Long ago in elementary school I had my first love, his name was Joey, it was grade three when he started going to a different school. I thought I’d never see him again. Six years later I had kind of forgotten about him, we were now going into grade eight luckily I had my best friends Amanda, and Jessica, to begin this adventure with.

Amanda and Jessica had been my friends since kindergarten, and we knew almost everything about each other. Jessica and Amanda were beautiful girls. Jessica was the person who could always make me smile and laugh. She always talked during classes because she knew the answers almost every time. When not doing well at school she was at her family's farm with her horses. Jessica loved her horses more then anything she loved being at the farm with them. If she could she would stay with them day and night.

Amanda was a quiet person she didn't talk much during class, but if we were talking together out of class she had lots to say. Amanda was always the first person I'd go to if I needed help with something, if I needed someone to read over something I wrote I'd give it to her to read, if I didn't know if I should do something or not I'd ask her first. She was almost always willing to help me out. Amanda was the person who I could always rely on.

As for me I was a really shy girl when I was little, so I was still really quiet at times, but I could talk for hours if I had something to say to Jessica or Amanda. I loved them so much they helped me with everything. I was always good at math and that's the one thing I helped them with. I always dressed nice in dresses and skirts unlike anyone else I guess it was just my way of being unique.

We weren't like anyone else, and we had our own little friend group. People knew us as the weirdest people in the school, for not everyone would make random noises as they walked down the hallway or watch funny videos because they finished their math work twenty minutes early. We weren't very popular, but we didn't care, for we were happy to have each other.

Our lives were pretty good and normal in our own way until we started grade 8, and everything changed. We were in the same class so everything started out really good, but then two new guys named Hunter and Malachi joined our class. At first, we didn't care that these new guys came. Jessica introduced herself to them and soon became friends with them, where as Amanda and I didn't really acknowledge them at all.

I never really knew much about malachi other then he was really tall and easy to pick on. I never really liked Malachi, but in a seating plan we got put next to each other and were forced to talk to each other almost everyday. I didn't really hate it, I was just kind of shy and didn't like talking to people, so the thought of talking to this guy I didn't really know made me kinda scared. I was fine with it though; it's not like I'd have to talk to him many other times.

A few weeks into the school year I was talking to Jessica, and she told me that she liked Malachi, and he liked her back. I'm sure if Jessica wasn't waiting for college they would have started dating. Jessica started hanging out with Malachi more now, instead of sitting with me and Amanda, in classes, she sat with Malachi. Everyday at lunch, Jessica and Malachi would take walks together. I became kind of jealous that Malachi spent more time with Jessica then I did. Amanda and I started eating lunch with them (or at least tried to no one can eat at that table without laughing). I even started going on walks with them and started sitting with them in classes. From hanging out with them I started hanging out with all the other people they ate lunch with. Jessica and Malachi ate lunch with a bunch of other people, including Joey, Hunter, and a few other people.

Hunter was this very sporty guy who was in almost every sport. He had such nice hair well I thought it was nice, but most people didn't like the fact that he had a mullet. Hunter seemed like a normal sporty popular guy until I really got to know him. As I got to know him he got weirder and turned out to be as weird and funny as my other friends.

Joey was my old friend who I hadn't seen in a 6 years just seeing him brought back so many good memories. Joey had long hair and the cutest smile. Even though we were friends before I didn't really think about him as a friend. I didn't consider many people my friends at that point in time and I was fine with it.

After a while I thought I started being friends with Hunter because I hung out with him so much; I even started liking him. We had been hanging out for a while when one day after school Amanda asked me if I liked Hunter. At this point I hadn't really thought about it, and I didn't really know what to say, so I said yeah, maybe a little. After that, I went home and thought about it some more. It turned out I liked him a lot and I just didn't realize I did. The next day we weren't really doing anything in shop class, so I told Jessica that I liked Hunter. Three days later, it was October 28th I told Hunter that I liked him, and he said he didn't really like me. Hunter then lied and told Jessica that he kind of liked me back, and Jessica being the good friend that she was told me that Hunter liked me. This made me so happy. Jessica loved the idea of me and Hunter dating even though we didn't start dating Jessica started planning our wedding. She even gave us the ship name Runter.

A few days later I found out Hunter had lied when he said he liked me. This crushed me and this was the first of many times that he broke my heart. I still really liked Hunter, and to make things worse he said "just because you like me and never talked to me in person doesn't make us friends." He crushed me for a second time, so I told Jessica and Amanda all of this and they helped me feel better.

Later on at school, I was in a classroom with Hunter and a few other people at lunch, and I started talking to him in person. That night, Hunter changed his mind about me, he said we could be friends for I was a pretty cool girl after all. I was so happy to finally be Hunter's friend, for being his friend brought me one step closer to being his girlfriend.

After that, life was fine for a while; I was happy to have another friend, and I was even starting to like Malachi as a friend a little. Then Hunter got a girlfriend, Emily, and she was also my sister's best friend. Hunter stopped hanging out with me. He even stopped answering when I texted him. This made me angry and quite sad; it felt like I had just lost my new friend. I kept sending Hunter stuff until he answered me, and he said stop sending me stuff it's really annoying and I have a girlfriend now, so stop crushing on me. He crushed me for a third time. This made me upset because I thought I loved him so much.

I didn't know what to do, so I told my friends what had happened, and Jessica said to him, "Hunter I'm gonna kill you", because he had hurt her best friend once again. Jessica then told me," this jerk isn't good enough for you, so go find someone who will like you for you".

After this, I stopped liking Hunter or at least tried to, but it didn't even last a week. We soon became friends again. I was happy to have a friend that I could talk to about this, without Jessica I dont know what would have happened. After this Jessica stopped liking Malachi because he turned out not to be who jessica hoped he was. So now we were three friends who thought we'd sadly always be single, well not really, but we would live on together forever even if we met and made some new friends along the way.

After a while I realized that I needed to stop crushing on Hunter because it was making me go incane. I liked Hunter more then before, but Hunter and I were just friends. I thought I loved him but now I know I was just looking for a new friend. I wanted him to be happy, and if that meant having Emily as his girlfriend that was okay. I was just happy to have another friend that who I felt could almost always talk to. Hunter was my friend and if he was going to be in my life at least he could be happy. If I was not the one to make him happy that was fine it wasn't up to me.

It was soon Valentine's Day i was once agian single sadly. I wanted to be in a relationship so bad but i knew it wasnt going to happen. I always thought to myself why would anyone want to date me? And once again I let another valentine's day pass being single. I was sad to be single, but at least I had my friends to keep me happy. I still liked hunter but my friends still thought I deserved a better guy then Him even if Amanda kept sending me things like #Runter and #make Runter great again, as a joke. I didn't mind much I still liked him. I was way too obsessed with Hunter and knew it because he was all I thought about all day everyday even though I knew he had a girlfriend.

Even though hunter had a girlfriend he started eating lunch with us more again and he even started talking to me more. Yes we were finally becoming good friends. I was amazed by how much changed in a month. Hunter and I went from hardly knowing each other to being great friends. All because of me, if I had never started liking hunter we would have never started talking. We would have never became friends. Even though Hunter had a girlfriend, he was still a complete weirdo just the like as the rest of us.

I loved my friends, and their weirdness. I know no matter what was to happen in the future I made up my mind that they were always going to be there for me as I was there for them no matter what. We were always there for each other whether we were making fun of each other for no reason other than to be funny or if we were having a serious conversation about something that might happen in the future. We were always willing to talk. The four of us made up a new friend group we called ourselves The Weirdness Group because we were the weirdest people ever.

Because of our weirdness group I started to become less shy. After hunter came into my life I began figuring out how to talk to people. I soon was able to talk to anyone over text but it took a bit longer to talk to people in person. Sometimes just to face my fear I started answering questions when a teacher asked one. When we were forced to work in groups without being able to choose who was in the group I actually helped and talked to the other people. When some random person comes up and talks to me I answer back yeah it might take me a second sometimes because I don't always know what to say but I almost always say some back to them now. I hope it continues to be like this for a long time into the future.