The suffocating quiet in the conference room clung to Lin Nuannuan's skin like a cold, damp shroud.
The air conditioner hissed out a chill, but it couldn't disperse the dust motes dancing in the projector's beam, nor could it cut through the unconcealed disdain plastered on the oily face of Department Director Zhang. His thick, stubby finger hammered the smooth tabletop like it was tolling a funeral bell.
"...So, this is the proposal you spent three all-nighters on?" Director Zhang's voice was low, deliberately so, carrying an authority that made everyone's spine stiffen. "Lin Nuannuan, I asked you to analyze market data, not write a primary school essay for me! Illogical, lacking focus, complete and utter nonsense!"
A beautifully printed proposal was slammed onto the table, its pages splaying out like birds with broken wings, lying there helplessly.
Lin Nuannuan sat at the far end of the long table, her nails digging sharply into her palms. The pain was the only thing holding her fragile composure together. She wanted to explain – that the problematic data sources were the ones he had provided, that the confusing core direction was the one he himself had pounded the table to confirm in the last meeting. But her throat felt packed with burning sand, scorching and painful, unable to force out a single word.
She could feel the gazes of her colleagues around her – fleeting sympathy, hurriedly averted indifference, and, more than anything, a sense of relief that it wasn't them and a secretive enjoyment of the spectacle. Sister Wang, sitting directly across from her, even tilted her head slightly, adjusting her gold-rimmed glasses as a cover, the faint, almost imperceptible curve at the corner of her mouth like a fine needle, stinging Lin Nuannuan's eyes.
"The company doesn't support idlers, let alone fools!" Director Zhang's voice suddenly rose, flecks of spit flying in the projector's light like a swarm of disgusting little insects. "If you can't even handle a basic PowerPoint, I truly wonder how you managed to sneak in here in the first place! Redo it before you leave today! If it's not done properly, get the hell out!"
The words "get the hell out" slammed into her eardrums like two heavy, soundless slaps, making the noise of the world instantly fade away. She kept her head bowed死死地, staring at the notebook open in front of her. The densely packed handwriting blurred and distorted, swimming in the moisture gathering in her eyes. She could smell the overly strong cologne that belonged to Director Zhang, permeating the air, mixed with the chemical scent of printer toner, forming a unique and nauseating aroma of humiliation.
Time crawled by agonizingly slow. The meeting finally ended. The crowd receded like the tide, accompanied by low murmurs and the rustling of gathered belongings. No one glanced her way, as if she were a source of plague carrying bad luck.
Lin Nuannuan remained rigid in her seat until the conference room was empty save for her. Slowly, finger by finger, she unclenched her bloodless hands, revealing deep crimson crescent marks in her palms. She began mechanically gathering the scattered pages, condemned as "garbage." Her fingertips trembled slightly as they touched the cold paper.
Clutching the heavy stack of her "failure," she walked out. The main office area outside was brightly lit, colleagues chatting and laughing as if the storm had never happened. Head down, she hurried through the noise, wanting only to hide, to find a corner untouched by any gaze.
She muddled through until clock-off time, practically fleeing that cold prison of glass and steel.
The evening metro was like a sardine can packed with despair. She was jostled in the thick, sticky air, a mix of sweat, cheap perfume, and lingering lunch smells, her body swaying violently with the carriage while her soul seemed detached, hovering above,冷漠地 staring down at the weary shell named "Lin Nuannuan."
Her phone screen lit up in the dim carriage, casting a ghostly glow on her bloodless face. It was a message from her best friend, Su Yuan: a carefully crafted selfie in an upscale restaurant with gourmet food. In the picture, Su Yuan, bright-eyed with gleaming white teeth, her makeup perfect like a magazine cover girl, stood against an elegant, expensive backdrop, a crystal chandelier refracting warm light. The caption read: "Babe, found this new place, tastes amazing! Ambiance is top-notch too! Let's come together next time~"
It was a parallel universe, glossy and bright, completely severed from the world of exhaustion, sweat, and suffocation Lin Nuannuan was trapped in now. She moved her stiff fingers, wanting to reply with an "OK" or a happy emoji, but found she didn't even have the strength to twitch the corner of her mouth. In the end, she just turned off the screen, sealing away the smiling face that stung her eyes into darkness.
Returning to her rented, thirty-square-meter studio, the darkness and silence, like living entities, instantly swallowed her whole. She didn't turn on the light, just collapsed onto the cold floor, her back against the equally icy door, as if only this could grant her a sliver of pathetic security.
The scenes from the day played, twisted, and magnified uncontrollably in her mind – the disdain shooting from Director Zhang's eyes, narrowed to slits by fat; the constantly moving lips of her colleagues as they whispered; the meaningful, slightly gloating look in Sister Wang's eyes behind those gold-rimmed glasses... "Fool," "idler," "get the hell out"... These words were no longer sounds; they had transformed into tangible, venomous needles, repeatedly, precisely stinging her most sensitive nerves.
Her thoughts drifted uncontrollably further back. In college, her ex-boyfriend Qin Hao, to whom she had given all her tenderness and dreams, had used a similarly contemptuous tone, as if appraising a flawed item, to tell her just before graduation: "Lin Nuannuan, you're great, really kind, but... too ordinary. We're not suited. Our paths are different." Then, he had walked away from her world, arm in arm with another, prettier, more well-connected girl, as if discarding an old garment.
Why?
Why was she always the one negated, abandoned, trampled upon so easily? Was she not hardworking enough? Who saw her when she worked late into the night? Was she not kind enough? She always tread carefully, mindful of everyone's feelings, and for what? Or was she truly, as they said, essentially a worthless good-for-nothing, deserving to be eliminated?
A massive wave of grievance and bone-deep powerlessness surged up, drowning her instantly. Her last psychological defense crumbled completely. Tears finally broke through the dam, large, scalding drops falling onto her tightly clasped hands, warm for a moment before turning cold. She buried her face deep in her knees, curling her whole body into a ball. Her shoulders shook with uncontrollable tremors, suppressed, broken sobs echoing helplessly in the empty, silent room.
And it was at that moment, the phone she had tossed carelessly onto the carpet nearby lit up again, abruptly and without warning.
It wasn't a message notification from Su Yuan, nor any news alert or software update.
In the dim light, the screen seemed to unlock itself autonomously. An application icon she had never seen before, minimalist to the point of being eerie, appeared quietly and突兀ly in the very center of the screen. The icon was a pure black background, upon which a few simple lines, seemingly traced with precise,幽蓝色 starlight, vaguely outlined the shape of an... ancient, silently operating spindle or loom.
Below the icon, there was no application name. Just blank space.
Just as Lin Nuannuan, tearful, dazed, and barely conscious, caught a glimpse of it, a line of elegant, icy white art font surfaced clearly above the icon, like an iceberg emerging from the water:
"Lin Nuannuan, do you desire change?"
The ghostly light from the phone screen illuminated Lin Nuannuan's tear-streaked face in the gloom. Those words—"Lin Nuannuan, do you desire change?"—seemed to possess a magic, piercing through the fragile wall of despair and self-pity she had built, striking directly at the corner of her heart where something was screaming madly.
Desire change?
How could she not!
She wanted to tear apart Director Zhang's disgusting smirk; she wanted to possess Su Yuan's unquestionable confidence and charm; she wanted Qin Hao and his new girlfriend to kneel before her, consumed with regret; she wanted to escape this cramped rented room, to escape all of this suffocation!
The thought spread like wildfire, instantly consuming her brief fear and reason. She practically pounced on the phone, snatching it up. As her fingertip touched the cool screen, three options materialized calmly below the text, so precise it was chilling:
1. Make those who humiliated me pay the price they deserve.
2. Gain undeniable recognition and success, once.
3. Possess a captivating charm that cannot be ignored.
No extra explanations, no exaggerated promises. The options were concise, direct, yet carried a cold, all-knowing, fate-controlling air.
Lin Nuannuan's heart hammered wildly in her chest, blood rushing to her head, a buzzing in her ears. Her gaze locked onto the first option. Make those who humiliated me pay the price… Director Zhang… that man who shattered her dignity before the entire department…
A cold voice whispered faintly in the depths of her mind: What is this? A virus? A scam? Or… something worse?
But the voice was quickly drowned out by more turbulent emotions. So what if it's a scam? What did she have left to lose? The worst outcome was just maintaining the status quo, or something even worse. But what if… what if it was real? The thrill of seeing an enemy brought low, even for a moment, was enough to soothe her shattered spirit right now.
Her breathing became ragged, her fingers trembling slightly with the force of her grip. Reason and madness warred fiercely in her head. She tried to turn off the phone, holding down the side button, but the screen remained unresponsive. She tried to swipe away from this interface, her finger sliding across the screen to no effect, as if the image was burned into the deepest layer of the display. This App was like a persistent parasite, firmly lodged in her phone.
The eerie blue loom icon rotated quietly in the darkness, as if silently urging her, or perhaps mocking her hesitation.
Finally, the emotions suppressed all day—a mix of humiliation, anger, and destructive desire—breached the last levee. She closed her eyes, with a near-self-destructive resolve, and pressed her trembling fingertip heavily onto the first option.
The screen changed instantly.
Against the deep black background, the faint blue lines of the loom suddenly brightened, as if infused with energy, and began to spin faster. Countless fine, silky points of light converged from all directions, greedily devoured and woven by the loom. The entire process was soundless, yet filled with an eerie, mechanical precision.
A few seconds later, the light faded. The screen returned to normal, and the strange App icon also vanished, as if everything just now had been a hallucination born of extreme stress.
Lin Nuannuan slumped on the floor, back against the door, gasping for air, her heart pounding as if trying to escape her chest. The room held only the sound of her ragged breathing and the distant, muffled noise of the city outside.
Nothing had happened.
A wave of immense emptiness and self-mockery washed over her. She was truly insane, to believe in such a nonsensical thing. She wiped her face, pushed herself up on weak legs, and fumbled for the light switch.
The harsh white light made her squint instinctively. She walked to the bathroom, splashing cold water on her face, trying to shock herself awake. The person in the mirror had red, swollen eyes, a pale face, and messy hair—a pitiful female ghost.
"Really… so stupid," she said to her reflection, forcing a smile uglier than a cry.
However, just as she turned to leave the bathroom, a flicker of movement caught the corner of her eye. It seemed a faint, faint blue thread of light had flashed and vanished where she had just been standing in the mirror, too fast to truly capture.
She spun around, staring intently at the mirror.
It held only her own alarmed face and the sight of the small bathroom behind her.
An illusion?
It had to be an illusion.
She forced herself not to think about the strange App anymore. After a hasty wash, she collapsed into bed. Her body was utterly exhausted, but her mind was abnormally active, assailed by random thoughts. She didn't know how much time passed before she finally fell into a deep, exhausted sleep.
The sleep was not restful.
She had a chaotic, oppressive dream. There was no specific scene, just boundless darkness, and a regular, cold… sound of a loom operating. As if a massive, invisible loom was weaving something, ceaselessly, in the deepest recesses of her consciousness.
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