria, your name here will be baby, under no circumstances should you tell clients your real name, much less take off your mask, understand? It's to protect your privacy," Karry explains.

"I understand," I reply, somewhat timid.

"Another thing, you must sign this privacy agreement, which implies that you cannot disclose anything that happens here, even when you no longer work here, okay? Or you will have to pay a fine," she tells me and I nod and then sign.

"Okay," I say once I signed.

"Good, take a quick bath and change, I'll be back for you in a few minutes, since it's your first time, I'll send you with a client who will treat you with delicacy," she finishes saying and then leaves.

I stayed watching the door for a few seconds, until I take a deep breath taking courage and turn to the coat rack.

I begin to observe each suit one by one, until I decided to put on a black one, bunny style that consisted of a black lace corset, black fishnet stockings, white cuffs for the wrists, a white pompom tail and a mask with black earmuffs.

I walk to the bathroom, take off my clothes and go under the shower to take a bath as Karry asked me to, then I come out wrapped in the towel, dry myself well and start dressing in the bunny suit.

Once I was ready, I looked in the mirror and couldn't believe that I was dressed like this, I felt strange and with each passing minute, my nerves grew even more.

As I was looking at myself in the mirror, Karry comes to pick me up.

"Ready baby? The client has already arrived," she tells me and my hands started to sweat, but it was too late and I couldn't regret it.

"Yes, I'm ready, I think," I say with a little nervousness.

"Don't worry, I know you're nervous, this is your first time doing this and it's also your first time being with a man, but don't worry that the client I assigned you is an excellent person and will treat you with great care and affection since it's your first time," Karry tells me and I feel just as nervous as when I arrived, but not completely.

We leave the dressing room and go to a room that was lit by a red light, inside it there was a large bed in the center of the room, and on the sides of it there was something like a coat rack, but from that hung belts, whips and ropes. On the other side there was something like a display case where handcuffs, wristbands, dildos and many other things were displayed. On the ceiling above the bed, there was a large mirror and at the foot of the bed, a few centimeters from it there was a harness hanging from the ceiling, as well as sofas and bondage.

I looked at Karry with fear, she had never anticipated this to me, in my mind I imagined only a normal room and having normal sex with the client, but they never told me that the client was a kind of sex psychopath.

She smiled at me knowing what I was thinking and then went to the man who was in a corner of the room where the red light hardly illuminated and which I had not realized was there. He was a man in a suit and black mask.

"Good evening Mr. Black, I called you because I have new merchandise that you will like," he says taking me by the waist "She is baby, it is her first night here and she still retains her purity," he says smiling and I see the man get up from the armchair where he was sitting and walk towards us.

Instinctively out of fear I took a few steps back, but Karry held me back so I wouldn't retreat.

"Thank you Karry, leave us alone," the man tells her and Karry nods and leaves the room leaving us alone "Don't be afraid, since it's your first time I won't use any of that with you tonight," he says, taking my hand and leading me to the bed.

He slowly approached my face and began to kiss me gently, while with his hands he was lowering the zipper of the corset I was wearing.

Once he releases it, he lets it fall slowly to the floor leaving me half naked, since I only had the panties and fishnet stockings left.

Slowly he began to lower his kisses to my neck while with his hands he massaged my breasts.

Then he laid me down on the bed and began to kiss my breasts, and to play with his tongue on my pink spots.

I didn't know what this feeling was that I was feeling, it was the first time I felt something like this, everything inside me stirred and a kind of electricity I felt running through my whole body.

His kisses began to lower slowly through my belly, little by little until reaching my panties, which with great care began to remove.

My body didn't stop trembling, I didn't know if it was because of the nerves I had or because of what that man was making me feel with his kisses.

Suddenly he opened my legs, and buried his face in my lower part, instinctively I tried to remove him from there, I began to feel a lot of shame for what he was doing and my nerves returned to be the main feeling I had.

"Relax, just let yourself go, close your eyes and relax in what you feel with this," he tells me to bury his face there again.

My breathing was very accelerated, I felt fire in my face for the shame I felt, but little by little I tried to do what he had asked.

I relaxed a little and closed my eyes, I began to feel how he played with his tongue on my sensitive spot and my entrance, I began to feel spasms in my lower belly and my moans came to the surface without being able to contain them.

He began to play with his tongue more quickly, which caused me to totally lose the control I was trying to maintain and without being able to contain it, I ended up reaching my first release.

The trembling in my body became even stronger and my breathing was agitated, my heart was beating strongly and I couldn't control it.

Quickly that man got on top of me, placing himself between my legs.

"This is going to hurt a little at first, just relax, I'll be as tender as possible so it doesn't hurt so much," he tells me, kissing me again, while little by little he was introducing himself inside me.

I didn't understand at what moment he had taken off his clothes, it must have been when he was trying to catch his breath after my first orgasm, since with my eyes closed I didn't see him.

An intense pain I felt when he crossed my barrier, taking my purity with him. My hands were nailed to his back and a couple of tears began to come out of my eyes.

He stood still for a few seconds, while I tried to relax, and little by little he began to move again.

His thrusts began to accelerate little by little until the pain I felt had vanished and in its place I began to feel pleasure.

When my moans began to come out for that pleasure I was feeling, he began to give stronger thrusts making me lose my mind.

After several minutes, I feel what comes out of my interior, and makes me turn upside down and positioning again, he re-enters my interior, while with his hands he massaged my pink spots.

I don't know how long we've been there, but it had been eternal, when finally he reached his release.

He stood still for a few seconds trying to control his breathing, then I feel him coming out of my interior and getting out of bed, I see him taking off the condom that I don't know when he had put on and starting to get dressed.

Seeing him get dressed, I quickly got up to do the same, but I fall to the floor when I have no strength in my legs.

"Don't get out of bed, wait a while before doing it, your legs are weak because it's your first time," he tells me, carrying me in his arms and putting me back on the bed "When you feel a little better, take this, it's an analgesic, you'll need it, since tomorrow everything will hurt if you don't," he tells me, placing a pill on the nightstand.

I see him take money out of his jacket, then he leaves it on the nightstand next to the pill.

"This is your payment, I loved being with you, goodbye darling," he says, coming over to give me a kiss and then leaving the room.

After the man left, I carefully tried to get up, and I took the money he had left on the bedside table. When I looked at it, I saw that they were many 100 bills, and when I saw the amount he had paid me, I almost had a heart attack. It was 3 months' salary at the restaurant in just one night. Still, it wasn't enough to cover the cost of my mother's operation, and that depressed me, since it meant I had to keep doing this until I reached the amount to pay for Mom's operation.

A little calmer, I carefully got out of bed. My legs were hurting horribly, so I took the pill he had left me, then put on a robe that was hanging on a hook on the wall and left the room again for the dressing room where I had left my clothes.

When I arrived, I went to take a shower, I needed it urgently, I felt dirty and sticky. Once ready, I put my clothes back on and left the dressing room for Karry's office.

"Karry, I'm leaving, I'm all sore, I want to go rest," I say, entering once she authorized me.

"Go baby and rest well, since tomorrow night you must return, the same client reserved you for tomorrow as well," she says, smiling, and I open my eyes wide.

"To... tomorrow?" I say, scared, since I don't think I'll recover so quickly for tomorrow night.

"Yes, I recommend you take painkillers every 8 hours baby, so you recover faster," she says very calmly. "This job is like that baby, that's why the clients pay very well, and this one in particular pays much more if he is satisfied with the submissive, and if he asked for you again for tomorrow, it's because he was satisfied with you, so don't disappoint him," she says, and I sigh.

"Hang on a little longer Maria, you're doing all this for Mom, hang on a little longer," I say to myself.

"Okay, after my work I'll be here," I say resignedly.

After saying goodbye to Karry, I leave the club and head to the clinic where Mom is hospitalized. I needed to be with her, I felt bad about what I had just done. I never thought I would go so low to get some money, but I knew that was the only fastest way to gather the money for her surgery. Mariano had been very clear when he told me that she was getting worse and that she needed the transplant as soon as possible, and that's why I had no choice but to accept this job.

When I arrive at the clinic, I go to her room, everything was silent, it was past 3 am and there was almost no movement at this time.

When I enter the room, I sit next to my mother who was asleep, I rest my head next to her and my tears begin to fall silently until I end up falling asleep.

I wake up again with the sound of my cell phone alarm. When I look at the time I see that it is 7 am, I get up and my mother was awake.

"Good morning mommy, how are you feeling today?" I ask, taking her hand.

"I'm fine darling, I feel better than yesterday, don't worry," she says, smiling.

"That's good mom, it makes me very happy to see you well and very soon you will be able to leave this place and live a normal life," I say with a smile of happiness.

"Mari, the surgery is very expensive daughter, you can't gather it so quickly, please, don't get into debt with anyone to get that money, I'll be better if I die daughter, don't complicate your life anymore for me," she says sadly, and I get up angrily from the chair.

I was tired of her always mentioning death, didn't she understand how important she was in my life and that she was the only thing I had left here, besides my aunt, but she was too far away.

I began to cry uncontrollably, I couldn't bear so much anguish that I felt, didn't she put herself in my place?

"Stop saying to let you die," I say angrily and crying. "If it were the other way around. If I were the one in that bed on the verge of death, would you let me die?" I ask with a lot of anguish.

She was silent and lowered her gaze, she knew that I was right, if I were the one in that bed, she would never let me die, and like me, she would do anything to save me.

"Please, don't mention death again Mom, because if you die, I'm going with you," I say crying.

"Don't cry anymore darling, I just feel sad that you're sacrificing so much for me, I want you to be happy and not stressed about everything that happens to me," she says sadly.

"I understand what you're telling me, but I want you to understand too, that you're the only thing I have mommy and I won't be happy without you by my side," I say, sitting down again and taking her hand again.

"I'm sorry daughter, I won't say that again, I just don't want you to exhaust yourself," she says with a faint smile.

"I'm fine Mom, you being alive gives me strength to continue, you are my world and my pillar, and it will always be like that," I say, getting up and giving her a hug. "Now I'm leaving, I have to go to work at 8, I'll come at noon when I get off," I say, giving her a kiss on the forehead.

"Take care my girl," she says smiling and I nod before leaving the room.

When I leave the room I meet Mariano who was arriving to check on my mother.

"Maria, are you leaving already?" he says, looking into my eyes.

"Yes, I was leaving, I start at the restaurant at 8, why? Did you need to talk to me?" I ask, looking at him.

"Relax, it's not something very important, we'll talk at noon when you come back, if not you'll be late," he says with a smile and my heart begins to beat hard, since when he said "relax" it reminded me of the man from last night, more than anything because of his tone of voice.

I liked Mariano, for a long time, but I was no longer worthy of him, after what I had done the night before, I felt dirty and used, I was no longer worthy of being with someone as good as him.

I lowered my gaze, remembering what happened last night and that I had stopped being pure and innocent, made me feel miserable, but I knew that I was doing everything for my mother, for her health and for her well-being.

"Okay, I get off at 12, I'll come straight here," I say seriously.

"Good, I'll wait for you in my office then," he says smiling and I nod before passing by his side and leaving the clinic.

I felt ashamed to look him in the eyes, and I had to take him out of my heart, I could no longer continue thinking of him as someone different, I already felt impure for everyone.

When I arrived at the restaurant, I put on the apron and started my working day.

Mid-morning during my break time, I take another painkiller, as I felt small discomfort in my intimate part, when suddenly Luli approaches me, takes me by the hand and takes me back to the alley next to the restaurant.

"Tell me, tell me, how did it go last night?" she says excitedly, inquiring about what I had done last night.

"What do you want me to tell you? Nothing out of this world happened, I just had sex with a stranger," I say ashamed.

"Oh my god Maria, but did you like it? Did you enjoy it? How much did he pay you?" she asks me too excited.

"I don't know, half and half, since the nerves didn't go away and with respect to the payment, I had never seen so many bills together, in one night I earned what I would earn here working 3 months," I say surprised.

"Wow Maria, at this rate your mommy will be able to have surgery much sooner than you imagined," she says happily.

"Yes, I know, that's why I agreed to do it, all for her friend," I say smiling.

We talked a little more with Luli and then we went back to work, since we still had two more hours of work left.

At noon, I say goodbye to Luli and go back to the clinic.

When I arrive I go to Mariano's office, I knock on the door and a few seconds later he opens the door.

"Maria, welcome, come in," he says smiling and letting me in.

"Thank you Mariano," I say, entering the office and sitting in the chair in front of the desk.

He closes the door again and sits in his chair in front of me.

"Well Maria, what I wanted to tell you is that the date for your mom's surgery has already been scheduled, it will be in a week, I already talked to my entire medical team who are the ones who will assist me in the surgery, everything is already arranged. This is the total cost of the surgery," he says, handing me a sheet with all the details of the surgery and the cost of it.

My heart almost jumped out when I saw the cost, how much more should I do this that I was doing to reach that price?

"I know that it is very little time for you to gather the money, but your mom's health is getting worse every day, we have a heart and before they give it to another person we must occupy it, because then it will be more complicated to get another one," he says with concern.

"I understand." I only manage to say, since a knot had formed in my throat from the anguish I felt.

"Maria, listen to me, I know what you're thinking and what worries you, I can put the money for your mom's operation, then you pay it back to me, I'm not in a hurry with that," he says and my tears begin to fall, why hadn't he told me that before? And I wouldn't have made the mistake I made last night, now it's too late, what's done is done.

"Don't worry, you do enough by taking care of my mother so that she is still alive, I will take care of the money and before the surgery I will have it," I say, getting up from the chair to leave.

"Wait Maria, what's wrong? Since this morning I notice you cold and distant with me, did I say or do something that bothered you?" he asks confused and I start crying again, since I felt dirty after what I did last night.

"I'm sorry Mariano, I didn't have a good night, I just need to rest for a while before going back to work in the afternoon, that's all, exhaustion," I lie, since I couldn't tell him why.

After apologizing to Mariano, I leave his office and go to my mother's room, when I arrive she was having lunch, we talked a little and then I lay down for a while on the small sofa in the room.